Note: I hate to ruin a perfectly good story with plot, but there were some things I needed to say. I know at least one of you will understand. Lisa, I love you so much for everything youâve taught me.
The last faint echoes of my shoes in the hallway faded away as I approached the door, stopped and looked in. Five neat rows of desks filled the center of the room. Windows along the far wall allowed sunlight to shine brightly off the empty ledge. A large desk in the front of the room lay barren and the whiteboard glistened.
âIt will be different with thirty kids in it.â
I jumped involuntarily at the sound of the voice behind me. I turned quickly, attempting to retain control of the stack of books in my arms.
âDidnât mean to scare you. Sorry,â the voice said.
âOh, thatâs OK,â I managed to say. With the books seemingly resteadied, I smiled. âUh, Iâm Chris. Chris Spivey. I think this is my room.â
âHi. Iâm Lisa Owens. Yes, it is. Need help?â Lisa asked, stepping into the hall from inside her room.
âNo. Thanks. Iâm OK. I mean, let me put these books down.â I took my first steps into Room 12 and set the books on the teacherâs desk.
Lisa stood at the door, watching the young new teacher survey the room from one corner to the other. Lisa was transported back almost ten years to when she walked into her own first classroom. Was it really ten years ago?
âI donât know where to start,â I said in a tone that hinted at embarrassment.
Lisa laughed lightly as she said, âI know the feeling. I still feel that way at the beginning of every year.â
âReally?â I asked hopefully.
âYep. Itâs actually better when the kids are here because you feel more in control,â Lisa said.
I looked dejected. âMaybe you. Iâll be a wreck then, too.â
âAh, come on. Linda told me you were one of the best interviews sheâs ever had,â Lisa said assuredly, referring to the schoolâs principal.
I blushed. âI doubt it. I was so nervous.â
âListen. Iâll let you look around. Iâll check back with you in a little bit. Otherwise, Iâm just across the hall. Yell if you need anything,â Lisa said.
âThanks a lot. Iâll probably have lots of questions.â
âThen how about planning on having lunch together?â Lisa asked.
âSure. That would be cool. Thanks,â I said.
âIâll talk to you later,â Lisa said as she headed back to her room.
I once again looked around the room. I was excited, anxious, eager and hesitantâŚall at once. The task before me seemed ominous, but I had studied four years for this and student taught with excellent teachers. My natural reaction, however, was to be a little insecure.
I opened the drawer in the large teacherâs desk and, of course, found it completely empty. This was how I was going to find most of the things in my roomâempty or wiped clean, waiting for my personal touch.
I turned to face the whiteboard behind me. To my surprise, a blue dry erase marker laid in the tray at the bottom of the board. I took off the cap, stepped up to the board and wrote âMiss Spiveyâ in large letters.
I replaced the marker in the tray and stared at the words. I turned my head towards the windows to hide the single tear flowing down my cheek. I wiped it away quickly before being seen and returned to the desk.
At 23 and just three months out of school, I was new to the âreal world.â Hopefully, my 5â4â frame would at least make me bigger than most of my third graders. I ran my fingers through my hair and tried to regain enough composure to think straight about what I was doing.
I knew Linda, the principal, would be in later. That would help. And it was great having Lisa, the other third grade teacher, across the hall. But I didnât want to appear to be as overwhelmed as I actually felt.
This was so typical. All my friends knew I was outgoing and friendly, but overconfident was probably not a term they ever used when describing me. Aggressive? Yeah, right. Not Chris Spivey.
So the next half hour was spent opening every closet, rearranging desks and chairs and otherwise imagining what the room would look like next week when classes started. Periodically, other teachers stuck their heads in the door and introduced themselves. Everyone seemed very nice and helpful. Maybe this would work after all.
I walked over to Lisaâs room after a while, not so much because I needed help but rather to take a break. Lisa was on her knees, stacking books onto a shelf. She appeared to be in her early thirties, maybe a couple inches taller than me. She had beautiful short blonde hair, streaked and layered by a professional, no doubt.
She was certainly attractive and I instantly envied her body, which she apparently had no trepidation about displaying with her tight jeans and clinging shirt.
Lisa looked up. âHi. How you doing over there?â
âGreat. Itâs getting there. Iâll do books next I think,â I said.
Lisa looked across the room at me for an instant before saying, âWhat time is it?â
âAbout 11.â
âWant to head out about Noon for something to eat?â she asked.
âYes. I still want to do that. Where do you recommend?â I said.
âHow about Paneraâs? I like their soup and salads.â
âThatâs perfect. I love them, too. Let me know when youâre ready to go,â I said.
âOK. Iâll be anxious to see how youâre doing.â
I walked back to my room, hearing the sound of desks moving in other rooms up and down the hall. With my mind a little clearer, I was ready to tackle the book issue. Now think, Chris. What would be the most logical way to approach this? I wished Iâd been doing this for ten years.
Noon came quickly and Lisa entered my room with her purse over her shoulder, ready to go. I was starved. It took no special urging for me to get up, grab my purse and walk out with her. She offered to drive and I felt obligated to accept, so we jumped into her SUV and headed for Paneraâs.
It was a short drive, but the conversation along the way boosted my belief that Lisa was an intelligent, confident woman. This was good. The qualities I often felt I was weakest in were what I looked for in friends, so at least one of us knew what we were doing. And the smell of her perfume permeated the SUV. I had noticed it in her classroom. It was nice.
Lisa ordered soup in a bread bowl and a small salad. I got a Greek salad and my usual fat free, taste free dressing. We didnât talk much, with Lisa proving to be a little quieter than I anticipated. It was obvious she thought things out before speaking.