The greatest moment of my professional career caused the end of my marriage. When sporting colleagues win they often hug each other, even kiss. If only my doubles partner hadn't decided to French kiss me. Live on TV in front of maybe 100 million viewers! And as for slipping her hand into my knickers....
I'm a professional badminton player, and I've represented Britain for, well, more years than I care to remember, UK champion several times and a medallist at several major championships. I specialise in doubles, and when injury forced my old partner to retire I thought I'd probably join her on the sidelines. Well, I was nearly 30 at the time, and my husband and I had been talking for a while about starting a family.
Then the British team coach introduced me to Jill. She was nearly 10 years younger than me, and had enjoyed a brilliant junior career. Everyone was tipping her to get to the very top in the sport. The coach, however, thought she had more promise in doubles, and he was sure that her playing style would complement mine perfectly. I wasn't so sure. Apart from the age difference, I'm a cautious Yorkshire lass, quite reserved really (some would say dour), whereas Jill was a bouncy, bubbly Essex girl, full of fun and mischief.
I agreed to give it a go though. After a couple of weeks practising together we found we were hitting it off well, and I broke the news to Steve, my husband, that my career wasn't quite over after all. He wasn't best pleased, but he'd always supported me. We'd been married for over 10 years, sweethearts at the age of 13 who never looked at anyone else. As I became more successful, touring the world to play my sport, we saw less of each other; but it never weakened our commitment, and whenever the subject of kids came up it was Steve who would smile and say "You go and win us a few gold medals first, our Jackie".
Jill was so committed to our partnership that she relocated her home to be near us, so we could train together every day. The results were, to say the least, spectacular. We started winning every match we played, and the press loved it. We started attracting headlines like 'Jackie and Jill go up the hill β to victory', and with our contrasting looks they loved us too β a short, chunky (though, if I say it myself, shapely) brunette, and a tall willowy blonde with the looks of a catwalk model. After only a few months together we were being talked about as potential world champions. I'd never been more excited.
Jill told me very early on about her sexuality. One day she admitted she had nagged the coach into putting us together as a doubles partnership. When I asked her why, she said "Well, you're the reason I play badminton β the first time I saw you on TV I fancied you something rotten, and I've wanted to get into your knickers ever since."
I stared open-mouthed at her. She giggled, gave me a wink, and sashayed off to have a shower, wiggling her little pink bum at me. If she expected me to be shocked at her admitting to being gay she was disappointed β you see plenty of that in our sport, and some of my best friends are dykes. As for her 'confession' of lust for me, well, I thought, she was obviously kidding, no-one just comes out with it like that. In fact, as time rolled on it became a bit of a joke between us. She would claim that research proved that people who are lovers work better together. We'd watch videos of our matches and she'd press her lips to my ear and whisper what a gorgeous arse I had; or after a big win she'd say "You know I'm going to have you one day, so I don't know why you don't just let me get on with it."
Not that it bothered me in the least. Steve and I had a great marriage, our sex life was fantastic, and Jill's sense of humour kept the sparkle in our partnership. Not that she went short of 'a bit of the other' as we say in Yorkshire. She began to get a reputation in the sport as a goer, and more than once the team management had to cover up potentially embarrassing incidents. Like the night she woke up the entire Indonesian badminton team having it away with two of their 18 year-old twin sisters β at the same time!
But that's another story. Basically, by the time the world champs came around we were quite renowned. We'd even been interviewed on TV a few times, which in Britain, where most people regard badminton as one step up from tiddlywinks, is major recognition. In the tournament we sailed through our matches, and lined up for the semi-finals confident of victory. We were seeded to play the Chinese champions, Jiang Lin and Lin Jiang (I kid you not!). I'd played them three times with my old partner and never beaten them. We started the match well, but in the end we were well beaten. In the changing room I had a real tantrum, hurling my racquet at the wall and screamed "Shit! Fuck! Fucking pair of bitches! I'd do anything to beat them, just once. Anything!"
Jill gave me a curious look. She said softly, "Would you? Really? Okay, how about the first time we beat them, you sleep with me?"
I was in no mood for her quirky sense of humour, and told her to fuck off. Later, though, I felt guilty about it. In the hotel bar I bought her a drink that evening and, with a grin, I told her, "All right, the first time we beat them I'll spend a whole night in your bed, and you can do whatever you like with me."
This time it was her turn to stare at me open-mouthed! Of course, I didn't mean it for a moment, any more than I thought she would want it. After all, with her looks she could have her pick of beautiful women, why on earth would she want a beaten-up old battle axe like me?