The story contains no sexual thought or activity in minors.
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I grew up in a low-income family on the east coast. Dad was a factory worker, and Mom raised my two brothers and me, Elena. Our miserable economic situation was too obvious to ignore, and at a young age, I vowed to do whatever I could to get out of poverty. In school, I was a fairly good student, and I got at least a B in every subject.
There was only one thing I thanked my parents for. Once my adult face and body started taking shape, I turned out to be both pretty and had a good figure. Yes, I may be biased in bragging about it, but after hearing it from everybody around and seeing the scores of guys trying to catch my attention, I accepted it as a fact.
In my late teens, I dated 2 guys. I refused to have sex with them and both affairs fizzled quickly. My first sexual encounter occurred when I was 22. He was a handsome, funny, grade A student. I slept with him 3 times before realizing his abilities in bed were very limited. I dumped him like the others.
In college, I majored in business and did quite well. When I finished, I was recruited by a successful clothing company owned by John Lazard. His manager interviewed me and, after reviewing my school diploma, accepted me to work with 2 older guys who were assigned to give suggestions on how to improve the business side of the firm.
During the first 6 months of work, I invested all my energy into studying the different aspects of the company, listening to the advice of the 2 more senior business guys, and establishing relationships with the other employees.
Slowly, I began commenting about business issues. I was nice to my 2 colleagues: I made them coffee every morning, thanked them each time they offered to help, and didn't challenge their recommendations, even when I thought of better solutions.
About a year has passed, and the 3 of us worked as a team. I recall the crucial moment when we faced a complicated dilemma. I came up with an original idea that the other 2 didn't think it was applicable. I insisted it was a good one, and when the firm implemented it, our profits jumped by 80%.
The boss himself was impressed and wanted to meet me. I came to his office, trembling with excitement. I have seen him from a distance a few times before, but we never talked.
Mr. Lazard stood up, shook my hand, and said, "Elena, Lance sends me a monthly report on all my employees. Your reviews are always excellent. And now you have come up with a brilliant idea that has increased our revenue significantly. I owe you a lot. So first, tomorrow you'll get a special bonus. Now, I am thinking of expanding the company with branches in Chicago and San Francisco. I'd like to hear your thoughts over dinner in a good restaurant. What do you say?"
"Sir, I'll be honored. Are you sure you want to discuss the matter with me? After all, the other 2 in my department have more experience."
He chuckled, "Experience goes so far. I need an innovator, a young thinker. After coming up with an authentic way to save us money, you proved to be the person I was looking for."
We were supposed to meet at the best Italian restaurant in town. Here was the opportunity I sought: A powerful boss who appreciated my skills. I wore a short black dress that showed nice cleavage yet not too exaggerated, as well as my long, shapely legs. I let loose my dirty blonde hair and added red lipstick and mascara, which highlighted my deep blue eyes.
Mr. Lazard was already sitting when I arrived. He stood up, inspected me up and down, and smiled, "Elena, you look gorgeous. That is not good because I'll be distracted."
I grinned, "Thank you for the compliment, sir. I admit I tried to dress up to impress you."
"That's refreshing! I can trust an employee who tells me the truth."
For the next 2 hours, we ate a delicious meal and talked about his planned project. I tried to be objective and unbiased. I mentioned both the advantages of expanding west as well as the limitations and potential risks. When we ended, he rose from his chair and said, "Elena, you are young and inexperienced, but I think your brain capacity is much better than my other employees. I'd like YOU to organize the plan for the 2 new branches and report directly to me."
I thanked him and left the restaurant. The future looked bright.
I met Mr. Lazard weekly in his office for a month about the expansion. In the 4th meeting, he blurted, "Elena, I think you are smart beyond your years and very pretty. I like you a lot! I looked at your resume and realized you are 24, and I am already 41 years old, but I'd like to date you. What do you think?"
I became lightheaded. I didn't expect that. I hesitated momentarily and then mumbled, "Mr. Lazard, may I think about it for 24 hours and give you my answer tomorrow?"
He smiled, "Take all the time you need. I hope for a positive answer. If you refuse, I'll be disappointed but won't hold it against you."
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I could not sleep the night. My job was perfect and dating Mr. Lazard was very appealing. He was 5'10", about 200 pounds, and quite handsome. As a boss, he showed a pleasant personality. I liked John Lazard. My only reservation was, what if our relationship turned sour? How would we be able to work together?...
By morning, I made up my mind. I'd give it a chance, and if I saw ominous signs, I'd try to break the relationship gently. John heard my positive answer and was very happy. After that, we still met in his office on a regular basis for his project. In addition, we met twice a week, usually to go to a restaurant, movie, concert, or a party with his friends. For months, he never tried to go beyond hugging my shoulder or kissing me. I didn't push him for more after he told me he was raised by conservative parents and believed sex should be initiated after marriage. Four months after we began dating, in a restaurant full of well-dressed guests, John knelt on one knee, asked me to marry him, and gave me a ring with a huge diamond. I should have guessed it might happen, but I didn't at the time and started crying. I said yes. I saw him as a great boss and companion. He was a real gentleman and was very rich. What could go wrong? I liked him but was not in love with him. However, I was sure in time, I'd grow to love him.
We had a wonderful wedding with a giant cake, many flowers, tables with various tasty foods, and 300 guests, most of them related to him. He kissed me gently in front of everybody and promised me eternal love. It looked like nothing could go wrong.
The night after the wedding, we were tired and fell asleep when we reached the bed. The next morning, John left before I woke up. Our first sexual intercourse took place a week later. At the time, I didn't know if my husband was too gentlemanly or too naive, but neither of us climaxed. Three days later, I was more proactive. I wore a sheer, short baby doll and seduced him. I knelt before him and began blowing him, attempting to stiffen his penis so he could fuck me. His organ wasn't fully erect yet, and he shot his spunk on my face. I just smiled and said nothing. In the following months, I tried to explain, tempt, and even ride John. The overall success was mediocre at best. We were able to have sex together, but it was hardly exciting or pleasant.
It turned out John wanted me to be his companion at home and a trophy wife. Sex was never his motivation. Other than sex, John was a good husband. He gave me all the money I wanted and never asked questions. He behaved gently and politely at home and with others around. On the surface, he seemed warm and loving, but I didn't feel the deep emotions I expected to have with a husband.
Over time, my frustration with a lack of sexual satisfaction grew, especially when I noticed other employees kissing and fondling. Once, I even caught a couple making out in a dark corner. It was time for a change.
I started checking men online using different sites. The beginning was easy: My profile attracted many suitors. I answered 3, and later talked on the phone with one of them. His picture and voice were appealing. I was careful not to mention private information. Not my name, address, work, or other data. Two weeks later, we met in a hotel outside the city. The guy looked good but was a wimp in bed. He wanted me to ride him and take charge. I met him 2 more times, and twice, he needed me to dominate him. I disconnected.
I tried my luck online again. The guy I chose looked like a real stud. Unlike the first one, he was more aggressive and persistent. But he had a problem. A minor one; his pecker, I mean. I continued searching for the optimal guy for years. Some of my lovers were better, and some worse. Neither one conquered my body or my heart the way I wished. Many years have past and 'suddenly,' I was in my 40s.