I asked the cabbie to stop at the end of the driveway, I would need the short walk to the house to gather myself. The last time I came to this grand house for a party was almost ten years ago for my childhood friends 18th birthday...somewhat of a coming out party. Now, at 28, standing at the end of the driveway looking down at the massive southern homestead in front of me...here I was an accomplished free lance photographer, single, no children, living out my life's dreams in the ONLY city, I have a great group of friends that turned into a urban family of support...and suddenly I was hit with the nervous anxiety of a teenager that slowly churns away at your stomach, a slow roll of the ocean, before the storm.
Georgie was getting married.
With one shaking step, I started down towards the house, huge maple trees provided the most beautiful archway that lined the driveway, wild mysterious mossy vines tangles and danced with the leaves. I can remember walking down this same path as a young girl, coming to see my dear friend, Georgie. Mesmerized by the perfect symmetric of the trees, the fanning of the leaves and the light that bleed through them. The stones fountain at the end of the walkway surrounded the circular drive of the house, a Majestic Goddess stood in the center of the stone pool, her head tilted, wild hair coiled down her back, hands raised above her head in some sort of offering.
Hitching my bag over my shoulder more snuggly I rapped on the front door, a few moments past before I heard the clicking of heels on wood floor and the door swung in. A familiar face, with aged beauty beamed at me, dark blue eyes sparkled back at mine, eyes never change I thought to myself. "Alexandra! --- Would you look at you --- get in here..." Georgie's grandmothers smooth voice trailed off as she tugged me through the doorway, one hand clasping with mine, fingers intertwined as she drew me through the parlor back out onto the other side of the house where a few had gathered.
It was then that I saw Georgie and was sent into with a tail spin of memories. There she stood, in a soft yellow sheath dress, her platinum blond hair loosely coiled up on her head, her skin translucent and creamy as ever, and those huge green eyes sparkling at me, she crashed into me, hugging me so hard it took my breath away.
"Alex...your here.." her smooth southern voice purred into my ear sending shivers up and down my spine. She held me at arms length... "I never thought you would get here," she smiled that coy smile that all southern women were blessed with. "Now you have a seat, I just need to talk to the wedding planner about a few last details then you and I can immerse ourselves for hours in conversation -- about what the likes of you have been up to...and don't think I don't know." She winked at me before heading off towards the house.
I grabbed a glass of sun tea from a tray and let myself drift off from the others, deciding to take a walk through the rich gardens instead. I never felt like I had belonged here, growing up, and I felt even less now.
Georgie and I couldn't have been more different. Night and day, an angel and the devil, a pre-madonna and a tom-boy. How we ever became the closest of friends is still a mystery to me.
Images of a photograph back in my apartment flooded my mind, we were 7 years old, there was Georgie, in a pretty pink dress, perfect little shoes, her hair done just so, and then there was me, a deep tan painted to my skin from hours spent outside, dirty jeans with a knee busted out from where I had fallen chasing Freddy, Georgie's older brother, torn sneakers, dark curls spilling out of the ponytail my mother had tried so hard to fasten together just hours ago. We were different in our appearances even now. I had left behind the holy jeans with my boy chasing days, traded those in for stop-and-stare at me leather pants, Prada dresses, tossed all the sneakers out the door and loaded my closet full of Jimmy Choo shoes, I found at my age, chasing men called for something different then it use to, but the game was the same.