Editor's note: this story contains scenes of non-consentual or reluctant sex.
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What was I doing here?
I watched as everyone walked around...chatting one another up...mingling, that was the right word, wasn't it?
I'm not a social person, so even a 'small get together,' with 50 or so people, in a posh hotel suite, was too much for me. Nevermind the reason I was
really
here. I mean...I didn't even want to think about
that
.
I snagged my third glass of champagne from a passing waiter, not feeling at all comfortable in a shocking, ruby read, form-fitting cocktail dress. The dress looked amazing against my caramel skin, even I had to admit that. It hugged every curve, and I had plenty. The black lace Vicki Secrets bra did its job, pushing up my full breasts and practically spilling them over the low bust line. And then there was the small strip of black lace lodged between my generous buttocks...not at all comfy. My hair was pulled back into a severe bun, highlighting my cheekbones and perfectly arched brows. My full lips were died a matching ruby red, my hazel eyes outlined in heavy, smoky liner...I looked fantastic. The problem was I was
totally
uncomfortable. These were not my clothes. I was much more comfortable in jeans and a tee shirt. I hadn't done my own make-up because I always went for subtle, not racy or smoky. And bottom line? I didn't want to be at this damn party.
I sipped the champagne. Having downed the first two glasses like a woman dying of thirst, I was now beginning to feel the buzz. I didn't like champagne much either. I sighed, okay, I had to stop bitching and moaning, even in my head. My job was to try and fit in, try to relax...try to be 'appealing.' It wasn't working...or maybe I just needed to work harder at it? I didn't know...I felt like I stood out like a sore thumb.
A part of my brain kept thinking...what kind of woman gets herself into this mess at the age of 36? I mean...I was a web-designer. I helped small businesses design and maintain their webpages. I didn't have a degree in this area, I actually had an undergraduate degree in Political Science, but I had a knack for it and a small but steady pool of clients. And I was doing okay for myself. My husband had a degree in mechanical engineering. Do you know how rare it is to find a black man with a degree in engineering? So, he'd had his choice of jobs and made four or five times my salary. We'd been married for five years. And we'd been doing...okay. I mean, the thrill was gone, we'd both gained a little weight, Mason was now balding (I thought it was cute, but he obsessed over it) and we didn't have sex very often. But we were married and it was...okay. He also worked a lot of hours. We lived in a suburb of Philadelphia and he worked in the city, often staying overnight in a tiny apartment we rented just so he wouldn't have to drive home late. Now, lots of women would think their husbands would use that apartment to cheat. I didn't think Mason would cheat. He had enough respect for me that if he wanted to sleep with another woman, he would divorce me first. And I felt the same way. The minute I wanted another man, I would just tell him and we would start divorce proceedings. No, Mason had another problem that concerned me. But we'll get to that later...
I glanced around at the people again...they were attractive. There were an equal number of males and females and everyone was dressed quite nicely. I'm not sure how often this type of party took place, I didn't attend these types of parties typically. It seems Julian, a 'friend' of my husband's, hosted one every few weeks and the guest list was pretty exclusive. Most of the women in attendance were like me. Very attractive (or in my case relatively attractive), dressed to highlight our bodies, strutting around in thousand dollar high heels (the heels also were not mine), educated... black, Hispanic, white and Asian... The men also came in all colors, shapes and sizes. I think the most important criterion they had to fill was the amount of money in their bank accounts.
To me, everyone seemed to be having a good time. No one else seemed bothered by this type of event. They were drinking, chatting, laughing...getting to know one another. I'd attempted to engage in polite chitchat, but I wasn't much for small talk...and did I mention I was still freaked out about being here?
"You look like you're going to bolt first chance you get," a deep voice said behind me. A deep voice, but clearly a woman's voice. Perhaps a comrade in arms?
I smiled to myself, thinking that was the understatement of the year. I turned, prepared to share my sense of doom with a woman also trapped in this situation, but the words faded from my brain.
She was tall...taller than me and I'm about average height. And she had amazing shoulders, especially for a woman. Broad...nicely shaped. She wore a simple, excellently cut black suit that probably cost more than I earned in six months. Her hair was long, pulled back and braided into one long braid that hung down her back. Her skin was a rich, coppery brown, her cheekbones high and pronounced...the hair, skin color and cheekbones screamed of a Native American background. And she had the most amazing eyes...so dark they looked black. Intense eyes...mysterious eyes.
She looked good. Quite attractive.
I could feel the champagne zinging around my bloodstream. That was the only explanation for why I didn't run. That was the only explanation for why I took a deep breath, smiled, and batted my long, mascara-thickened lashes.
"You have no idea how appealing that sounds," I teased.
She smirked, sipping at gold colored liquid in a short, thick glass.
"Not your cup of tea?" She asked.
I shook my head, "not even close."
She raised a brow, "so what would you normally be doing on a Saturday evening?"
"I'd be dressed in boxer shorts and a tee, watching something corny on television. Perhaps pigging out on ice cream." Not an overly appealing image, but for some reason, regardless of what I was truly doing here, I wasn't trying to impress her. I just...I don't know. Something about her appealed to me on some elemental level...and I felt relaxed talking to her, not tense and frantic like most of the other people here made me feel.
She laughed at my comment...and I really liked her laugh. Deep, husky...sexy. The thought should have bothered me, but it didn't.
"Well, as appealing as that sounds, I like the way you look tonight. You're quite lovely."
I smiled, my cheeks warming a little, "thanks."
She nodded, indicating my mostly empty glass.
"Can I get you another?"
I shook my head, "this is my third. If I have another, you'll have to carry me out of here."
She raised a brow, "so, another drink then?"
I laughed...she was quite charming. And did I mention sexy as hell? I hadn't been attracted to a woman since my adventures in college, so this was quite the surprise.
Her eyes were watching me closely, carefully, seemingly taking in everything about me. A moment passed between us and then she stuck out her hand.
"Kaden Knight."
I smiled, tilting my head to the side. "Cool name. I'm Isabella. Isabella Frey."
She raised a brow again, "odd name for a black woman."
I chuckled, thinking of all the teasing I'd received as a kid, "tell me about it."
"What do they normally call you?"
"Izzy."
She nodded, "pretty. But I think I like Isa more."
I laughed outright, "presumptuous of you."
She winked, "you have no idea."
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She moved us into one of the rooms that had small round tables and padded leather chairs, comfy sofas and its own bar. The room was dimly lit, soft jazz piped through hidden speakers...there was a soft hum from the other people sitting around chatting...it was cozy. Once there, we talked and talked and talked...and I forgot all about the reason I was really attending this party. She was
amazing
. Funny, charming, intelligent. She had a graduate degree from Harvard. She was African American and Sioux. She'd traveled all over the world, including Turkey, different parts of Africa and Iceland. I noticed small things about her as she sat beside me on an oversized sofa, relaxed and, once again, sexy as all hell. Like the diamond stud in a piercing at the top of one ear. The nicely developed muscled biceps and thighs barely concealed by what had to be a tailored suit considering it fit her perfectly. The wonderfully heady cologne she wore that seemed to be fusing with the champagne buzz I already had going and creating the most delicious sensations...
She was witty...sweet...and funny.
She actually listened when I talked about growing up in West Philadelphia, an only child of a single father who'd died when I was 16. He'd had me declared an emancipated minor before he died, so I was able to keep our apartment. And his life insurance had put me through school. She didn't seem to lose interest when she glanced at my ring finger, instead asking about my husband directly. I told her about him...how we'd met through an online dating service, married a year later...the struggles we faced as a couple...
She'd never married, which she claimed most people thought was odd considering she was now in her early 40s. She said she'd never met the right woman...and we both ignored the brief awkward silence that settled between us as she took me in with those dark eyes after saying that.
I have no idea how long we'd been talking. Then my phone buzzed and I glanced down, realizing it was 1am and, technically, I was 'allowed' to leave. She noticed the time also and we both stood at the same time.
"I need toβ"
"Would you like toβ"
We both stopped and chuckled. I waved a hand in her direction.
"You go."
"Would you like to go someplace? Maybe get a cup of coffee?"
And I froze. Suddenly who I was, where I was, and what I was supposed to be doing snuffed out whatever camaraderie we'd shared. I smoothed down the snug fitting dress, glancing at the shoes pinching my toes, no longer wanting to look into those mesmerizing dark eyes. How could I have forgotten why I was here? How could I have forgotten that she
knew