Living in a World Within Me

Living In A World Within Me

Prologue:

This new Billyslate Story is a Slowburn Lesbian Love and Romance tale.

When children are a key part of the storyline, there's minimal sexual activity if they're close by. Also, generally, there's little or no alcohol consumed when children are present.

All descriptive sex in this story is lesbian, with young ladies aged 18 and older. Some explicit lesbian sexual actions occasionally feature a strong, but loving woman as the definite

TOP

. She controls the action along with playful and sometimes firm spanking.

This

55

th

and all Billyslate stories are

100% Fiction

in every aspect.

Edited By Billyslate

/Grammarly

INTRODUCTION

This story has been on my to-do list for nearly two years. It's

Fiction

, but much of the story's action develops from personal interactions when I studied at University in the late 1960s.

The story starts slow, allowing my readers, to understand the background dynamics fully. The sensual/sexual action starts midway into the story, continuing from that point.

It's been a difficult story to write but I decided to Publish it on LIT for the upcoming Holiday Season.

A more extensive description of what happened at Uni is in the

Epilogue

, which I suggest reading if you enjoy the story.

***

KIRSTEN

Screaming

and

Crying

loudly, as I stand lost near the front door of this huge building, in a Church parking lot.

People all around me ask, "Little girl, are you lost? Where's your Mom and Family, they ask, again and again?"

I scream louder, as if in extreme pain, not trusting any of these voices in my head. She

left me here alone and scared

, so I'll never trust or talk to anybody again.

Someone else says, "Maybe, we should call the Fire Station, Rescue Squad, Police, or Child Services. This little girl may be lost and her family's frantically looking for her!"

I scream for so long; it seems like forever and a day. My voice is barely a whisper, when

My Angel From Heaven

kneels, pulling me into her loving arms, "Don't cry my sweet little one, are you hurt?"

Opening my eyes for the first time since I was dumped here like the morning trash, I stop screaming, peering upward;

Kneeling before me,

I See Trust, Warmth, And Love

.

Looking into her adoring eyes,"

Are you My Angel coming to help me

?"

She smiles, "No, sweetie, I'm

Auntie Laura Jean Watson,

and will take loving care of you. What's your name little one?"

Grinning for the first time, "My name's Kirsten and I don't know where home is, so, I want to go home with you?"

My Angel

, Auntie Laura Jean lifts and pulls me into her warm n loving chest, "I'll take care of my darling Kirsten, and you'll never be left alone again!"

***

COMING OUT OF DARKNESS:

KIRSTEN

POV

Awaking from my wicked reoccurring dream, the world closes in on me, so I lethargically shower and dress.

Now. I'm sitting silently on a boulder staring into the ocean, by the sand on a Tybee Island beach. Tears flow down my cheeks like raindrops from a summer storm.

The only real person I've truly loved all my life, ashes had blown away in the warm Atlantic Ocean breeze, a few months earlier. Now 20 years old, I'm again almost as lost in life as I was in the Albany, GA Church parking lot 16 years ago at age 4!

I don't truly know if Auntie Laura Jean is a distant blood relative or just an elder

Church Lady

, who takes me into her heart and home as her Christian duty.

As best I remember being just 4 years old, my

Bio-Mother

was unloving, yelled, and hit me a lot. One Sunday morning, she leaves me standing in the parking lot of a beautiful Church and never returns.

I'm hurting and scared, so I close my eyes screaming pitifully, not talking to anyone. At age 4, I lose trust in almost everyone in my world because of my

bio-mom's neglect and abuse

.

Then this Angelic voice says hello little one, me knowing that I'm in

Heaven

, where I want to stay forever.

That Sunday afternoon, Auntie Laura Jean, gives me love, compassion, and adoring care. She takes me home with her, although I don't know nor have I ever seen this warm and nurturing lady.

Some Albany Church busy-bodies search for my bio-mom or other relatives, but Auntie Laura Jean says, absolutely no way. She starts looking for another city where we can live in peace, finally choosing Savannah, 225 miles east, near the ocean.

***

THE MOVE TO SAV/TYBEE ISLAND GEORGIA

I don't remember much about my life before moving to Tybee, Island just before my 5th birthday. On Tybee, my Aunt Laura Jean works as a caretaker, for two wealthy families' home(s).

Her pay includes money, our living onsite in a semi-attached coach house, meals, and my primary/secondary schooling, which I didn't know for 8 years until I was 12.

Somehow, through her Albany Church contacts, she'd met someone who knows someone at Compassion (

Formerly Savannah

) Christian Church. The person's relatives are members of the congregation.

A distant cousin in her Savannah family tells my Auntie, that Actress Sandra Bullock's long-time caretaker of her Tybee Island Mansion/Estate is very ill and retiring.

Actress Bullock needs a trustworthy person as the new caretaker since she travels many months a year. Auntie Laura Jean is thrilled to be offered the job. She'll get good monthly pay and we'll live in the 7-room coach house (

Castle For Us

) including meals.

My Auntie's distant cousin in Savannah, also helps her negotiate for Actress Bullock to pay my Tuition at

Savannah Christian Preparatory School

, where I graduated at 16 with honors.

***

LIFE IN SAV/TYBEE ISLAND

Living with Auntie Laura Jean in Albany, and on Tybee, while attending school in Savannah, GA, are my first happy childhood memories of life.

I love the beaches and ocean, but can't go close to the water unless my auntie takes me. Winter's quiet with only 3000 people living on Tybee year-round.

There is a public elementary school on Tybee, but I attend

Savannah Christian Preparatory School

, starting at age 5, soon after we arrive. I'm in grade KI, and a church school van picks me up on Tybee and brings me home daily.

I'm an introvert and the only person I usually talk with is my, Auntie. I lost all trust in people, after understanding how I was truly dumped like garbage at the Albany Church when I was 4.

Some teachers and most students at school have never heard me talk, except to mumble present at roll-call! For this reason, quite a few people in the SAV/Tybee community are certain I'm deaf-mute, which doesn't bother me, a bit.

Based on the School's testing program, at 5, I spell, read, and understand nearly everything that an 8-year-old child knows. I'm excellent at math and know all my tables. My writing's a bit squiggly, so I work hard on it, and being very introverted, no one bothers me at school.

My Auntie Laura Jean constantly reads to me, teaches, and tests me since I'm the only person in her life. I sometimes ask if she was a teacher before we met, and my Auntie giggles cutely.

***

AUNTIE'S WORK

When Actress Bullock is away, Auntie does, much of the routine cleaning alone. But she uses the same cleaning service as our Church when the main house has guests, or our coach house needs a heavy cleaning.

When she's on Tybee, Actress Bullock often has dinner parties with many of her guests in the entertainment business. So, my auntie supervises the contract service workers for food, beverages, and cleaning.

Sometimes, I talk briefly with Actress Bullock when she's in the Mansion. Otherwise, I'm fully silent to almost everyone living on Tybee, in Savannah, and the Church school.

Once settled in the coach house, we meet an older couple, the

Emersons

who own a vacation home on Tybee. They're very nice to me, so I often laugh, joke, and talk with them.

However, they're only on Tybee for 2-months in the summer and the same for the Christmas/NY season.

***

GROWING UP WITH AUNTIE

I'm a total motor mouth with my Auntie, who asked me, just before my 12

th

birthday, why I only laugh and talk with her, Actress Bullock, and the Emersons.

Just starting secondary school (

8

th

Grade

), I think for a moment, "I love you, Auntie, but don't love most other people, so why talk to them?

"I also love Actress Bullock and her family, so talk with them when they're at the Mansion. They treat us very nicely, with this beautiful cottage on the beach, good pay for you, and all the food we want.

"Actress Bullock and her family always hug me when they come to stay for a while, telling me I'm a quiet, cute, and smart little girl. She usually brings me nice presents, like my first Barbie Doll, a Mickey Mouse Watch, a Tablet for school, and many other gifts.

"Also, Actress Bullock gives me

$100.00

every time they come to stay in the Mansion, which I ask you to save for me."

She's always grinning, "Kirsten, you're such a good little girl, listening closely to your Auntie, who loves you.

"You know sweetie, one can only learn when we listen to others, like parents, loyal friends, and good teachers. So many people talk to hear themselves talk, but never listen to others."

Then it hits me Auntie, "Oh Yeah, Mr. & Mrs. Emerson, listen to my every word, while we're talking,"

So it's easy, "I'll always listen to good people and learn good things, especially you, Auntie. Right now, I also happily talk to, Actress Bullock and her family, and Mr. & Mrs. Emerson."

My Auntie says, "Okay my little darling, Kirsten, talk to who you want, just keep up your good schoolwork."

I explain more, "Auntie, I listen to my teachers about schoolwork and follow every school rule. My homework is always perfect and on time, and my grades are all A

+,

but the teachers aren't my friends so I don't talk with them about life.

Over time in Savannah Christian School/Church, I become known as;

"

The Little Girl Who Lives Within Herself

."

***

WHO IS INSIDE ME

I'm Kirsten Alice

Watson

and I just lost the most

Precious Person

/

Gift

in my life.

Auntie Laura Jean Watson

officially adopts me at age 12, with Actress Bullock paying the legal and filing fees, and other court costs.

But she's been Auntie for so long after rescuing me 8 years earlier, I can't change to calling her

Mom

.

I remain haunted and conflicted by my bio-moms actions, of abuse and abandonment in a Church Parking lot, almost to the point of hating the word (

Mom

).

At age 12, I'd just finished my Fresher year at Savannah Christian with a 4.0 GPA, but, I'm virtually 100% silent in class and church. The teachers now know I can hear and speak, but accept my day-to-day silence, with me being a straight-A student.

I don't play any school sports, but run on the beach for an hour every day, even in the rain. I also love swimming, but can't go in the ocean alone, so only swim 2 or 3 days a week when my Auntie has free time to watch me.

The Mansion has a Gym, which I'm allowed to use, as well as an awesome library, so I'm a vociferous reader.

My two other joys are teaching myself Japanese Jujitsu (

JJJ

) and Modern Dance via the WEB.

***

At age 16, I graduated from the

Christian School

with Honors. I'm offered

Full-Ride Academic Scholarships

at several Atlantic Coast Conference (

ACC

) Universities, finally, choosing to study for an

MBA

at Duke's Fuqua School of Business Program in Durham, NC.

I'm also allowed to double major in Engineering (

ME

) having perfect grades at Savannah Christian.

***

Technically, I'm a hermit until entering Duke University at 16 to begin studying for my MBA/ME.

During my four years at Duke, I have been more active, verbally participating in classes, but otherwise mostly a loner socially.

I also found a Great Sensei at Duke, earning my

JJJ

Blackbelt 3rd Dan* while there.

I complete the five-year MBA/ME Program(s) in 4 years but am stressed out the first semester, without having Auntie Laura Jean's daily loving care.

Fortunately, Actress Bullock pays for my travel home to Savannah (

800 Miles-RT

) on every school break during my 4-years at Duke.

Otherwise, I was extremely studious, as reflected by my graduating

Summa Cum Laude

, in four years, for the 5-year MBA/ME Program(s).

***

TRAUMA AT HOME

During my final Spring Break at home, I'm actively seeking a job in Metro Savannah or within a 50-mile radius, when Auntie Laura Jean suddenly gets seriously ill, goes into a coma, dying 4-days later.

After several traumatic months of burying Auntie Laura Jean, settling her estate, completing my degree, and deciding my future;

"

I'm Sitting On My Favorite Rock, And Truly Saying Goodbye To The Only Mom I've Known

!"

***

My whole life was before me and I intend on caring for my Auntie, giving back all she'd given me for 16 years. Unfortunately, she had a massive heart attack, dying ten days after my return to Tybee for spring break.

I'm Heartbroken that she didn't see me walk across the stage, accepting my MBA/ME-Honors Diploma, but the Emersons attended my graduation. They're the only Savannah Christian or Tybee-related family that I have maintained a great relationship since moving on the island.

Mr. Walter Alton Emerson & Mrs. Maxine Lee Emerson from Madison, Wisconsin have been stable in my life for 15 years. My Auntie routinely checked on their Tybee vacation place when they were in Madison, and the extra money was great for us.

The Emersons come after I phone and email them about my Auntie's death. They are scheduled to arrive at Tybee in 3 months for the summer but come immediately after I contact them, staying for 10 days.

Mr./Mrs. Emerson understands, my not wanting a funeral for my Auntie, but get the new Compassion Christian Pastor, Rev Marcus Johnson to say an

Ocean-Side Eulogy

.

During his eulogy we sprinkle her ashes by the beach, the wind carrying them into the Atlantic Ocean.

The Emersons and I discuss my long-term plans, with my wanting to stay on Tybee for 6-9 months finishing Duke, settling Auntie's affairs, and deciding my future/career choices.

Actress Bullock is selling her Mansion, so the Emersons suggest I move into their

Vacation Home

until I finalize my career and lifestyle plans or path.

Mrs. Emerson hugs me, "Kirsten sweetie, you're staying in our Tybee home for as long as you need. Have you thought about where you'll apply for a job, once you've finished the work on your Auntie's estate and other tasks?"

I'm very emotional, "I'd planned to apply to local firms like

Gulfstream Aerospace Corp

since I wasn't leaving Savannah without my Auntie.

"But now everything has changed so drastically, I'll need to re-think my work/career options for the future."

Mrs. Emerson smiles, "I have an idea for the summer, but only if you want. It's gonna be quite lonely for you, especially the next several weeks until Walter and I return in July, staying for 2 months.

"We have an adopted niece,

Alana Eunice Jensen

, who's had some difficult changes in her marital life and has been divorced for nearly 4 years.

"We'll let her tell you what details she's okay sharing when you two talk. Alana's nearly 17-year-old daughter,

Farley

, is deaf/mute and, goes to a special advanced engineering school for the hearing impaired.

"They'll start summer break soon after your graduation, and Farley's at loose ends with her Mom working long hours on a special project.

"I know she'll love the beach and maybe you can have '

quiet company with a sweet girl

' for a few weeks."

It takes me a nana-second before screaming, "

Yes

, Mrs. Emerson, this will be great for Farley and me, both adjusting to huge changes in our lives.

"I promise you to take great care of Farley and we'll do many fun n educational things together."

***

LIFE-ALTERING CHANGE

The past 3-months have been

Bat-Shit-Crazy

with my graduation, settling my Auntie's estate, and preparing for Farley Beal Jensen's arrival, who's deaf and mute.

I immediately dive head-first into learning

American Sign

, also scouring the WEB searching for fun summer activities for deaf/mute people.

After talking with Mrs. Emerson, and Farley's Mom Alana about her visit several times over two months, I'm happy with our final plans.

I email Farley on alternate days, saying hello with photos of me, my Auntie, Savannah, and Tybee Island. Hopefully, these exchanges will help us avoid the awkward stage of our becoming good friends.

Farley's Mom, Alana wants to travel to Savannah with her daughter. However, Mrs. Emerson and I successfully convince Alana, that traveling to Savannah alone is a great opportunity to build Farley's self-esteem.

So, I'm hurrying to meet Farley's flight at the Savannah (

SAV

) airport, using our usual Uber driver.

***

The flight attendant walks Farley into the terminal and she dashes into my arms hugging and signing like crazy.

Catching up to us, the flight attendant frowns, "How old are you young lady, I can't leave this adolescent girl with you?"

First, I greet Farley with a wide grin signing, "How are you Farley, was your flight okay?" having to spell some words until my

Sign Vocabulary

is bigger.

Farley hisses with a smile, then quickly signs, "We're gonna have so much fun together Kirsten, let's ditch the police lady and go home." as she hugs me again.

I hand the flight attendant my ID and Alana's Notarized Letter authorizing me to take charge of Farley upon arrival. "If you're worried about the Airline's liability, please call Farley's Mom, Alana."

She phones, getting the okay from Farley's Mom, and I softly hug her, "Thanks for looking out for my best bud's safety and I'll ask for you to guide Farley on her return flight to

Chicago

."

She replies, "Thanks so much for your kind words Kirsten; my name's

Angela

Marie Edwards, Chief Flight Attendant. I often make this run, and will be delighted escorting Farley back to Chicago (

ORD

) on her return flight.

We stop for Pizza on the drive home, and video call her Mom on Farley's smartphone.

She's happy with us checking in, as I tell her we stop for a special pizza and will eat it at home for a late lunch.

We'll Zoom her after eating, and Farley settles into the vacation beach house.

***

A NEW LIFESTYLE FOR ME

Zoom's set up on our desktop computer in the library and we open our call to Farley's Mom at about 4:00 p.m., after demolishing half of the pizza.

Another lady sits where we expect Mom, Alana to be, who explains she was called out for a moment to answer 1 or 2 quick questions.

"I'm Monica Ellen Brady, your Mom, Alana's corporate onsite Personal Assistant (

PA

) when she's in the office."

Saying hello, "I'm Kirsten, Farley's new friend, and hope we'll soon be best buds," signing as I speak.

Farley, shoulder bumps me, grins, and signs, "

We're Already Best Buds

, as her Mom, Alana returns to join our Zoom meeting.

Giggling, I ask cutely, "Before we start the serious stuff, do I call you Mom, Alana?"

She laughs, "Okay Kirsten, you'll call me Mom Alana! So, you two are now best buds after a few hours together."