Author's Note: Sex scenes are bookended with "~~~" for those uninterested in plot. For those interested in plot, I don't recommend this continuation chapter as a standalone piece.
Trigger Warning: No actual domestic violence takes place, but suspicion and history of DV are a strong theme in this chapter.
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My life became immeasurably better the hour Kay convinced Dr. Valkis that he should get a new start elsewhere. But my ruminations got me worried as the day progressed and I looked back over the previous 24 hours. I hit myself in the face with a cabinet door, admitted that I can't drive because the idea of it terrifies me, proved incapable of setting my own alarm to get to work on time, and had spent months trying to come to terms with a man whom she handled in minutes.
How could she not think I was a complete idiot? She has such confidence and she's an important lawyer who...
You know, I still don't know precisely what my girlfriend does, but she manages effortlessly to wake herself up and drive herself to work for whatever it is she does. At the right time. In a car that she owns and is licensed to operate. All without knocking herself in the head or needing an intermediary to communicate with other human beings on her behalf.
I was afraid she'd think I was either too stupid or too much work and bail on me. So when she arrived to pick me back up from work, I guess I'd sunk into myself some.
My girlfriend's good at noticing those things. "Are you okay, Cuteness?" she asked as she enfolded me in a big greeting hug.
"Yeah..." I mumbled into her shoulder.
"Want me to take you straight home?"
"To your house?"
"I'd prefer to take you to my house, but wherever you'd rather go is okay."
"Your house."
My girlfriend squeezed me close and released the hug. "Off to my house we go then."
On the ride home, she put her free hand on my thigh - like normal - but didn't caress me or fondle me. It felt too weird to ask her to touch me more or ask her why she wasn't touching me more, so I fretted silently. She stayed quiet during the drive as well, which I couldn't imagine was a good sign.
We walked inside, and my girlfriend kissed my cheek and pressed me to sit in one of the dining room chairs. She started putting together some dinner in the kitchen.
I tried to sit still. My feet tapped. I fiddled with the drawstrings on my hoodie. I did long division in my head.
She pulled a package of some sort from the freezer and winked at me, then turned to get some plates, glasses, and forks. I noticed the cabinet door clasps had been replaced with magnets. Never had such a considerate and immediate action taken on my behalf made me feel so low.
My girlfriend set the plates, glasses, and forks on the table, kissed my forehead, and walked back into the kitchen. I followed her.
"Baby?" I had to say something.
"Yeah, Kiddo?"
"I know I must seem stupid, but I'm not and - if I am - I'll do anything for you to make up for it!"
Her arms were around me before I got the run-on sentence out. I love her arms.
"You're
not
stupid, Jenny," she disagreed so conclusively and authoritatively that I couldn't argue back even if wanted to dispute her. And I didn't want to. I knew I wasn't stupid exactly, but...
"But I'm just so...I don't know. I don't deserve...You can hit me if you-"
She didn't let me finish the sentence that time. She spun us and pinned me against the fridge. Her body pressed against me so tightly, I couldn't even take a deep breath. The fridge kept my back straight and her pressure against me calmed me and oddly helped me to regulate my breathing.
It was like nothing bad in the world could get to me through her.
"I love you, Jenny. I never want to hurt you. More than that, I want you never to be hurt." She rubbed her cheek against mine, still holding me tight.
I didn't speak, but my whole body relaxed.
"I get that you have some self-esteem issues to work through and that you'll need time to believe in your own value." I felt her breath on my ear and her voice had the most soothing tone I'd ever heard. "Until you see yourself as the wonderful person I see, remember that you are
my
girlfriend. I will not allow anyone - including me or you - to mistreat or disparage
my
girlfriend."
I started sobbing, not sad. I felt such relief that a floodgate opened and I couldn't control my reaction. She swept me up, carried me to the couch, and laid down beneath me.
"I'm sor-sorry. I..."
My girlfriend shushed me. "Cry yourself out, Love. I've got you." She pulled the afghan over us, rubbed her cheek to mine again, and rubbed my back with her warm hands.
I slipped my hands under her, under her leather jacket and her blouse to touch her skin. I rubbed my cheek back against hers (even though I wondered if my hot tears would smear her makeup). I laid there in her arms and did exactly what she told me to do. I cried myself out.
It felt so good to have that release. Years of emotion poured out at once. And she took it all. She just kept stroking me, petting me, and telling me sweet things.
After a while, my tears stopped and I calmed, but she kept petting me and comforting me with gentle words. I honestly couldn't believe how much I loved her. Couldn't believe my luck at her finding me.
This need took me to be really really hers. I feel most hers when she holds me after she makes me cum, but I'm super crappy at asking for it.
I tried to wiggle subtly on top of her, you know, seductively. She stiffened, took a deep breath, and held me tighter.
I kissed on her neck and jaw. One of her hands left my back and ran through my loose blond hair.
"Baby?"
"Yes, Kiddo?"
"Can we, um?"
"Hey, no. You don't have to...do that. Not right now. It's okay. We can lay here for now."
"I want to. I need to be yours."
"Angel, you are abso-fucking-lutely mine. You don't have to prove anything."
She shifted beneath me. My girlfriend always kinda lusts for me, even when she thinks I'm sad and she shouldn't.
I summoned some resolve. "Please, Baby? I need to cum." Resolved or not, I still whispered the request pretty quietly.
Her hand left my mussed hair and turned my narrow jaw. She kissed me, softly and possessively at once. The hand that had been rubbing my back slipped between us and under my waistband. She rubbed my lower belly instead and woke the butterflies there.
"Are you sure you want this, Darling?" Doubt slowed her usually crisp speech.
I nodded and kissed her, teasing her tongue until it followed mine back into my mouth. My legs spread for her, not subtly. I sucked her tongue.
Her hand went further down and tickled my lips. She kept kissing my other lips too.
As her silken lips pressed to mine, an insistent tongue teased and toyed in my mouth. Her hands are strong, her fingers are lean. Even if she had short, stubby, little fingers though, I was wet enough to make it work. More fun with her fingers though.
Her first two went into me, deep. And back in, back out, back in. Her thumb found my clit, having to dig in some since we were so tight together and my panties and pants were still on.
My fingers dug into her back, too. I imagined the little crescent shaped marks I left there as I gripped the woman I loved. I kissed her supple lips back, desperate for the release that only she had ever been able to give me. I keened in a wordless begging for her to have me.
Her fingers moved faster. Her kiss grew more insistent. She was pushing me to completion at high speed. It's so cool that she knows better than I do where I'm at sexually at any point in our lovemaking.
My hands held the arm of the couch above her head, forearms flexing. My toes pointed out as my ankles flexed as well. My back arched.
Then I realized physically that I was cresting. Another warmth spread throughout my body. I felt more liquid flowing out of me around her amazing fingers and she made me hers again with a beautifully gentle orgasm.
Her fingers stayed at my sex for a few lingering moments as I came down. Then both her arms wrapped back around me and held me.
"Are you good, Dove?"
"Uh-huh."
We laid like that, together. Until her stupid phone went off. I grumbled as one of her hands left my body to check the text.
"It's Nic, Kitten. The girls are on their way over. Are you still up for meeting them? I can tell them to wait for another night if you...don't feel like company."
"No, I still want to meet them, Baby." That was mostly true. The idea of meeting new people who were that important to her scared me, but it made me more a part of her life too.
"Okay. Since I sort of failed in the preparing dinner aspect of our evening, I'll ask them to pick up some takeout on the way over. That'll also give us some time to get cleaned up first."
She meant me, but was too nice to say it. While she texted back, I walked to the bathroom off the living room, all the while experiencing a more minor but still real dread.