I was having my morning coffee when a knock on my back door startled me. Being new to the neighborhood, I approached the door suspiciously, wondering who it could be at six in the morning. I felt a sense of relief when I recognized the woman who lived next door.
"Hello neighbor," she said cordially as I opened the door. "I was beginning to think you didn't exist...I've been trying to catch you at home for a couple of days. Since you're new to the neighborhood I wanted to welcome you."
I held the door open. "Come in," I invited. "I'm sorry but I have to leave for work shortly. Can I offer you a quick cup of coffee?"
"Yes, yes, that would be nice," she gushed. "My name is Carol, by the way. I live right next door to you."
"Yes, I know...I mean I know you're my neighbor. I've seen you sunbathing in your yard. I'm Gretchen. Glad to meet you."
"Anyone who gets up this early for work must work in the city," she chided me. "It's six in the morning!"
"Yeah, I know," I sighed. "But, you know...the train...it takes awhile....."
She took a sip of coffee. "I just happened to be up and noticed your light on. As I said before, I tried to catch you at home several times...you must keep long hours?"
"I work for a mortgage company," I said. "We've been working long hours. Lots of overtime...which I like...you know, extra money. Unfortunately it's beginning to slow a bit lately. But...you know, that's the way of the real estate business I guess. Are you one of those lucky housewives who gets to stay home with her children?"
Carol took another sip of coffee. "Oh no, not me. No children, no husband. But I do work.. I'm a photographer...I work out of my home. Work when I want to...well that's not exactly true. I have deadlines occasionally, but for the most part I pick the times I want to work. The great thing is I'm not running in and out of the city everyday. I couldn't do it. Trains too crowded...and the stand still traffic on the freeways...no way."
"Well, I don't have much choice," I said. "I have to work and it was the only decent job I could find. But I like living in the suburbs, a get-a-way from the rat race, especially on weekends. That's why I skimped and saved to buy this house."
"I know what you mean," Carol heartily agreed. "This is a nice quiet neighborhood. Not like the city. What a rat race living there. Hey, what time do you get home tonight?"
"About six, why?"
"How about coming over for dinner tonight, six thirty or so. I'll make us a nice get acquainted dinner. How does that sound?"
"That's very kind of you. Sure, I'd be glad to come over. I mean, how could I turn down a home cooked meal. Should I bring anything...wine maybe."
"I have wine," she said enthusiastically. "Just bring yourself."
"I'll be there," I said, "and I appreciate your hospitality. I don't want to sound like I'm running you off but I've really got to go. If not, I'll miss my train."
"I'll see you tonight then," she said as she arose to leave. "Have a nice day."
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I arrived home a little after six, quickly changing clothes before going next door. I felt giddy. After living in the city for several years where paranoia dictates you keep to yourself...the less you know about your neighbors, the better off you are. Not having to eat a TV dinner would be nice too.
After changing, I hurried next door. Carol answered the door in a skimpy knockout dress, red, low cut...two thin spaghetti straps straining to hold in her ample breast. It was so short I could see the top of her thigh high stockings!
"Wow," I gasped as she held open the door. "Was I supposed to dress for dinner also?"
"No, oh no," she laughed. "I had some business to take care of today which required more than a T-shirt and blue jeans. I can change if it makes you uncomfortable."
"Oh no," I said emphatically. "It's a beautifully dress. I wish I could wear something like that."
"Oh, it's not an expensive dress," she said. You could afford this....."
"No no," I said, correcting myself. "What I meant was I wished I had the nerve to wear a dress like that. It fits your personaliy. I would be too self conscious. I'm sure you don't have a problem with that."
"You have a great body," she said. "Why in the world would you be self conscious? By the way, would you like a drink?"
"A glass of wine would by nice," I said.
As she poured the wine she repeated her question. "Why in the world would you be self conscious?"
"I don't know," I answered. "I'd just feel so out of place. I've always had a problem wearing anything too revealing. My mother was rather strict about my dress when I was young. Maybe that's why...I don't know."
She handed me a glass of wine, ushering me into her living room. The room was very inviting...so comfortably furnished I felt right at home.
"Listen Gretchen," she said. "With your body and looks...believe me, you'd have nothing to worry about. What are you twenty two, twenty three years old?"
"Thanks," I said beaming. "I'm twenty nine. Believe me, I don't feel twenty two. And since my divorce...uh...sometimes I don't feel very attractive."
"Why would a divorce effect how you feel about whether you were attractive or not?" she asked.
"Because he left me for another man if you can believe that. My mother warned me...I remember her saying;
"Gretchen, something wrong with that man"
but silly me, I married him anyway. Turned out she was right."
"Well, you shouldn't let it effect you," Carol said. "Believe me, I'm sure he was like that way before you marred him. And, in my opinion, you shouldn't let your mother influence how you dress...not now, anyway. I mean, after all, you're twenty nine...."
I laughed. "I'm sure you're right. When I was in High School I was a cheerleader my Junior and Senior years. I wore the longest skirts on the squad. I took a lot of good natured teasing."
Carol laughed. "How about let's eat. I hope you like it. It's a recipe that Paula from down the street gave me. You'll like Paula when you meet her. In fact you'll probably meet most of the women in the neighborhood here. Since I'm the only single woman around here, most of the them drop in from time to time just to get away from their husband and kids. Their oasis, so to speak."
After dinner we had another glass of wine. The conversation was pleasant enough...until she began asking me personal questions...like how I was getting along financially...did I ever feel a need to make extra money.
"Why are you asking me about my finances?" I asked. "That's kind of personal, don't you think?"
"I'm sorry," she said apologetically. "Just that...well I'm always on the look out for extra models. Something for you to keep in mind. Another glass of wine?"
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At work the following morning, my supervisor asked five of the most recently hired employees in to his office. He had bad new for us. We were all being laid off due to a slow down in mortgage request.. Something about rising interest rates and a slump in the housing market.
I actually understood...I hadn't had anything to do of any significance for a couple of weeks. But understanding didn't make me any less frightene about losing my home...a home I had scrimped and saved to buy. How was I going to make my mortgage payments?
I spent the afternoon calling other banks and mortgage companies to see if there were any openings available. Most of them were cutting back also. By the end of the day I had a knot in my stomach and a splitting headache.
Just before leaving for the last time, my supervisor, Mr Colbert, approached me with my final paycheck. I didn't open it until I was seated on the train. My headache magically vanished...inside the envelope were two checks...my regular pay check and a three month severance check. I was elated. With the severance check, and my savings, I now had some breathing room. If I was conservative, I could keep up with my bills for five or six months. The knot in my stomach dissolved away...
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The following morning, Saturday, Carol was knocking at my back door again. I yelled for her to come in.
"How is it going?" she asked as she poured herself a cup of coffee. "Haven't seen you around for a couple of days."
"Things could be better," I said dejectedly. "I was laid off from my job. I've been going through the help wanted ads but there isn't much out there now."
"I'm so sorry," she said sincerely. "That's a tough break. Especially after buying this house and all."
"Yes, well I can last for a little while. I should be able to get something somewhere. Sooo...what are you doing today? Going shopping or something?"
"No, as a matter of fact I have to work this afternoon. I have an all afternoon photo shoot to do."
"Well, I'm glad your still working," I said sarcastically. I quickly apologized. "I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself."
"Forget it," she said, "and if you wouldn't feel offended, I could probably help you out with a little work. At least it's something to consider...to think about it. You certainly don't have to make a decision right now."
"Really," I said. "You mean the photo thing you were talking about the other night?"
"Yes, that photo thing. It pays pretty good."
"Like...like how much...how much is pretty good?" I asked curiously.
"I could pay you $500.00 for a two hour session," she said. "There's varying degrees of payment...for example, videos pay more than still photos and...well content makes a difference also."
"You have to be kidding," I stammered. "$500.00! That's more than I was making a week. Okay...what's the catch? That's a lot of money for only two hours work. What kind of pictures do you take? Is it for advertising, catalogs or something?"
She laughed. "Not quite," she said. "I take nude pictures...fantasies...mostly fetish stuff."
She noticed the puzzled look on my face. "You don't have any idea what I'm talking about do you?" she said.
"No...but all I needed to hear was the word nude. You've got to be kidding! You're taking...you're taking nude pictures right next door to me? Pornographic pictures?"