I am a white woman who has a black lover and I can't see my life any other way than with him on the side. We are both married to other people and have been seeing each other for almost 8 years now. What started off as two friends that wanted to get to know each other a little better has turned out to be a full-blown affair. I had a week without him because he was on vacation with his wife and youngest daughter and I had some time to sit and reflect on our relationship.
On several occasions, I have asked Jim why he keeps on going with me and his answer is "Because you suck a good cock" and that leads me to the question "Is that the only reason??" He tells me that it is more than that but he will not commit or say anything more.
It was early on in our relationship when I was able to put a few dollars aside every week and saved up $100 and knowing that I can't hold on to my money, I asked him to put it away for "us" so when we go to the hotel we will have the money for the room. He agreed and said he would put it away. A few weeks after that, he was invited by his friends to go camping but was going to turn down the offer because he did have any money go kick into the pot for the food and booze for the weekend getaway. I told him to use the $100 and he could replace it whenever he had the chance. He was so gracious and thankful that I offered him the money. He doesn't really talk too much about his spouse, but he never speaks badly of her. She is a very pretty white woman and I can't understand why he would want another woman, like me. He did say that his wife wouldn't give him the money for the trip and I was going to ask why but he said that she doesn't like one of his buddies because he cheated on his wife.
There were other occasions that I had asked him to hold a few dollars for me and he took from me and said he was saving it. There came a very rare opportunity that my husband was going to be away most of a Saturday with a few friends and since Jim works a half a day on Saturday, he sometimes has sometime after he gets out of work to do some fishing or hit the local bar with some of his buddies before going home. I asked him if he would be able to meet me at the hotel that Saturday that my husband would be away and he said that his schedule was clear and he would tell his wife something but wasn't sure what at the time we were discussing our plans. I asked him to bring the money he stashed away for this and he said that there wasn't any left. I was a little upset and then I remembered telling him if he ever ran short he could use it and put it back when he could. He said he's been using it and hasn't been able to replace it and was sorry. I happened to have gotten a little extra money that I could use for the hotel so we would be fine.
