If this chapter feels different from the rest, I apologize. I lost my spark halfway through and it was difficult to write my way to a better point.
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They arrived back into Sierra Falls about lunch time, splitting up to clean up from a week in the woods, agreeing to meet at Rebecca's dads for a light dinner and planning.
It wasn't until they came back with a full week of activities planned that JJ realized Ashley was acting a bit distant. She still cuddled into JJ on the couch, still stood next to her and made goofy faces while they brushed their teeth, even initiated sex. She was quiet and almost withdrawn between their normal activities and interactions, something JJ had at first assumed was due to the new plans, their week chock full. Now, lying in bed with a dozing Ashley snuggled close, JJ began to rethink things. Was she still upset over Veronica? JJ hadn't responded to her ex yet, at a loss for words. JJ sighed and laid her hand over Ashley's, set low on JJ's belly. She needed to deal with Ronnie before anything else could escalate.
JJ woke suddenly, unsure what had startled her, her eyes adjusted to the faint light of an early sunrise. Must be very early, the backyard clearly visible through the sliding glass doors not yet washed with color, just a simple hint of light.
She rolled over, shifting carefully to not disturb Ashley, only to roll into an empty space. JJ raised up on an elbow, fully and instantly awake. Her eyes caught the light under the bathroom door, realized Ashley had probably snuck away to pee. Her heart still raced, her pulse fast and loud in her ears. JJ flopped back into the pillows, exhaling deeply.
Five minutes later Ashley still hadn't emerged and JJ was not going back to sleep. Another sigh escaped as JJ slowly pulled herself from bed and snagged her cigarettes on the way to the back door.
Ashley left the bathroom and tip toed back to JJ's bedroom. She was surprised to see JJ's bed empty, but a quick look around revealed the sliding glass door, cracked open. Ashley ruffled her hair, unsure what to do. She'd woken up at 4, her usual morning wake up, needing to run. She'd been neglecting her regimen and was starting to feel it. She hadn't intended to wake JJ, hoping to get out and run, maybe clear her head of some of the thoughts that had plagued her the evening before. Now she wasn't sure leaving was a good idea without telling JJ. Ashley twisted a curl around her finger, watching the smoke drifting across the quiet backyard.
She stepped through the door, cocking her head with a small smile. JJ was leaning against the porch railing smoking, completely naked. Feeling impish, Ashley pulled out her phone and snapped a picture. The click-click of the shutter got JJ's attention, her head turning to face Ashley for a second picture. Her expression smoothed out quickly, but Ashley had seen the crease between those dark eyebrows. JJ was thinking hard.
"That's real mature." JJ's voice was raspy from sleep and smoke.
"What? You're the one outside naked. Besides, I'm going to need something to take back to school for those long, lonely nights. Would you rather I raided your sweatshirts and panties?"
"Leave me my leather jacket. Take whatever else strikes your fancy." JJ looked Ashley up and down. "Going somewhere?"
Ashley nodded, already dressed in a tank top and loose running shorts. She held her shoes in hand. "Just for a run. I've been slacking. I gotta pick it up now or Coach will kill me. Literally run me to death."
JJ nodded and took a drag, exhaling the smoke away from Ashley. "Don't leave just yet." JJ set the half smoked cigarette on the porch railing and disappeared into the house.
Not sure what JJ wanted her to wait for, Ashley sat and put her socks and shoes on, tying the laces tightly. She began to stretch, loosening her muscles and beginning to warm up.
A minute later Ashley was bouncing up and down, accelerating her heartbeat and getting her blood flowing a little faster. JJ came back out, still naked, holding a key. Ashley stopped bouncing, her heart racing faster than her warm-up allowed.
"I had this made after the house was finished. I've been debating when to give it to you and now seems like a good time." JJ offered the key to Ashley who took it, looking down at the small silver object with quite a bit of awe. Her own key to JJ's house. This was a big step for them, one she hadn't been expecting any time soon. It wasn't so much a sign of how much JJ loved her as an open invitation into her home. Into her space, something Ashley didn't want to crowd or take from the older girl. Not to mention, they'd only been dating for 5 weeks. She didn't even leave clothes behind, packing an overnight bag for nights at JJ's.
"This is for me?" Ashley couldn't think of anything else to say.
"Yes." JJ picked her cigarette back up, flicking away the ash that had accumulated. She took a long drag, watching Ashley watch her.
Ashley flung herself at JJ, who caught her with one arm, the other holding the still lit cigarette away from them. She kissed the corner of JJ's mouth and squeezed her tight. "Thank you."
JJ hummed, exhaling the smoke she'd been holding. "You're welcome. Go run. I'm going back to bed." JJ patted Ashley's bottom and took one last drag off the cigarette before pitching it into the butt can.
Ashley left and JJ went back inside, but instead of laying down, she retrieved her phone from its charger and sat in the rumpled sheets. Opening her messages she selected Veronica and began typing.
"We need to talk face to face. Pick a day and a time that works for you, then send me your Skype details. If you don't have one, make one. I'm not buying a plane ticket." JJ sent the message after reading it over, not taking too long so she couldn't have second thoughts.
Her phone buzzed seconds later anyway. She opened the text and read, "Wow. Too scared to meet up in person?" JJ sighed. This is what she was hoping to avoid, Veronica's attitude.
"No. I don't feel our conversation requires us to be in the same room." JJ sent back.
It took Ronnie longer to respond, but when she did it was simply with a skype username, next Wednesday's date at noon. JJ added a reminder to her phone's calendar and laid down. She didn't know what to say to Ronnie, but she'd figure that out when they talked. For now, she could focus on Ashley and their relationship.
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