Call me Mak, because I know that for you Westerners, the Somali ethnic name Makkah is tough to pronounce. My name is Makkah Abdullah and I was born in the City of London, England, to Somali immigrant parents. These days, I attend Brunel University, where I study Criminal Justice in preparation for a career in law enforcement. Being Black, British and Muslim isn't easy. My lot in life is further complicated by the fact that I am a lesbian. In Islam, gays, lesbians and bisexuals are considered haram or dirty. Most of the Ummah shuns us and despise us. In spite of all that, the number of openly gay and lesbian Muslims has skyrocketed, especially in the Western world.
Anyone who gazes upon me would see a five-foot-nine, slim and fit young Black woman clad in a long-sleeved dark blue T-shirt, ankle-length black skirt and a modest dark gray hijab. The rainbow flag buttons on my backpack definitely throw people for a loop. Apparently, you can't be Muslim and consider yourself gay, lesbian or bisexual. The two simply don't go together, I guess. Yet the Muslim community is rampant with men who sleep with men and women who engage in sexual activity with other women. That's just the way things are. People simply don't talk about it but that doesn't mean things don't happen.
My parents, Mohammed and Salma Abdullah know that I'm a lesbian and they curse the day I was born. I haven't spoken to them in about three years. I've had to take a restraining order against them because, well, quite frankly they want me dead. My younger brother Sadiq turned nineteen this year and he wants me dead too. He told me that if he could kill me he would. Warm words from the brat I once babysat, eh? Like I said before, that's my lot in life. I am simply the way Allah made me. It is my belief that the Most High created gays, lesbians, bisexuals and transgender people just like He made straight people. If you don't like me, don't take it up with me because I didn't make myself, God made me. Take it up with Him, and may He have mercy on your arrogant and prejudiced soul. Ameen.
These days, I live in a small apartment in Uxbridge, and I work security part-time to make ends meet. I can't count on my family for support anymore. They're too busy hating me. When everything in your life is wrong, one has no choice but to move along, I guess. I'd like to think I've built a decent life for myself in Uxbridge. My parents live in Berkshire, and honestly, I'm thankful for the distance. I transferred from Imperial College in Berkshire to Brunel University in Uxbridge because I wanted to distance myself from my irate parents. They wanted me dead and I intended to put as much distance between them and me as possible. Still, in a small country like England, you're bound to run into someone you know. Last year, I was walking around a mall in downtown Birmingham when I ran into my cousin Youssef. Needless to say he wasn't happy to see me. He approached me, all glowering and menacing. I promptly called mall security and he was escorted out of the building, shouting threats in Somali all the way. Phew, that was a close one, eh? I shudder to think what would have happened if I ran into Youssef in a dark alley or something.