I was in the waiting room at the dentist when I first saw a girl I liked. I got a fluttery feeling in my stomach, and I just couldn't stop looking at her. I could feel myself actually getting wet! It was very unusual because I'd never had a lust for girls, so I'd definitely never had sex with one.
I grew up in a very strict Christian family, so if I'd ever had any desire for a girl. I would have kept it to myself. Once my dad died I stopped going to see my mom. I stopped agreeing with her beliefs and distanced myself from my whole family, except my cousin, Leah, who I was very close with and told everything.
I went straight to see her after the dentist and told her about what happened. She assured me this was totally normal, and maybe I was bi. I went home feeling a bit better, and that night, with my fingers inside me, I fantasised about the girl. I imagined it was her fingers inside me, and when I licked my fingers, I pretended it was her I was tasting.