Chapter VII: Wide Awake
I went to work the next morning, anyway.
Olivia tried her very best to keep me in bed, but I had to know what Robert was deciding onโStalking in the Third or Fourth Degree. Fourth Degree meant Dan would only spend 90 days in jail; Third Degree carried a year sentence. Neither was a wonderful option, but Third was the best we could hope for.
Of course if Dan pulled something when released, next time we could push further in court and the jail time would go up to at least 4 years. It was still tremendously sad to me that Rose would have to continue to be tormented, that Dan would have to nearly kill her before being put away.
Stalking was a tough crime to prove. It was even more difficult to get a decent jail sentence. Most stalkers didn't just forget about their victims in jail; usually the obsession simmered and then boiled over. Dan Tierney seemed like the kind of stalker who would remain dedicated to his mission of making life hell for Rose and Felicity.
I had wanted to put him away permanently, but my hands were tied. Or Robert's hands were tied; mine were just clasped in prayer that there would be some justice. I wanted Dan to receive far more than a slap on the wrist.
I marched along the sidewalk, my irritation growing with each person bumping roughly into me. I collided with a tourist, his gigantic camera lifted up to capture the image of an insignificant building. He didn't apologize. Of course not.
Freezing rain trickled down, stabbing my face with each drop. I huddled into my coat but a truck sped past, throwing filthy and ice-cold water onto my stockinged legs. Motherfucker. I hadn't thought to bring an umbrella, either. My heels nearly slipped on the sidewalk. I tried to walk slowly for once but the morning crowd was relentless and unapologetic as it pushed itselfโand meโalong. Things weren't boding well for me.
When I walked into the office I spotted Robert in the kitchen. I dropped my stuff onto my desk and went over to him. He rolled his eyes.
"You gonna start yelling at me because I took your girlfriends away?" he asked.
I wanted to. I had to bite my tongue to keep from shouting at him and calling him every bad name I could think of. But I realized the trial was about way more than me and Robert and Roger and office politics. It was about a lot more than my ego.
"No." I took a deep breath. "I would just appreciate it if you shared some of the information with me. Kept me updated."
"God," he groaned, tossing his head back. "Don't you ever give yourself a break? This isn't even your case anymore and you're obsessing over it."
"Could you just do that for me?"
He stirred his coffee, studying me. "And what do I get out of this?"
I blew my bangs out of my face and narrowed my eyes. "Do you have to be gross about it?"
"I'm not being gross. I'm not insinuating anything, in fact." Robert sipped his coffee and then licked his lips. "It must have killed you inside when Roger disciplined you."
"Forget I said anything," I sighed, turning to leave the kitchen.
Robert's hand stopped me, squeezing the flesh of my upper arm. "The case is mine, Elizabeth. Don't you fucking dare try to worm your way back in."
"I am not trying to do anything. I care about these people; I've been working with them for a longโ"
His bark of laughter cut me off. "You're funny. Hilarious. Why is this case so much more important to you than all the others, Elizabeth?"
"I don'tโ"
"You got too close. I wonder why. I wonder what the draw was..."
I kept my eyes fixed on his fingers on my arm. "Let me go," I said breathlessly, "or I'll make a complaint."
"You'll make a complaint," Robert mimicked. "It's just a pink sheet, Elizabeth."
I yanked my arm from his hold and he continued laughing at me.
"I'll go to Roger," I heard myself saying. God, I sounded weak. I was disgusted with myself, but even more so with Robert. I reached for my wildcard, even as my mind swirled. "And I'll tell him all about your little affair with his wife. Don't think I forgot about that, Robert," I said, spitting out his name.
A spark of fear ignited in his eyes. "He still wouldn't give you the case," he said carefully.
"It would be worth it just to see you squished beneath his shoes." A smile crept across my face. "I should have told him when I found out, honestly, but I hadn't wanted to hurt him. You think I still feel that way?"
Robert straightened his tie. "No one else can represent your girlfriends like I can."
I got nose to nose with him. "See that you do that, or I'll tell Roger everything. It would be incredibly exciting for me to see you take that smug smile, and even that pink sheet you joked about earlier, and shove them up your useless ass."
Robert watched me stalk over to my desk and kept an eye on me for the rest of the day. I wasn't sure if it was because he was terrified and wanted to make sure I didn't run to Roger when he wasn't looking, or if he was thinking of something awful to do to me. By the end of the day my stomach was in a complete knot.
He packed up his stuff and passed me, pausing for a moment by my desk. "I'm going for Fourth Degree. It's the only one that'll stick."
"You're not even going to try toโ"
"Landon has more evidence, Elizabeth. Of fucking course. More texts, more photos and more letters. It is a clusterfuck. Breaking and entering is out, attempted assault is out. All we have left is the stalking charge. Better to get Tierney for anything we can than to let him walk away entirely. This'll go on his record. If he dicks around with Rose Sherman again, we can hit him with Second Degree...maybe."
Tears came to my eyes. I figured he'd do Fourth, but the reality of it hit me. 90 days. What a breeze that would be. And I knew he wouldn't stop, even after he was released. He'd never stop until he made Rose pay for having the courage to walk away.
OOOOOO
On the ride home I zoned out and put my headphones in. I played sad song after sad song, feeling sorry for myself. The familiar odors of urine and smoke that the subway often provided were at least some comfort to me. It seemed tragic, but that some things can remain familiar while everything else is going to shit is always a comfort.
Olivia called me while I crossed a street and gave the middle finger to a taxi who ran through the light.
"Hi."