If you've just discovered this series, I'd urge you to read the Prologue to Chapter 1, and maybe even start there. This is a slowly-building series that I'm trying to keep as realistic as possible, the sexual awakening of a shy 18yo boy.
But I hope there's enough erotica in each part to keep it interesting, even if you just start here.
I shower while thinking about what's next in Rita's curriculum: oral sex.
And again I'm conflicted because of "my girls." They were the first to offer me that (the performing of it, not receiving of course), so should I honor that sort-of obligation? They'd seemed so excited about it, especially Candace, with the talk of guiding me to make it great for them and all that. But my feelings for Candace, whatever they actually were (and whether they might or might not be reciprocated), seemed much less now in comparison to the bond I'd developed with Nia.
Granted, a lot of that was due to the newness and wonder of it all, but she really is a nice girl that I could see myself being with. And was there any chance of a future with Candace, like a relationship? Most probably not, so then, without that possibility, would I even care to try to get to know her as I did Nia? Probably not, so then sharing anything sexual with her, while it would be fun no doubt, wouldn't have the depth of meaning that it did/would with Nia.
So all that said, wasn't the logical choice to go down that path with Nia, and not worry too much what the girls thought? I mean, I could still do that for them, it's just that they wouldn't be my first. And did they even care if they were my first, or would they just be happy getting their needs met? I decided that would be the case, so I resolved to go through with learning oral on/with Nia.
Now the next dilemma: I didn't exactly know how to do it. I had figured I'd be watching one of the girls do it to the other (probably Candace on Keisha, because of the way the other thing had gone), but now....could I figure it out? I'd seen still pictures of a man's tongue there, but never video. But it shouldn't be that hard, should it? I mean, I'd hardly known how to kiss a girl, or touch her all over, or touch her
there
at all, and that had worked out pretty well.
And Rita would be there to guide me if needed. I didn't think I'd need it, but it was comforting to know she would. Plus I could always ask Nia if she knew what she liked, or if this felt good, or that, or some other way entirely. I wasn't really worried about
dis
pleasing her, because like Candace had said, a tongue on her vagina was
bound
to feel good at some basic level.
I was mainly concerned that my performance wouldn't live up to my own expectations, my desire and need to give her pleasure in that way, to show her what I was capable of, and what she could look forward to if she and I... In the end I remembered that she and I were here to learn each other and learn techniques that pleased the other, and up to now I'd say that we'd both done pretty well at that without much fumbling about.
I was thinking all this through for too long I guess, just standing under the hot water, because pretty soon Nia came in (naked still) and asked if everything was alright. Realizing that they must both think me daft for not rushing back out there to dive between this lovely girl's legs, I shut off the water, quickly dried (Nia watching my slack penis with heightened curiosity), and followed her back out.
"Mark, I was afraid you'd fallen asleep in there! As an aside, for both of you to know, when a man has an orgasm, he's often sleepy afterward. That's due to certain hormones and chemical compounds released in the brain, as well as the pre-frontal cortex slowing down or kind of switching off."
I never knew sex was so complicated on a biological level. I mean, there's the urge to mate for procreation of course, but all this other stuff...who knew?
"Which,
Mark
, is another reason to please your partner first, so you don't drift off to sleep and leave her unfulfilled."
Nia nudged me at that, saying, "You'd
better
not" with a big grin.
"Nia and Mark, do you want to proceed on to oral sex?"
An energetic-yet-reserved answer from Nia, and a bit more reserved 'yes' from me.
"Neither of you has done this before, correct, giving or receiving?" Our two heads shake 'no' in unison, Nia squeezing my hand to reassure me.
"And I'm going to go out on a limb and guess that you might both be a bit apprehensive about it, wondering if you can do it well, and if your partner will enjoy it?"
Two yesses and simultaneous hand squeezes.
"I figured as much. But don't worry, that's common. And to tell the truth, there's really no
wrong
way to do it. Think about it: you've both touched each other in your most intimate places, and that went well, didn't it?"
Nods and searching looks between Nia and I, then smiles as we saw the answer in the other's face, then giggling about how it had felt. Both inside and out, giving and receiving.
"And you've both learned how to kiss each other erotically, you didn't need any help with
that
!"
More giggles and squeezes.
"So just take all of what you've learned from yesterday and today, how to talk to each other, how to explore each other, how to kiss and nibble each other, how to arouse each other, how to touch each other to cause orgasmβ And now add your lips and tongues into the mix. It'll come naturally, I promise."
See? I knew Rita would make it sound simple and natural.
I felt much better about it already.
"There are many ways for a woman to receive oral sex from her lover, but for this first time, Nia let's start with you on your back, and Mark on her right side as before, propped up on your elbow."
"Perfect, you two look so lovely together. Have you taken the time to notice your skin tone differences? It's not wrong to notice, nor to delight in it. Humans are visual creatures, and differences beyond the normal male/female should be noted and celebrated. You shouldn't fixate on skin color to the point of fetish, of course, but it's okay to be attracted by it, to recognize it, to derive erotic pleasure from it."
Nia and I grin foolishly at each other as I study her almond eyes, high cheekbones, and mahogany skin color, some of the attributes that make her different from me, that make her black. I suppose she's studying my brown hair, blue eyes, aquiline nose, pink skin, and freckles that point to my Northern European heritage. Different on the outside, yet the same on the inside: young people just looking for affirmation, wanting to be desired by another.
"Mark, you remember how to begin: affirmation, permission, touching, kissing, then when you're comfortable..."
"Nia, I think you're an incredible girl. Smart, funny, tender, nice,
cute
... May I give you pleasure in this new way?"
With a note of seriousness that surprised me, Nia acquiesced. But before she did she searched my face, perhaps looking for my motivations, my intentions, for the thing that made me
want
to do this to her,