Present Day...
"Oh, Danielle," Joseph Harming moaned.
Danielle Vincent rolled her eyes to the ceiling as Joseph lay on top of her, being as exaggerating as always. She knew the sex wasn't that good. Well, not good for her. Joseph was definitely not a good lover. He always tried to put too much into the mood and the actual sex. And he was "not as sharp as a tooth pick", as her mother would put it. Any man would know that her moans here and there were being forced. She just didn't feel anything towards him, at least not sexual. Yet I'm on my freakin' back, in his bed... Danielle thought. She was so stupid.
Here she is, twenty-two years old, barely out of college, unemployed, and dating the wrong guy. Well the dating thing was completely her fault.
*****
After her graduation a month ago, Danielle had gotten drunk at a congratulation party for the graduates. That was a bad thing. She ended up flirting like crazy with her best guy friend, Joseph, and unexpectedly, ended up in his bed, butt naked, the next morning. She couldn't remember what had gone on from the time she was at the party, to the moment she woke up in Joseph's bed. But by the look on his handsome face when he turned over and looked her up and down, she had known that whatever it was had changed their friendship forever. Sure enough, she was right. Three days later, she had confronted him on what had happened.
"Joseph, what we did... it's just that...," Danielle had begun.
"What baby?" Joseph responded with worry in his eyes and voice.
"I was drunk, you see, and..."
Joseph took a hold of Danielle hands. "You couldn't have been that drunk not to do what we did. Maybe drunk enough not to have remembered, but... what we had shared together was more than just drunk passion, it was love."
Danielle hesitated at his words. Love? No way were they in love. "Joseph, please understand, love is just too complicated, and I know you think it's love, but..."
"You told me you loved me!" Joseph almost shouted. That stopped Danielle midsentence. What? Please tell me I did NOT tell this man I loved him? Danielle closed her eyes and tried to think back to that night. It was totally blank. She had never told any man that she loved him. Just one... Danielle didn't let herself go there. She tried again to remember that night, but it didn't happen.
Danielle started again. "I couldn't have told you that I love you," Oh shit. She hadn't meant to deny it. She had meant to tell him she hadn't meant it. But really, love?
Joseph fumed. "Of course you said it. What, do you think I'm lyin' or somethin'? This is some bullshit. You told me you loved me and now you're being a cock tease. What, did you just use like some toy?"
"NO!" She yelled an octave over him. "It's just that I don't remember anything and..." Danielle stopped when she looked into his eyes. Joseph had been her friend since her junior year of college when they had first met. They had never fooled around; Danielle's decision because she knew from rumors around the small campus that he had had a thing for her. She hadn't needed a relationship back then and not at the moment.
Now, as she looked into his deep chocolate eyes that were placed onto an angular, chocolate colored face, she saw what she regretted most. Love. It hit her like a bulldozer and her stomach fell. She had made a big mistake. And from the look in his eyes, if she walked away, he wouldn't be alright. She closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and said what she had to say.
"Maybe we could give us a try..."
Danielle was forced to stop when Joseph got up and gave her a hard kiss on the mouth. She closed her eyes and damned herself to hell when she heard, "Baby, I love you too. We'll always be together, boo."
Now she looked up at him as he got off his king size bed. It won't last, she thought. It can't last.
"Hey babe, I'm going to this gathering later at Marilyn's. You want to come?" she asked, just to say she did. She knew though today he couldn't. Every Saturday night Joseph went out with his older, pigheaded brothers. They thought themselves as gangstas and claimed they visited the streets just to "catch up with the ones that couldn't get out". She knew it was code for "get high and watch hoes" from a window in their black suburban neighborhood.
"Nah, baby, you know me and the brothas gotta hang tonight. You know, visit them hoodrats and catch up with the fellas."
Joseph turned around and walked out of his door heading towards his bathroom. Danielle smiled at his chocolate back. He may be fine, kind, and a good friend, but he was predictable. She couldn't wait for tonight. She was finally could go out without Joseph showing her off as some show piece (like it was some kind of big deal that he had a black girl!). She could be as free as a bird. At least, as free a bird could be with just fifty dollars in her purse.
*****
Joseph frowned to himself as he walked into his bathroom and shut the door. That was the worst sex of his life, worst than the first time he and Danielle hooked up. And it ain't me either, Joseph thought to himself. Sista just couldn't put it down for a brotha. But it was worth it. Danielle wasn't just your normal piece of ass. She had been his prodigy ever since freshmen year, but she never gave out. He would've thought she was a virgin, but all evidence was present that night that she wasn't anywhere close to being innocent. The only reason he kept her around was because she was eye candy and somethin' every black man wanted for himself. She looked fine as hell in designer clothes and presented herself good in front of his colleagues at his father's business socials. In three years, he would be out of grad school and in the vice president position at the business. Joseph cleaned himself up and grabbed his cell from the sink's counter. He hit speed dial #4 and waited till someone picked up.
"What up?"
"Hey baby, I'll be at yo place later tonight, alright?"
"Who's says you invited?" the sassy voice responded.
"Listen, what I say is what I say, now you betta come to that door with that sexy piece I bought you!"