My wife and I were out at a bar for a night out. Away from the kids who were staying at my mothers for the night. We had been discussing various topics. Mostly how my wife, Shannon, wanted to remodel the kitchen, when there was one of those inordinately long pauses in the conversation. I looked across the table at my pretty wife and saw her take a deep breath and close her eyes for a moment. Then she said it.
"I think I have a crush on Cindy."
The next sound was my jaw slamming against the table, followed by my stammering, "You what?"
Her eyes looked around the room for a moment and then she repeated herself, "I said, I think I have a crush on Cindy from work." And another deep breath.
"What do you mean you think?"
"Well, okay, I have a crush on Cindy. When ever I am around her I feel like I did when I was in High School and I had a crush on a boy. My heart starts beating fast, my face gets flushed, hell my nipples get hard for Christ's sake."
I could see her heart beating through her sweater as I responded, "So what are you saying you are gay?"
"No," she said firmly, "I am not gay, or lesbian."
"But you just said you have a crush on another woman. If you are not gay what are you just curious."
"No I can't say I am curious, because I know I am attracted to another woman and I am not gay because I am still attracted to you and you are a man. I guess I would have to say I and an un-experienced bisexual, does that sound right?"
"I guess so. So does Cindy feel the same way as you do?"
"I don't know, it's not like I can come right out and ask her. I mean there is definitely chemistry between us. We have gotten to be very good friends. Sometimes she will say things, like I don't know, like sexual innuendo, and double entendre. It's almost like we flirt with each other and part of me thinks she is sending out signals, but another part of me says it is just my imagination, you know?"
"No, I really don't know, but I'll take your word for it. So nothing physical has happened though right?"
"Oh heavens no, first of all we work together, and secondly we are both married."
"Oh," I said, breathing a sigh of relief. "Well are you just attracted to Cindy or are there others?" I asked.
"Well if you mean do I find other woman attractive the answer is yes. I mean I always used to look at other woman and think they were pretty, or they had a great body, but this is different." "How so?"
"Because before I didn't think about kissing them, or touching them. Feeling their bodies pressed against mine."
"And now you do?"
She paused for a moment and said softly, "Yes."
"All right," I said as I tried to collect my thoughts. "So you think about Cindy that way, but you didn't answer my question. Do you think about women other than her that way?"
"Well," she said, " since I accepted my attraction to Cindy I have realized that I am attracted to other women too."
"Like who?"
"Christ, that is like me asking you who you are attracted to. What do you mean like celebrities or what?"
"Yes celebrities or other people you know. Oh hell what about her," I asked pointing to the waitress, a cute, petite girl with long brown hair and a boyish body.
"Well she is cute, but she is not really my type," Shannon said matter-of-factly.
"Oh Jesus, you have a type," I said my eyes rolling back in my head. "So what is your type?" I asked as my eyes scanned the bar before landing on a very pretty blonde woman in a tight sweater. "Is she your type?"
"Oh my god, yes, she's my type. Look at her she is beautiful."
Things were getting weird. I was sitting in a bar discussing other woman with my wife. "So where do we go from here?" I asked as a large pit formed in my stomach.
"I Don't know. I mean it's not like I am going to run off with another woman. I love you and I want our marriage to work."
I swallowed to get the lump down out of my throat before I responded, "then why did you tell me this?"
"Because I wanted to be honest with you. Are you jealous, angry what?
"No strangely enough I am neither of those things. Mostly I am curious, and a little excited," I said with a laugh. " I mean what caused these feelings to come out?"
"I really don't know, I really don't"
We sat in silence for a few minutes as I digested all that I had just heard and suddenly an idea popped into my head. As the cute waitress, who was not my wife's type, came by I asked her for the check. If my wife was attracted to other women, and she had no intention of leaving me for one why not take advantage of it. "Come on let's go," I said as I stood up and put my coat on.