The world is a messy place, folks. And sometimes I honestly don't know what can be done to fix it. I don't think humanity is meant to do such things. I think it's God's work. That doesn't exclude us from all responsibility. Far from it. I'm just starting to realize that some things may truly be out of our hands. And I'm not liking it one bit.
My name is Jason Dreary. Six feet six inches tall, a little bit chubby ( I weigh 260 pounds ) but still ruggedly handsome, with dark brown skin, short black hair and light brown eyes. I'm part Haitian and part African-American. My father, Edward Dreary is African-American and my mother, Jezula Gina Charles is Haitian. I speak both English and Haitian Creole at home. I'm of the Seventh-Day Adventist Faith. Which complicates my life because I'm also bisexual, and I recently told my secret to my parents.
They were both really surprised, but strangely enough, they were supportive. Having my folks accept me meant a lot to me. But I choose to be celibate. Relationships with men and women are much too stressful. I don't like the quality of woman or man I've been meeting lately. It seems all the good men and good women have left town and only the trashy bed-hoppers remain. I don't like that type and I don't need the drama. Besides, I have seen the mess that sex can turn people's lives into. I'm flying solo, and I'm okay with that.
I'm in my senior year and I currently play varsity football for Sojourner College, a historically black school located in the city of Boston, Massachusetts. The school is named after Sojourner Truth, a legendary black female activist who needs no introduction if you've ever picked up a damn history book. This year, the student body of this institution is forty two percent white. And I don't know how I feel about that. I find the sight of white men and white women parading around a historically black institution ( without knowing or caring about its history ) to be downright infuriating at times and an eyesore. Does that make me a racist? I honestly don't know.
There have been a lot of changes on campus lately. Especially in the department of athletics. When I came along, the school offered Men's varsity baseball, basketball, cross country, volleyball, wrestling, football, soccer and lacrosse along with Women's varsity softball, basketball, cross country, bowling, cycling, field hockey, soccer, lacrosse and volleyball. Now they're adding new varsity sports teams like men's Ice Hockey, women's Rugby, men's Rifle, men's and women's Gymnastics, men's and women's Rowing and men's and women's Swimming. The men's Ice Hockey team was the one team I hated the most. It signaled the transformation of Sojourner College from a majority black school to a partly white one. I'm glad I'm graduating this year. This place has sold out. It's not worth it anymore.
I wonder if that's how rich white men and rich white women felt in the 1960s and 1970s when black men and black women started attending traditionally white colleges and universities. My world is changing and I'm not sure that I like it. The president of Sojourner College is a tall, dark-skinned, forty-something black woman named Dr. Joanna Brown. She used to be president of a community college in the state of Alabama before joining the Sojourner College faculty. She's also the person most directly responsible for "diversifying" Sojourner College. And I absolutely hate her guts.
I mean, don't get me wrong. Diversity is important to me. I like having men and women of different races and backgrounds around. It's just that a lot of the white people coming to Sojourner College don't know Jack about black history and act like they own the damn place. I would hate to see Sojourner College end up like Bluefield State College, a historically black school that diversified to the point of becoming a majority white institution. When black schools decide to diversify, they take it really seriously. White schools usually don't. Or at least not to the same extent. You'd never see Harvard University, Northeastern University or Boston College end up with a mainly black student body. Not in a million years. These wealthy traditionally white schools know that their core support stems from the sons and daughters of wealthy white families. They would never turn away from that. That's why many white schools are trying to kill Affirmative Action. I feel that Sojourner College has betrayed its own. And I can't stand that.
A lot of you might think I'm worrying about nothing. Black people have been under a lot of pressure to lighten up about racial issues lately. Oprah is one of America's wealthiest people and she's black and proud. Barack Obama is President of the United States of America. Deval Patrick is Governor of Massachusetts. Mr. Steele tries to lead the Republican National Committee, when that tub of lard Rush Limbaugh isn't harassing him. And there's a black man governing the State of New York. Yes, maybe we black folks should all lighten up, smile, and get with the program. That's what the country seems to be telling us. Well, since I know a thing or two about hypocrisy and racial prejudice hidden behind smiling faces. So forgive me for not buying into the notion that all racial problems have been magically solved.
I hate what Sojourner College has become. And I am not a bigot. I just don't think a school should turn away from its core mission. Women's colleges support women. Military schools take care of their men. White schools celebrate their own. Black schools should do the same. Sojourner College has abandoned its mission, and I am glad to be leaving it this year. I will leave armed with a bachelor's degree in business administration. I'm going into the National Football League. Unlike most of my classmates, I won't have to worry about money. And I'm a smart brother too. Not the type to blow his money on chasing women or acting dumb. Sojourner College has a reputation as an athletic powerhouse. We've won many NCAA Division Two Championships in football, basketball, baseball and wrestling. The NFL and the NBA often come sniffing around our star athletes. As does the Olympic Committee.
A lot of stereotypes about black men who play college football and basketball are absolutely untrue. People have a negative image of us. They don't apply to me. I always make the Dean's List at my school. I've never gotten a C in my entire collegiate academic career. I don't run around campus chasing females. I don't do drugs. I don't smoke. I don't go to clubs. I don't party like there's no tomorrow. I don't get into fights. I don't butcher the English language. And I don't walk around with a sense of entitlement. I wear a dress shirt and pants to class everyday because that's the kind of man my parents raised. The distinguished black gentleman, that's me.
Now, life on campus has been changing and I've struggled to adapt. I decided to live and let live. Until I was thrust in the middle of a mess. My good friend Patterson Samuels is a sophomore who transferred to Sojourner from Roxbury Community College. This tall, dark-skinned and sleepy-eyed young brother is a very friendly person. I've taken him under my wing. He's one of the best tackles we've got. He's like a little brother to me. I helped him with his school work and made sure he stayed out of trouble. I've met his parents, Dale and Mary Samuels. They're very nice people and they know he looks up to me. I promised his mother I'd look out for him. Patterson has a thing for big-booty women. Many young black men do. I just wish he focused more on school and football and less on chasing women. Lots of campus women love football and basketball players. More than a few of them hope to get pregnant by some guy going into the NBA and NFL. That way he'll be their ticket to the good life. I told Patterson to steer clear of these females. Being a cocky young athlete, he didn't listen to me. He hooked up with a particularly vicious chick named Brooke Henderson.
Brooke Henderson was this tall, blonde-haired and green-eyed Irish chick who transferred to Sojourner College from Rhode Island State College. She joined the women's volleyball team. I've seen her hanging around the locker room sometimes and lots of the young black male football and basketball players were checking her out. I didn't blame them too much. She was fine-looking, with a pretty face and a big round butt too. I could also smell gold digger on her from a mile away. I knew the type. Brooke Henderson was like many young black and Hispanic women at the school who wanted to get with black sportsmen about to go professional. Gals like that were a dime a dozen and I urged the young men to avoid them like the plague. Many of the young women on campus didn't like me because I basically told their would-be boyfriends to find something else to do with their time.