"Will you come to my house this afternoon and spend the night?" Melanie said with a smile.
That got a laugh and broke the tension.
"I want to just devour you, Geri," Melanie said with a smile, "just eat you up."
Linda paid, saying, "I'm buying so you two can be all lovey dovey some more before we go."
Melanie walked with us to Linda's Jeep, hugged me and gave me her phone number. "Call me and I'll have your number, too."
Linda drove toward the office. "That went well. She was distraught over the weekend, like she had just screwed this up so badly. She hasn't sounded much better this week. She's monopolized my free time since Saturday. Tell me, I never heard you tell her no, was that purposeful or lost in the conversation?"
"I don't know, Linda. She melted my heart with her 'my bad' speech. She's being so open and honest. I just never thought sex with a woman would be anything like that.
It's like a whole other world of giving and receiving opened up. I've dated men since I was eighteen. It just seemed the way it was but now I don't know, is there another way or is there both?"
"Call her before you go in, then put this down for now. Nothing has to be decided anytime soon."
I told Linda about the guilty flashing on my forehead. That got a laugh. I called Melanie and we talked for a few minutes. I moved her number to my address book.
"I liked it," I told Melanie two days later. I called her from my car after leaving the office.
There was silence.
"I'm angry and upset with myself for allowing it to happen. And yet, I have to be honest and say I liked it. I didn't like the circumstances but you explained yourself so openly and honestly I couldn't help but forgive you. Let's go slow and explore this. I'm definitely not saying no. I like you, your personality and, if I'm brutally honest, your body. You're very attractive with your lean dancer's body and long legs. And we're both blondes! I never thought about sex with a woman but there I was on my back with another woman between my legs. You gave me feelings like I've never felt before. It's so different from being with a man, not that men can't be gentle but it's different somehow. I lay next to Aaron at night and replay our moments together. I feel guilty every night but I want to remember and replay it in my mind."
"I'm so sorry to have upset you. I apologize again. Just tell me to go away and I will, now, next month or next year. I promise to hear you if that comes to be. I'd be devastated but I will hear you. I don't want to get ahead of myself. Let's do take this slow. I want to know you more, go places with you, find your likes and dislikes. Come to one of my classes, you'd enjoy it."
With that, we took to talking every few days. Seemingly in days it was time to go dancing with her and staying overnight. I had told Aaron about the plan before and he told me to have fun. He didn't enjoy dancing but was a good sport about it once in a while. I had packed a small bag. Did I feel guilty? Yes I did, but not enough to stop myself. I went to her small house and knocked. She opened the door in a robe and slippers. "Come in!" Inside, she pulled me to her and kissed me for the longest time. I could feel her naked body under the robe.
"I just finished a shower after my last class of the day. Can't be all stinky!" She offered me some wine to drink and sat down beside me, her hand on my thigh.
I was trembling from anxiety and also desire for what I knew would happen over the next twenty four hours.
"You're trembling," she softly said to me. She turned and put her arms around me. "It's ok, nothing is going to happen until you're ready." She patted me with her hands, moving her arms up and down on my back. We stayed that way for quite a while until she leaned back and kissed me yet again.
The moment passed and we dressed for dinner and dancing. We ate a light appetizer as dinner wouldn't be until late, then we finally headed to dinner. We laughed over dinner as she told me stories of her affairs, of judging competitions and of her life and times.
"You said you were once married. What happened?"
"I had affairs with women I met in college but stopped when I met Paul. He was handsome, funny, came from money and had a great future. We dated for a year, a lot of which I spent in his bed. The sex was good. He wasn't as skilled in pleasing me as a woman was but I thought he would learn. We married and moved here for his job. The stress of work meant long hours and little time for us. I wasn't working and began taking aerobics classes and working out at the gym. I was in the best shape of my life and he never even noticed. He worked, he golfed and he spent time with his buddies. I hired a cleaning service and became an instructor. I met someone at a seminar. We were in the same field, both attractive and she was bi as well. We began an affair that lasted a year. I'm attracted to other feminine women as you now know. At the conclusion of the year I knew I was in a loveless relationship. I still get support from him to supplement what I make. It's how I afford my house. She and I parted but I knew I was primarily lesbian. Since then I have had affairs here or there. I'm careful to find relationships away from here. I say no to any and all requests for a date from my work. There's no mixing of work and pleasure, no matter how they appeal."
We talked more over coffee, then it was time to go. To my surprise she drove us to a place some distance away. There I found a far different crowd than I was used to. We danced with other women, men and each other though male and female alike watched her dance and shimmy around. No one paid any attention as we were far from alone in same sex orientation. On the slow numbers she held me and I put my head on her shoulder with my arms around her neck. I got hit on by women and men. I told all of them no, I was taken.
We drove home as I held her hand, then at home we moved to her bedroom and undressed each other. Naked, we lay together talking softly and touching each other. She held me as I fell asleep in her arms, the most content I have ever been. The next morning I pleasured her. It just seemed natural to do. She tasted good, I liked the flavor. Afterward we showered together and dressed, then went out for breakfast. We laughed together as the back and forth was just easy. Afterward, we went back to her house and I stripped her, then pleased her again. Later, she came out of her closet wearing a strapon. I had heard of them but had never seen one. It was menacing and sexy at the same time.
"This gives me a feeling of power. It's as close as I can get to feeling like a man. No wonder men think they're in charge." She fucked me with it and I gave myself to enjoying it.
Afterward I told her Aaron and I don't play hard, it's always gentle sex. "I liked this as a change of pace. It's surely different. Your cock is longer than his and I get more sensation from it. Maybe bigger is better, forget all that nonsense about size doesn't matter."
"I have multiple sizes so you can find what you like most." She laughed as she took off the harness and we held each other. I never wanted this to end but all too soon it was time to get dressed to go home to Aaron. I wasn't anxious anymore. It had been a relaxed and enjoyable time. I really liked her as a person and she was flat out sexy as hell. She made me wet just by her looking at me. So much for not responding to her. I drove home thinking about the time. Again, I had to say I liked it. I had liked it even more than I thought I would.
On Monday, Linda kicked the door closed behind her as she came into my office and plopped herself in a chair. "I think she's love-struck. She babbled to me forever last night. You've struck a nerve with her. But she's scared to push it much even though she wants to. Whatever you've got, you've got it spades. She's bonkers."
"I love Aaron, it's been a good marriage. But I need to reevaluate my life at some point soon. I can't keep this a secret from him. That's not sustainable for me. Do we separate as I explore this further? Do I get a divorce? I know I'm not ready to put it behind me, that's for sure. I feel a pull toward her, the sexual orientation just moves with the desire. I do desire her, that much I know. After Saturday night and Sunday I can only say it was the most content I've felt in life."
"Geri, take it slow. You've spent less than twenty four total hours with her. From both of you I hear it's gone well. Get to know her, really know her. Let it build in time, if it's to build. I've no doubt that this has been a positive thing for you even as it also has brought anxiety and guilt. I'm with you either way. Just don't let her push you where you're not ready to go. I can't stress enough that she's very practiced and you're a novice. It's exciting and wonderful. I get it. Don't let the rush of discovery take over your life. Both of you say the right words, then when you're together you forget everything you've said."