BELLY OF THE BEAST: Pt 5 The Magic Word
Barefoot, clad in a scratchy white shift and men's boxers held up at my waist by a safety pin, I appeared at the checkpoint outside the shack, officially The Reception Center behind the wheel of the government vehicle Sergeant Meyers and I had been issued to transfer rejects to Health Services.
"Warbler," the guard on duty exclaimed, "You're overdue. I have instructions to bring you before Captain Front Hole right away."
'Captain Front Hole' was one of those terms I found difficult to adjust to since my induction into National Service, a couple of months ago.
A couple of months ago! Time flies such as it will. It is hard to believe that only a couple of months had passed since the massive call - up that swept me from 'normal' life -- It feels like an eternity.
Front hole was one of those words I learned in mil-speak but might wish I hadn't.
My friend and companion who had volunteered to accompany me on the 'Survival -- Escape -- Evasion' exercise, sturdy, stubby SSG Abagail Meyers had explained, "Front Hole' is a female in command. We couldn't very well call her the 'Old man.'"
It was hard not to laugh along with Sergeant Meyers. From the tip of her tongue would slide off the expression that defined the situation.
There was only one final test that stood between our -- Meyers' and my release from active duty (REFRAD) to return to school to study Industrial Psychology: survival, escape and evasion. Sergeant Meyers put her trust in me by volunteering to shepherd me through the exercise. "Circumstances," Sergeant Donna Meyers advised, "require an adaption of our usual drill dropping you off naked in the wilderness with a comrade to escape capture and find the way for you and your companion to return to home station. It is possible that the adapted form of this exercise might be tougher. Regardless, it's an integrity test of faith and trust."
Yet, I managed to return to the Reception Center. And what about Meyers who volunteered to help me? I came back without her.
Returning alone to the Reception Center several days overdue, I was ushered into the Captain's quarters, an oversized closet with olive green aluminum walls. "Ma'am," I reported, "I managed to escape confinement by at the Health Services facility (HHS) on the sixth floor at St Stephen Martyr Hospital (SSM) and recover government property, the deuce-and-half at the cost of my personal property and Sergeant Meyers' and Sergeant Meyers herself."
The Survival, Escape and Evasion Exercise (SEEE) was a test of wits, faith and trust. I felt -- Heck I knew -- I had failed -- Sergeant Meyers had not been liberated. Having volunteered to accompany me on this exercise, Meyers was still confined on the sixth floor of the hospital facility. The opportunity came to me to flee. No heroics were involved. I simply walked through an unguarded exit. Health Services Facility (HHS) personnel standing guard over the exit deserted her post to spend the night at her home a few blocks away from the hospital. "Certainly, no Marine potential there," I told Captain Front Hole.
Even sitting cross -- legged in her dimpled cotton underwear in the privacy of her own quarters on her own 'rack,' Captain was stiff and formal. Her brunette hair was rigidly tied back in a bun. "And Meyers?" Captain Front Hole, sitting cross-legged with her electronic notebook in front of her, prompted me.
I gulped. My own words struck at me. Was I any better? I thought of myself, not the team or the mission. I left Meyers behind when I scooted scot - free. I had not brought SSG Abbie Meyers home. I had failed to keep faith with Meyers and justify her trust in me. "Ma'am, Meyers is held," I responded, "in a Health services (HHS) Psychological experiment by power. Meyer's become a prisoner of her own device. Meyers is held on the 6th floor of a psycho drama by the power the HHS director has given Meyers over others on the Sixth Floor ward," I replied.
How was it possible that Meyers was taken in by an illusion? Meyers was one of the smartest persons I knew.
Both Meyers and I had been taken while we delivering rejects from the shack that house the Induction or Reception Center. Meyers had put up such a fight when HHS personnel attempted to force her to strip off her uniform that they had to seal her away in isolation. Meyers was held naked, isolated inside a padded cell when the hospital director solicited Meyers, "I need a good drill sergeant to motivate the dregs the Induction Centers send Health Services."
"A handful of Certified Physical Therapists, a RN or two, Health Care Associates, and other untrained personnel," Meyers chuckled, "aren't equal to the task of whipping these people into some kind of shape."
"Sounds like Meyers is where she's needed the most. And your concern?" the Captain asked.
"Ma'am, I fear it may be a dead end for Meyers," I answered, "She's giving up her only true love, the corps. Meyers had hopes of getting a degree to qualify for promotion to Marine Lieutenant."
"Warbler, happily, the hysteria with which National Service was aggressively forced upon people like you under 40 has abated," the captain sitting in her sweat -- stained, olive green underwear on her sack in her quarters in the reception center spoke softly. Many of my own Marines still held beyond their ETS (Estimated Termination of Service -- ie release) date by the declaration of a National Emergency would kill for the REFRAD (release from Active Duty) papers I'm authorized to hand you."
I shook my head. There was much I did not understand about my months in Service Support fulfilling a national service obligation. The draft which swept up me, my husband and many others sent me into a strange world of acronyms, euphemisms and inconsistencies where women called each other politely by their last names; otherwise the girls addressed each other as cunts. Smiling, Meyers taught, "Cunt means tough, powerful."
My husband Jerry would belt out a dirty little ditty, as he forced my legs apart to intrude. "Blood bubbling // Back stooping // Void stretching // Port unlatching." Breathing heavily Jerry posed a rhetorical question: "Who has the power, him who penetrates or her who allows it? Women can be as sassy as men are brassy."
Meyers asked me, "what powerful man would dare insinuate intact men into their inner circle? They collect cunts. Cunts survive when the world turns upside down; nice girls can't survive the dislocation of an upheaval."
Supposedly all this dislocation would alleviate a tidal wave of unemployment and boost private sector wages. When separated, many young couples stood to lose much of what they had houses and cars,
"Likely," Captain continued, "many inductees will be released unconditionally from service obligations in the days, months and year ahead -- without the ordeal of the survival -- escape and evasion exercise you have completed. Command sent me more service support people than space to accommodate them. The result for many classified for service support was a trip to an induction center, a week in detention for testing and classification and a return home to await instructions."