When I first met Carla, I was living in Ithaca, New York. Ithaca is a strange town for upstate New York -- people who hate it say it's "stuck in the 60's;" people who love it say it has "preserved the 60's." At least they agree on what's special about Ithaca -- they just disagree about whether it's good or bad. A friend of mine who moved to Ithaca from Santa Cruz says that Ithaca is "Santa Cruz with lousy weather." We don't have a boardwalk, either.
Many of the businesses in town are run by aging hippies who moved to Ithaca to attend school, then never left. Every second or third business or institution in town seems to have the word "alternative" in the title -- there's the Alternatives Credit Union, and the Alternative Bookstore, the Alternatives Natural Food Store, and the alternative just about anything you can think of. One enterprising soul who believed that money is the root of all evil (not a new attitude, is it?) decided to make an alternative to money. She instituted a formal barter system in Ithaca, where people trade skills, goods and services with each other. People who work for someone who doesn't have something that they want are given chits to exchange for the services of someone who does have something they want. Don't ask me how the chits are different from money -- if you want to join the system, it's an article of faith that they ARE different.
The people who belonged to the bartering network seemed like gentle, good-natured souls in a goofy kind of way (all those drugs in the 60's left them with fewer brain cells, I suppose), and I was an impoverished student, so it seemed like a good idea to join. I could meet some interesting "alternative" people and trade my services for a few things I couldn't acquire otherwise.
Upon joining, they gave me a list of names, addresses, and skills. My own name (Leah) and skills (housecleaning, vegetarian cooking, and listening) would be added to the next list. Scanning the list for goods and services I was interested in, I was intrigued to find "Carla Pierre, sculptor." I could trade housecleaning for sculpture? Only in Ithaca! So who needs a boardwalk, anyway?
I made an appointment to talk to Carla. On the day of my appointment, I walked down Cayuga Street, searching for her studio. It turned out to be right above a bookstore I frequented. Funny, I'd never before wondered what the floors above the store were used for. I clambered up three flights of stairs, then knocked at a door marked "Carla Pierre, Sculpture."
The woman who opened the door was tall, with black curly hair and intense blue eyes. I was surprised at how young she was. I had been expecting an older woman, but the woman before me was probably only about five years older than I was. That was good; it would make what I had to say easier. She sat on one end of a futon on the floor and waved me to the other end. Alternative people are not known for their formality.
I saw her take in my pink triangle -- she looked from it to my face and smiled. So, she was a dyke, too. Interesting.
"You're interested in sculpture?" she asked.
"Well, not *all* sculpture. I don't go for the three-basketballs-floating-in-a-fishtank kind of sculpture, but I do like realistic sculptures of people. I know that's gauche, these days."
She hooted. "Can you *believe* they put that thing in the Museum of Modern Art?"
I shook my head, and we both laughed. I liked her laugh - it seemed unrestrained.
"The only sculpture I do is the realistic kind, and yeah, it is out of favor these days. But I comfort myself with the thought that my stuff is more likely to be enjoyed by somebody a hundred years from now than three basketballs floating in an aquarium. Of course, it makes it kinda hard to pay the rent *until* then."
I nodded sympathetically. "I have a request that makes me a little nervous, since I don't know if True Artists are supposed to turn it down in disgust or not."
"Hey, that was good -- I could hear the capital letters." She smiled. "Not to worry -- True Artists probably don't join the Ithaca Barter Network, either."
"Okay. Well, I'd like you to copy a work for me. Not to pass off as the original or anything like that -- I just like it and would like to have it around to look at. It's sort of an unusual work, and they didn't have any casts of it for sale at the museum shop."
Carla raised an eyebrow. "I'm guessing this is the Met, not MoMA."
"Got it in one."
"What piece did you have in mind?"
"The Met has a whole series of 'Leda and the Swans,' done by different artists. Most of them just look like they're of a nice girl and her pet swan, but there's one that's different. This one shows Leda actually being penetrated by the Swan. I'm not all that sexually conservative, but I still found it shocking, especially compared to the others."
Carla was looking at me with a really strange expression. "Come with me," she said abruptly.
We exited the studio, and she locked it, then we went down the stairs. We walked down Cayuga Street, turned right on Clinton Street, then right again on Fayette Street. All this time Carla hadn't said a word. I'm not quite sure why I was following her, but it never occurred to me not to. I'm not usually a docile person, but she said "Follow me," and I went.
She let us into a little apartment in a house on Fayette Street, then led me into her bedroom. Sitting on the nightstand was a copy of "Leda and the Swan." THE "Leda and the Swan." Looking at it, I was shocked all over again, and not just because a woman was getting fucked by a swan. I looked at Carla.
"I'm not usually turned on by depictions of heterosexual activity," she said, "but I couldn't get this piece out of my mind, so I copied it."
'Heterosexual activity.' I hadn't really thought of it in those terms. At least I had been right about what the smile meant.
"May I look at it?" I asked.
"Of course."
I picked the piece up and looked at it. It was only about as big as a loaf of bread, but it was bronze and heavy. It looked, to my inexperienced eye, very like the original. Certainly it was just as beautiful, just as realistic, just as shocking. Leda was on her back, legs spread wide, head thrown back. The swan was between her legs. Fucking her. I wouldn't have said that I was at all into bestiality; in fact, I know I'm not, but there was something about this piece that got to me.
Carla came up beside me and looked at the piece while I held it in my hands. Her arm brushed my breast as she reached over to point out Leda's expression with her forefinger. An accident?
Her voice was soft in my ear. "You said that you weren't sexually conservative. Did you just mean that you're a dyke, or are you a loose woman in other ways?"
'A loose woman.' What a quaint expression. Having her so near certainly made me feel loose. I'd always been attracted to women of her physical type, but it wasn't just that that drew me. There was something in her manner or her eyes or her aura that held me. "Aura." Right. I think I've been Ithacaized.
"Oh," I said flirtatiously, "other ways, too."