Editor's note: this story contains scenes of non-consensual or reluctant sex.
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I felt a little less faint after I had finished some chicken soup. The sounds of the pool party continued as I returned to the sofa and tuned into a mindless program on television. Clutching my small pillow, I tried desperately to drown out the sounds of this gathering.
It seemed never-ending.
The clock reached 8:30, then passed the 9 o'clock hour. It wasn't until nearly 10 o'clock that night when the music suddenly and surprisingly stopped. In my mind, I was expecting Julie to come right through the front door at any minute. But, that did not happen. After more than 20 minutes, I decided to "peek" back out towards the pool area. The darkness of night enveloped the entire area as only one small deck light was left on, and it appeared to be left on, on purpose.
Nobody was around.
The entire area had been left a mess. Glasses and plates were spewn around the marbled deck randomly. Emptied bottle of champagne was left all over. I was curious as to where everyone had gone to, and of course I was more concerned about where Julie went. As I stepped out from the sliding glass doors and onto our little terrace, I looked over the area with bewilderment.
I was glad the party had ended. Yet, there was an uneasy feeling deep in the pit of my stomach.
No more than a few minutes later, I heard the sounds of a small crowd coming from the parking lot, which was now off to my right. Cars were starting and the distant sound of conversation pierced the quiet night air. I scurried over to my little bathroom window to peer out towards the parking area and these concerning sounds.
All 25 white women and the 6 young black studs were now dressed to go out. They were heading out to their cars. I spotted Julie walking beside Tra'mon dressed in a micro mini black satin dress which exposed her entire cleavage and midriff. Her braided blonde hair was put up in a pony tail, as it had been earlier that day. Her huge, milky-white breasts "jutted" outward in a bra that was at least two sizes too small.
I could not see Julie's face in the distant darkness, but I watched in humiliation as she opened the black man's car door for him, once again. Like a servant, she closed the door behind him and then "scooted" around to the other side to let herself in. The others were all getting into their cars too. Within minutes, all cars had left the parking lot.
To me, it was fairly obvious this entire group was heading out to that club again. The Black Jacques Club seemed to be their primary gathering point or hang out, as it had been for quite some time. I pondered this thought for a moment before I put my head down in shame and walked back inside. It would be another night alone as the black stud was out with my wife.
Less than three minutes later, my cell phone "chirped" with an incoming message. Excitedly, I ran to my phone thinking that it was Julie. It was merely a reaction.
"Maybe she will let me know when she'll be coming home?" I thought.
For me, any communication with my wife at this point felt a little encouraging. I was hopeful that this period of time with her seeing the black man was simply "a phase" of some sorts. Afterall, Julie had moved back in and this might take a little more time for things to settle in. But, these thoughts quickly evaporated when I picked up my phone and saw the message was coming from Tra'mon.
"Get Dat' shit cleaned up, boy! No talking!" his text message read.
My face beamed red. Humiliatingly, I figured out that he must have been talking about the dirtied pool area where they had their little party all afternoon. My throat tightened as I looked down at this message brightly displayed on my little cell phone screen.
His brash command was insulting to me, just like everything else the young black stud confronted me with. I simply looked down at the screen in shame as I pondered what to do. I had no intention of answering his message.
But, Tra'mon was expecting a response. Seconds later, another text message came flashing through the screen.
"?!" it read, simply.
Yes, the black man sent a message to me with a question mark followed by an exclamation point. Just that. It was so obvious that he was expecting an immediate answer from me. For a moment I thought about pretending to be asleep and pretending to not see his rude message. But, I was afraid. Nervously, I gave in and finally texted him back with a deeper feeling of degradation welling up inside of me.
"Yes, Sir." I replied by text, meekly.
There would be no other response from Tra'mon. In defeat, I gathered myself and headed down to the pool area to begin "cleaning up," as ordered. I was doing so rather passively and mindlessly, and in fear of upsetting the black stud again. Admittedly, I knew that it would not be in my best interest to anger him. I simply did as I was told.
Unbelievably, within minutes the other 8 white husbands entered the dimly lit pool area and began cleaning up as well. Yes, Tra'mon had "texted" all of us at the same time and told us to clean up their mess from the party. All of us looked at each for a mere moment, surprised. I think we were all shocked that the young black had directed all of us to do this humiliating menial task.
Then, we simply looked away from each other and continued cleaning. All 9 of us were rather speechless then. We remained speechless.