Hello, friend. Welcome to Chapter Nine of The Journey. It goes without saying that it's been far too long since Chapter Eight came out. I'll have more to say about that at the end.
As in much of the other chapters of the Journey, let me give a content warning for addiction, depression and racism.
~~ Rural Virginia, July ~~
My phone lit up in my lap with a text for the fourth time in the last ten minutes.
Answer your damn phone!
Then my phone started buzzing, the fourth call in the last ten minutes. I finally, reluctantly, answered it.
"Hey, Jack."
"
Why have you been ignoring my calls?"
"I'm a little busy."
"Busy doing what? Are you at a bar?"
"No, I'm not at a bar."
"You text me 'Everything's fucked', then you ignore all my texts and phone calls for two hours?"
"Yeah, I'm sorry about that. I just had a bit of a panic moment."
"What's going on, Viv? Are you in a crisis?"
"Sorta, but not that kind."
"Where are you? I'm coming to get you."
"I can't right now. It's okay, Jack. I'm sorry I texted you, I was panicking about something and I just... needed to tell someone."
"I need more than that, Viv. Where are you, what's going on?"
I lowered my voice. "Look, just... I just need you to trust me. Something bad is going down, but I didn't drink, okay? It was a close thing, but I'm past the moment and I'm working the problem."
"What's the problem?"
"Jane's been arrested."
"
What?! What for?"
"Look, I really can't talk about it right now. I'll reach out when I can, probably tomorrow, okay? Trust me? Please? I promise I'm okay. I didn't drink and I'm handling things."
I hope,
I thought.
I heard Jack's frustrated sigh through the phone.
"Jack, I swear to God, I didn't drink and I'm not gonna drink. At least not tonight."
"Okay, Viv. But, you call me first thing tomorrow and tell me what this is all about."
"I will, I promise... Hey, Jack?"
"Yeah?"
"Thank you. For being there for me."
"You're welcome. You scared the hell out of me, though."
"Breakfast is on me next time."
"You can't buy your way out of telling me what's going on,"
he said with a chuckle.
"Not buying my way out of anything. Just a token of appreciation."
"
Fair enough. Call me tomorrow. Or I'll come looking for you."
"I will. Thanks." I hung up the phone and looked out the window.
The expansion joints in the two-lane road thumped roughly under the wheels of the car while I sat in the back seat, lost in thought. The silence was uncomfortable, broken only by the whine of the wheels and the clacking of a keyboard. She finally broke it.
"Was that your sponsor?"
"Yeah. He's a good guy." I cleared my throat, then said, "Again, I can't thank you enough for your help. Especially after... well..."
"It's okay. Some things are more important than the past. Anyway, this is what we do. No matter who needs our help"
Another mile passed, then I said, "Listen now might not be the time, but I've wanted to make amends. For everything that happened."
"We don't have to talk about it now."
"I know. But for what it's worth, I'm sorry, Addie. About everything."
"Me too, Viv," Addison said.
A soft sigh escaped me, as I played the memory of forcing myself to make that phone call through my mind. After I'd called my own Lampedo lawyer, only to find he was out of the country, I'd spent a few agonizing minutes trying to think of what to do. I knew I needed to find a lawyer, and fucking fast. Someone who I knew would go to the mat for Jane, and could do it right fucking now. I'd called the LWLS general hotline number and got their weekend answering service, who had not so helpfully said someone could get back to me on Monday.
There was no way I could let Jane sit alone in a jail cell under the thumb of those assholes all weekend.
I'd finally forced myself to open my contacts. The few times I had happened to scroll through the W's in the last few years, I'd always asked myself
why the fuck haven't you deleted Addison's number?
Tonight, I'd fervently thanked a God I hadn't talked to in a long time that I'd kept it.
"
Hello?"
The confusion in her voice hadn't surprised me.
"Addison, it's Viv."
"I know, I have caller ID.
"
"Please don't hang up. I need help."
There was a long pause and I held my breath, waiting for the click.
"
Please
, Addison."
"
What happened?"
My eyes had squeezed tightly shut in relief, as I'd spilled the whole situation out. How Jane had been pulled over for Driving-While-Black. How I heard the cops say they were going to let her sit in jail overnight, just because they could. How when I called her phone back it went straight to voicemail. And how all I could think about was being in Jane's class and listening to her discuss Sandra Bland, a famous case of a black woman who'd been pulled over for seemingly no reason and had somehow ended up dead in her cell a day later. How I was terrified for Jane. How I needed someone who would know what to do.