Confessions 23 -- Gloria
Thank you Angel for editing.
Have you ever noticed how life gets in the way of the simple things? Not just getting stuff done, but in the way of living out your fantasies and desires? The things you've always wanted to do but once you realize you want to do them it seems too late? I have that feeling a lot, mainly when it comes to my sexual desires and the naughty things I think I should have done before my husband slid the ring on my finger. Every now and then though, something happens and you cannot control yourself. You go with it and don't think of the consequences from your actions; you just let yourself go and do what you want. This is what happened to me some time ago when my friend came to visit. A day of lust that took control I will never forget.
It was a Saturday. The kids were off to a ballgame with my husband and Laila's husband so she came over to have a girl's day, nothing out of the ordinary as we did this quite often. They went out and we got together to talk, bake and laugh. We had been friends forever, maid of honor for each other's weddings, god parents to one another's children, and keepers of one another's secrets. I figured it would be another day like most with her, cookie making and complaining about the men.
We started our day the same as always, a cup of coffee as we flipped through our cook books and pulled out recipes, then a bit of baking. Around noon we had a sandwich and some wine before deciding on the next cookie to make, sugar cookies in the shape of stars; everyone likes those right? Then things changed.
I began to roll out the dough on the counter, spreading the flour as I went, when Laila sat down and gulped her wine. She took in a deep breath and sighed, "Do you ever wonder where the romance went?"
It wasn't an odd question as we had talked about that very thing many times, but it was the way she said it; something was different about her, it seemed to be more defeated than curious. I looked over my shoulder and gave a smile to my old friend, "Of course I do. I think with kids and marriage, especially with the length of our marriages, it seems to fade. We, or they forget romance is needed. I have hope it will come back some day though."
She nodded and I began to spread the dough, "He just wants to fuck, you know, just slam it inside me, cum and go to sleep, no caressing, no teasing, no build up. I feel like a cum dumpster. It isn't that he isn't good in bed, I mean I do orgasm, well most of the time," she gave a little giggle as if she was a young woman talking about sex for the first time, "but I want more; I want to be teased, caressed, made love to. I want to feel soft and feminine. I want to explore and be explored, you know what I mean?"
Oh I knew exactly what she meant. The simplicity of what sex had become in my own life mirrored hers and I could almost feel her desires for a soft, gentle touch over a hard fucking. "I know what you mean Laila, it is the same for me, just enough to get off, not like what it used to be. Sometimes I find myself flirting with other men just to see if I get a reaction; not that I would do anything, but the thought of being chased a bit is exciting."
She got herself another glass of wine and sat back down, "Being chased would be fun. Sometimes I wish I wasn't married so I could do more, touch more, experience more, instead of a slap on the ass, a caress, slow and sensual. Instead of a grab to my breasts, a light touch and roll of the fingers over my nipples. Soft skin against mine and gentle kisses against my neck."
I smiled at the thought and giggled a bit myself. "Like I could wiggle my ass a bit to tempt and they would do what I wanted instead of what they wanted right? Soft skin, what is that? He's rough; I think you need a woman Laila." I laughed at the thought of soft skin and she joined in.
Laila stood and looked out the window before turning back to me. "A woman might be fun," she said with a chuckle. "I mean look at you. You have a sexy body, a wonderful ass, soft hands, beautiful lips; any woman would go for you."
I smiled and gave my ass a little wiggle. "A sexy ass huh? I have not heard that in some time. It is funny how we think of other woman isn't it? I don't know about you, but I am always looking at them, comparing myself to them and wondering if they are doing the same to me. I mean, I don't want to feel them or anything. Women are beautiful and nice to look at. I just wish I looked as good as others. Sometimes I think that is the problem; I don't look as good as other woman."