Back home doubt begins to set in.
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Everything in Lucy's apartment was spotless. She still found herself straightening things that didn't need straightening, milling in circles like the thoughts in her head.
Sure, talking to the police, skimming over what happened last night had seemed fair. It was nobody's business who shared her bed. Trouble was that in the cold light of day, something about last night seemed well... not right.
The girls had said something to piss her off, something about sugar daddies, she didn't remember. She'd left them outside drinking cocktails, gone inside to dance and let off steam. She remembered grinding her hips back to back against a red headed woman in a gold dress, getting hornier and hornier and then taking it up to the hotel room like it was nothing. Like she'd not just had a two year dry spell. She hadn't fucked a nameless stranger since before Eli was born, it hadn't appealed to her, so why now? Why seduce a woman in public, in front of the hosts?
Whatever happened between Maisie and Cara was completely out of character too. Did someone spike that cocktail pitcher? Maybe that's what happened to the poor men in the pool, some sort of date rape drug. That would mean her testimony, the honest account she should have given, could have been relevant to the case.
The more she tried to think about the stranger, the more her memories seemed absurd. The intensity was all too real. She'd come hard, begging for more, clutching at soft red hair. She could hear laughter, feel lips fluttering against her thighs, but why couldn't she remember the words the woman spoke? Why couldn't she picture the woman's face at all? The more she tried to force it, the worse her hangover got, a drilling pain right through her eye into her head.
This was useless. She downed a couple more pain pills, snatched up her purse and sunglasses and walked up the street to her favourite cafΓ©. As soon as the iced latte hit, her head began to clear. She sighed with relief, sinking back into the patio chair and watched a bee skim between the tulips.
The note in her purse was real enough, and there had been a connection, wordless, breathless, she ached to remember it.
I can't call today. I'll sound desperate, she fretted.
Maybe the mystery lady was having the exact same dilemma this morning. Lucy blushed, lifted the menu and fanned herself. It was unseasonably warm for April.
What if she doesn't even want to see me?
In the cold light of day, they might be too different, maybe they had nothing but pussy in common. Would she like to 'catch a show'? Lucy had never been to the theatre in her life.
She swung by the office just after four, checked her diary for Thursday afternoon and Friday morning. There wasn't anything she couldn't shift. Supplier's meeting could move to Tuesday morning, the ombre colour job on Friday would be good experience for the senior stylist. The June rostas needed a bit of work to squeeze in all the holidays, best get ahead today. She fired off a couple of emails, compiled a few invoices for last week's events and then took out the little note.
Unforgettable, it said.
The phone buzzing on the desk made her jump. Eli's grandma.
"Hey, Grace. No you're not disturbing me, is everything..."
She froze and listened, gripped the handset with some crazy strength. It was too late for Eli to say his goodbyes. Mack had gone.
"I understand completely," Lucy said, nodding in the empty office. "You're a good woman, Grace. You always did everything you could for your son, sometimes..."
"He was all on his own,"
she sobbed,
"my baby boy."
Lucy felt herself welling up. "Oh God. Do you want me to come up? No that's stupid, isn't it, I'll meet you back home, can I organise you guys an earlier flight?"
"That's so sweet, I'll have to let you know."
She sniffed and hiccuped,
"They called a coupla hours ago, I... We're both still in shock. I knew it was coming, I thought we'd have more time. We haven't told Eli yet."
"Gracie... the kid's not stupid, he'll know that something's up. Look, I really need to be there for you guys, just let me know what the plan is."
"Thanks honey. I love you."
Lucy was taken aback for a second. "Ditto Grace. Take care."
Shaken didn't cover it. Lucy put her head in her hands. She was overwhelmed with sadness for Eli and his grandparents, but the biggest emotion by far was relief.
"It's over... it's really fucking over..."
She let the emotions flood past the dam she'd so painstakingly built. All these years he'd begged her to come see him. He sent dozens of letters to her solicitors, to her friends. Knowing he was one soft parole hearing away from being out in ten years was torture. She didn't want to hear his mother say 'I love you' right now. She'd wished Mack dead with every atom of her heart.
Then the guilt hit her. It's not like he ever stole from her. He never pimped her out, hell, her own daddy had been worse. Sure, Mack had a temper, but the worst part of this whole thing was that given time he could have talked his way back in.
"He was a killer." She said to no-one. "He didn't just hurt me, he was a horrible person." She smeared her tears across her face and winced as mascara stung her eyes. "Fuck it."
She stabbed out an SOS text to Stella. The reply came back almost immediately.
Sorry hun, out tonight, we got a sitter x X
She messaged Jess and got no reply, it didn't even say read.
What if she didn't need to talk about anything, what if she had nothing to cry about. What if she just needed arms around her, lips on her skin, someone who'd do anything to make her...
Her thumb hovered over the newest contact in her phone, the single letter E.
It was a hook up, a fling. Call her crying and scare her off for life... but it felt so real, so innocent.
The ringer purred quietly once... twice...
"Hello?"
Oh, yes, that voice rang Lucy's bell. She shivered as the memory of a goodnight kiss surfaced. "Hey. I missed you this morning."
"I thought your two roommates would have kept you too busy for that."
"It was pretty awkward. Listen, I had to call today, it's kind of stupid, something's come up Thursday. I won't be..."
"Tonight maybe?"
So eager. Lucy's heart fluttered, but she had to laugh, "It's already eight thirty and I'm still at work, I'm a hot mess."
"I could have my driver pick you up? Take you wherever you needed to go... after. You're thinking about it?"