"Give me the car keys," I growled at Jonell as I put my daughter, Kayla, in her car seat. "I'm driving."
Jo compliantly tossed me the keys but continued to stand in front of the car, staring at me with an expectant look on her face.
I slammed the car door and met Jonell's stone gaze. "What?" My tone was sharp.
"Nothing," Jo finally broke contact to stare up at the sky. "I'm just thinking."
Opening the driver's side door, I told Jo irately, "Well, get in before I leave without you."
There was a short pause before Jonell came around and got into the passenger seat. I threw myself into the car and jerked the key into the ignition. All was silent for a few moments as I drove. Kayla had fallen asleep, and I assumed Jo was still lost in her thoughts. I took this time to dive into my own thoughts, which were consumed with images of Jessie. My mind's eye simulated her beautiful, curly red hair which came down to her waist and brought out the color of her shockingly green eyes. Cute freckles covered her cheeks. Her lips were a light pink and looked so soft... Wait! What was I doing? What were these feelings which were making a tingling sensation inside my stomach? This girl, who had once caused my heart so much pain, was now making my heart thump in erratic patterns.
"... That girl in there..." Jonell suddenly murmured.
Blinking to refocus myself, I said, "Jessie,"
"Right, Jessie... Is she the girl from high school?"
I paused and sighed, half remembering and half realizing how well Jo knows me. "...Yes."
Jonell waited for a minute and, when she figured I was going to say nothing more, inquired, "And...?"
"'And' what?"
"You mean to tell me that, after eight years, the love of your life comes back to you and you're just going to walk away?"
"That's just it, though. It has been eight years; I'm married now and have a child. And she didn't come back to me -- it's only a coincidence that we met again. What else was I supposed to do?" I tried to sound angry, or at least annoyed, but I could notice that my voice had a tinge of sadness to it.
Jonell leaned over and wrapped her left arm around my neck. "You should have talked to her and asked how she's been. Perhaps you should have even talked to Jane. You two were friends, weren't you? Confront Jessie and ask her what she was thinking when she left such a wonderful, amazing person all those years ago. You need to face your demons. Tell her--"
"Okay, okay," I cut Jo off. "I get it. There were a lot of things I should have done. I was just upset and nervous. But I'll make you a deal: if I ever see Jessie again, I'll talk to her."
Jonell smiled an almost devilish smile. "Good," She reached into the pocket of her jacket and pulled out a cell phone, dialing something into it which she read off of a small piece of paper.
I eyed her suspiciously. "What are you doing?"
"I'm calling Jessie." Jo says cheerfully.
"Wh--... How did you get her number?"
Jonell chuckled, placing the cell phone up to her ear. "She tried giving you her card, but you were sort of out of it and gave it to me instead."
Before I could say anything else, Jo began speaking into the phone.
"Hi, this is Jonell. We met today at the mall." There was a short break, and then Jo started laughing. "Yeah, that was me. Hey, I was wondering if you were busy tomorrow." Another break. "Well, if you're free, Bella would like to invite you over to her place so you could talk. I'll be there to watch her daughter."
I pulled into my driveway and heard Jo tell Jessie my address before hanging up. I exited the car and got Kayla from the back seat. Jonell unlocked the house and I carried my sleeping angel to her bed. Jo and I then went downstairs and lounged on the couch with soft techno music playing in the background.
"She and Jane will be here tomorrow at ten." Jonell smiled brightly. "Tom should be gone by then for work."
For a moment, it seemed too good to be true. "Why did you do that?"
Jo's smile dimmed a bit. "Aren't you happy?"
"I am, I am... I'm just wondering why you'd do this for me." I locked eyes with Jo.
She looked away for a second and said, "I'm helping you get your second chance."
"I don't need a second chance. She did what she did and I got over it." I didn't succeed at sounding tough.
But Jo insisted, "You do need a second chance, Bella. The love of your life left you; that's not something you can easily get over. You need to talk to her, straighten things out. Okay?"
"Alright..." I sighed pitifully.
Jonell gazed at me for a long minute. "She really hurt you, didn't she? ... I haven't seen you so worked up before."
I tried to swallow the lump that built up in my throat, but I only ended up choking in tears. Jonell wrapped her arms around me and held me until the overwhelming emotion subsided.
* * *
The rest of the day seemed to go by in a particularly swift manner. The evening was like any other: as soon as Kayla woke from her nap, I cooked dinner. Jo helped Kayla turn the livingroom into a warzone for me to clean up, and when Tom came home at six we all ate. Jonell washed the dishes as I cleaned the livingroom. Tom gave Kayla a bath, and I read Kayla a story before bed. Jo winked at me before she left, and Tom and I went to bed. The only thing different that night was the constant burden of Jessie on my mind. As much as I was afraid to see her again, I couldn't wait.
It was now half past nine in the morning, and I couldn't decide what to wear.
Jo held up a baby blue tank top and a tight pair of size 3 jeans. She had come back over to help me prepare for Jessie. "What about these? The blue will bring out your eyes wonderfully."