One Fling, Two Girls: Home From College
It seems so long since I last laid eyes on her pale butterscotch skin or let my glance rest on her vibrant brunette hair ending just below her shoulders. Come to think of it, I haven't seen her in over six months now. Even though I can not recall the exact moment I met her, I still clearly taste the moment her teal blue eyes latched on to mine across the room at choir practice. As her eyes worked like crazy glue, I silently kicked myself and quickly decided that I was imagining things. Little did I know, that gaze which I caught in the moment is so kindly stared in my direction was most definitely the stare of a girl faced with a mix of confusion and craving.
For some time, I could not shake her gaze from my thoughts. When my eyes shut to the blindness of sleep, her delicate face would tattoo itself on my eyelids. I'd watch her inside my dreams, that same look of the moment I knew and yet refused to admit. Her pink lips calmly placed together as to say something, a silent story passed down only by word of mouth or presence of thought.
Three weeks ago, she instant messaged me the story I was longing to hear but ashamed to ask for. The girl⦠no, the woman, whose image I could not shake from my mind spoke to me with her words. As her text appeared on the screen of the monitor in the computer lab, I was drawn back in time to the moment she stood gazing. Except this time, I allowed myself to see the truth, the undeniable connection that we had made that day, and suddenly it all made sense. Sitting in the computer lab, my inner thighs began to burn as I imagined my lips teasing her cashmere soft neck.
And now, I'm home in an empty house, sitting on the computer chair made of maroon leather sticking slightly to the bare of my back, in between dark blue denim jeans and a bright loose knit yellow sweater. It is ten o'clock in the morning and I'm not even sure what day of the week it is. All I know is that I'm sitting here staring at the glare of the monitor as her away message lets me in on a delicious secret: "I'm showering, I'll be back later."
Within moments I was upstairs tearing my room apart, searching for the sheet of paper I had her home address on. Considering the fact that my immediate impulse was so wrong in all senses of the word, I am surprised at how quick I was to act on it. Five minutes later I found the sheet of paper under my lingerie dresser. I took a quick glance in the mirror, grabbed my keys and ran out the door.
The December wind was numbing against my flesh, although the weather was still unusually mild. I jumped into my car and turned the heat on as quickly as possible, feeling the warm air blow out of the vents and through the holes in the sweater and on to my plump breasts, dangling about free underneath the knitted fabric. In the same moment a blast of noise shook the car, and my whole body jumped. I looked down and noticed the radio had been left on it's highest volume and automatically turned on when I started the car. "Geez," I muttered under my breath as my goose bump covered arm, dangling numb with anxiety, sprung to life and reached over to the knob to turn down the volume. I closed my eyes and took in a deep breath, then slid my hand over to the gear and put the car in reverse. In the essence of my spontaneous actions, there was no turning back now.
The car hissed at me, as if it was trying to scare me away from this fantasy which I do not and cannot own. It was a cat, purring and cooing as I let the toe of my right black leather boot glide between the gas and the break as if floating in a warm body of water. There were few cars on the street, since it was eight o'clock in the morning and all of the schools were off because of the holiday. Occasionally, I'd feel a car pass me by quickly from the other direction and felt it twist my stomach into knots.
As I got closer to the apartment which she lived in, my fingers began to tremble on the steering wheel with a rapid, chattering clang. I knew the idea was dangerous to say the least, unless she happened to be standing outside her front door anticipating my genuinely unplanned arrival, I was going to have to find another method of getting inside her house. For all I knew, her parents could be home guarding the door and she could have finished her shower ages ago. My car rumbled onto the poorly paved streets of her community and I began to look for her apartment. I was expecting to get lost so that I wouldn't end up going through with the plan, but instead I found that her home was easy to locate.
A navy blue mini van was parked in the driveway, shimmering from the night's frosting. The sunlight bounced off of the glistening automobile and strained my vision. Spots of light flashed in my view as her eyes, her shimmer powdered eyelids resting over oceans of blue radiated in my mind. "Now what?," I questioned myself as I parked the car around the corner from her apartment and stood on the corner.
Despite the cool wind, my entire body was warm with exhilaration. I felt as if I had just had a single sip of strong liqueur, the poison entering my system burning down to the cavities of longing. Her lips were only steps away, her skin so close I could nearly feel it smoothly pressing against mine as our bodies would hold another with a strength of maturity, yet a sense of a physical renaissance. I knew I would be going back to Chicago in four days and this was my last chance to taste the peach blush of her tender lips.