Marian pulled up in the hotel car park and checked herself in the rear view mirror. She rearranged a few loose strands of her short brown hair and removed a speck of mascara from beneath her eye. Satisfied with her appearance, she picked up her bag from the passenger seat and exited into the midday heat.
A man loading a suitcase into the trunk of his car gave her an appreciative look as she walked past and she rolled her hips for his benefit. 'Still got it', she told herself. Her outfit, a dark blue jacket and knee-length skirt worn with a red blouse and matching heels, managed to be both formal and flattering. Marian had never subscribed to the notion that a woman had to tone down her femininity in order to be taken seriously in business. Her own stellar career in Real Estate was proof that it didn't have to be so. Now aged 43, she had, through sheer graft and force of will, become Regional Manager of her Company's operations but she also believed that her unwillingness to compromise her principles had played a significant role.
Ray had not arrived yet so she took a seat in the lobby and rang her husband. Dan sounded as distant as usual and Marian only stayed on long enough to tell him that she would probably be late. She snapped her phone shut in annoyance. If she didn't come home, would he even notice? She was fully aware that this was the price to be paid when a couple prioritized their careers above all else and acknowledged her own culpability in the poor state of affairs that prevailed in their relationship; but she was still a woman and still retained a woman's need for the kind of intimacy that had been absent from her marriage for as long as she could remember.
'Is this seat taken?'
She looked up and smiled. In her preoccupation, she had neglected to notice Ray's arrival. They shook hands and he sat down.
'So, what's this I've been hearing about rationalization?' Ray said. 'There's only so much bad news a man can take, you know.'
Ray was Director of one of the Company's local offices and a rising star. A former College Track and Field star, he had brought to his business career the ruthless determination to succeed at all costs that had served him so well in his days as an athlete and as a result, was both the youngest Director in the Company's history and the first African-American to hold such a position. Marian had spotted his potential early on and had championed him in spite of fierce opposition from above. As such, she took great pleasure in his ensuing success and not only because she had been vindicated. She genuinely liked Ray as a person as well. He was a good guy with a great sense of humour and a straight shooter, qualities sorely lacking in the majority of men she had dealings with.
They got down to business which, unfortunately, involved Marian being the bearer of bad tidings. Ray had heard correctly. Rationalization was on the way but it was too early to tell, as she explained, how it would play out in terms of numbers.
'As things stand, your outfit is in pretty good shape anyway,' she said. 'From a cost effectiveness point of view. It might be that the shitstorm will pass you by.'
'Fuck it. I have to go back and tell those people what exactly?'
'Sit tight for now,' she said. 'I'd say there's no point in unduly panicking the troops.'
Ray snagged a waiter and ordered two Evians. Marian noted with approval how the fabric of his suit jacket strained against his broad shoulders. Still agitated from her non-conversation with Dan, she found herself, not for the first time, entertaining thoughts of Ray that were less than pure. She liked to think of herself as liberal and immune to the reductiveness of racist stereotyping; yet each time she met Ray, she found herself speculating as to whether there was, in fact, any truth in all those myths about black men and penis size. She had never slept with a black guy although it was something she had often fantasized about. Her friend Sue, who was married to one, was discreet about the subject and Marian was too polite to ask. She watched Ray sip his drink and felt the desire she was normally able to keep under control overwhelm her.
'Anyway, I can rest assured you've got my back up there?' He raised his eyebrows hopefully.
'Huh? Oh sure, sure.'
'You okay Marian?' He leaned forward, his brow furrowed in concern. 'You're looking a little peaky.'
'I'm fine.' She took a mouthful of water. 'Maybe the pace is getting to me.'
'Miss fuckin dynamite. Little or no chance of that,' he said and laughed.
'Thanks for your concern.' Without thinking, she reached out her hand and placed it on top of his. 'I'll always have your back. Always have and always will.'
She watched, with a skittering heart, the slow evolution of the smile that crept across his features before he began to speak.
'When I started in this game,' he said, 'People, and I'm not naming names, they went out of their way to let me know I wasn't welcome. That college tie shit, you know what I mean. But you were always there for me. If it wasn't for you in my corner, not to mention busting my balls, but in a good way, you know?...I need you to know that I appreciate all you've done for me. I don't know if you know how much I do.'
Marian felt a flush and a chill blossoming on her skin simultaneously. She entwined her fingers in Ray's and squeezed. When she looked in his eyes, there was no mistaking the desire for her she saw there.
'I have an hour before I'm due back at the office,' she said. He nodded.
'I'll get us a room,' he said.