My mind is in a blur. "Did I really do that?" I asked myself as the street lights go bye rather slowly. We were in a more prominent part of town driving to his house. I feel a little queasy. "Man that taste! I know that won't be going away any time soon" *sighs deeply*. "no sense in trying to figure out weather that was wrong or not" It felt so weird......and there is more to come!! ....(going into the recent past)
We were at a party one of John's friends was having. She was kinda tall with semi large breasts. I remember thinking how beautiful she was. John has been nagging me for a while to have a threesome. I remember thinking to myself that this girl would probably be the only build I would go for. She was pretty and clean and I knew that if there was any time in this world for me to fulfill John's fantasy it would be now.
"hey Jen, who is that girl?" I asked. "oh she's just a friend I recently met. I think she is a business major at the university". "oh" I replied.
I walked around aimlessly for what seemed like hrs. But was only about 25 minutes. I was deep in thought about how very much I wanted to please John but how hard it was for me to pick a girl. This girl at the party was absolutely beautiful and all eyes were on her. Except John who made a valiant attempt to hide his interest but to the keen eyes of the female his lust was obvious.
"its hopeless" I thought as I plopped down on a sofa in a far corner where my pouting wouldn't be noticed. "what's hopeless?" I nearly jumped out of my skin!! There she was. The very being of my thoughts was sitting next to me. It was funny. I sat there looking at her expecting to feel intimidated by her beauty when all I felt was a strong urge to unload all of my personal problems to her. I burst into tears and she quickly led me to a room and shut the door.
"What is it?" she asked in a motherly tone. I told her of the pressure that John has been putting on me to fulfill his deepest fantasy (avoiding what that fantasy was) and that I knew that he thought that I was selfish and that I didn't care about his feelings but that that wasn't it at all. I just hadn't found the right conditions yet. "what's the fantasy?" she said sounding more of a friend now than a mother, realizing my maturity level was much higher.
I averted my eyes and told her that John wanted a 3some with him and me and another woman. (She didn't look surprised) I also told her that I had never been interested in a women before in my whole life. "yeah sure, I look at them once in a while, the body is a beautiful thing." I just never had the urge to touch anything or think about what it would be like to touch another women." She smiled sweetly at me then. It set me at ease right away and from then on I knew that me and her would be good friends and would be able to talk to each-other.