My name is Melinda Jones. A six-foot-tall, busty and big-bottomed, kind of heavyset yet still quite sexy Black woman living in the city of Brockton, Massachusetts. I'm thirty six years old today, and I'm looking at my life. Not sure I like what I see. I'm a professor of Criminal Justice at Suffolk University in the city of Boston. In the eyes of the world, I lead a very normal and respectable life. I am married to a handsome Black gentleman named Jimmy Hanson. He's a Municipal Court Judge. We have two sons, Joshua and Ted. They attend Bay State College in downtown Boston. We also have a daughter named Emily and she attends Gibbs College. The five of us lead nice, normal lives. We own a beautiful mansion in Brockton's West Side. Just another well-to-do Black Middle Class family in a truly ethnically diverse New England city.
I'm the picture of the happily married, well-to-do African-American woman. I got the house, the husband, the fancy cars and the happy-go-lucky family. I have it all. At least in the eyes of the world. I should be happy. I try to be happy. Yet that's all a faΓ§ade. I have another side to myself. And I must indulge it. I can't deny myself any longer. This lust I have inside is threatening to overflow and wreck my picture-perfect life. I can't hold it inside of me any longer. Certain urges simply won't be denied.
I'm Black woman who's addicted to White pussy. I can't explain it. I have been sexually attracted to White women my whole life. Especially blondes. I've been in denial about it forever. I've had some sexual experiences with Black women, Hispanic women, Native American women, Arab women and Asian women but it's mostly White women who light my fire. That's how I felt, but I didn't have to like it. Interracial lesbian couples aren't exactly popular in the Black Gay and Lesbian communities. And I'm deeply closeted because of my job and family. So I kept my secret lust to myself. Until the day I met her. And that's when my world changed.
Beatrice O'Connell. A six-foot-two, lean and muscular, blonde-haired and green-eyed Irishwoman. She moved to the United States of America straight from Galway, Ireland. A sturdy gal who won herself an academic scholarship to the school. She works at the student cafeteria. And she was an out and proud lesbian. This twenty-year-old chick was one of my students. Yet I lusted after her. Talk about inappropriate. In spite of how I felt when I looked at her, I fought my feelings for her. I'm a strong Black woman, damn it. And strong Black women don't have sexual fantasies about being submissive to blonde-haired White lesbians. So I distanced myself from Beatrice. The funny thing is that she was a very smart and friendly gal. I treated her shabbily, not because of anything she did but because of how I felt about her. How did I feel about her? Every time I see her, I want to pull her into my arms and kiss her. I want to kneel before her and worship her. She's my sexy White goddess and I want to be her love slave. That's all I think about when I see her. I guess I'm thinking with my pussy rather than my brain.
I go home thinking about her. I think about her when I'm having sex with my husband Jimmy. Hell, I even think about her when I'm having sex with my secret lover Jasmine, a sexy Black woman I met at a club a year ago. Yeah, I had White chick fever. Beatrice didn't seem to understand why I was so mean to her. Out of all my students. I really wish I didn't have to do that. But I start trembling with excitement and unbridled lust every time I see her. After a while, she turned cold toward me. And who could blame her? I've been a total bitch to her and it wasn't her fault.
One day, Beatrice confronted me in my office. The blonde-haired Irish Amazon simply stormed in. Came in like a tornado and then she slammed the door behind her. Beatrice was mad as hell. I could see it, her eyes were blazing with cold fury. And I felt both frightened and titillated. She asked me what was my problem, and why I treated her so shabbily. I took a deep breath, and rose to my feet. I walked up to Beatrice. She looked so hurt, and angry, and frightened at the same time. I did the last thing any of us expected. I pulled her into my arms and kissed her. And you know what? It felt nice.