In life that we have plans, dreams, ambitions, and goals. Some of us get married, start new careers, families, and develop new friendships. I have fulfilled most of my goals, but maybe not all of my dreams or fantasiesâŚin no particular order. I am 25, and married with one child. I reside in Orlando, FloridaâŚthe heat capital of the nation. I havenât lived here all my life, but most of it. Being an African American female has its perks. For one, we were born with good genes (well, most of us), common sense, and natural curves.
I have never cheated on my husband and have always stayed faithful to him, until one particular nightâŚthat changed everything. I decided to go online (due to boredom) and enter a chat room. People were talking about this and that online, and I wasnât paying much attention until one particular person with the screen name of âCaliforniaManâ entered the chat room. I have to admit, I was in a chat room that was designed for older adults, but hey, I am old enough. For some particular reason, I clicked on his screen name and read his profile.
To my surprise, he had a picture to view. I clicked on the link, and boy was I surprised! This man was absolutely gorgeous! He from what I could tell, he looked about 6â. He has short brown hair (I love dark haired men), nice physique, and a killer smile. Though he was a white man, that didnât bother me all. I am in the Generation X category, so anything goes. Race has never been an issue for meâŚever. I have always been attracted to white men, although I have never made love to one. I saw him exit the chat room, but I followed him and decided to send him an instant message.
We chatted online for hours! He was from California, and was a very successful software engineer for a large Engineering firm in San Francisco. He being wealthy didnât faze me; it was his personality. Of course being online, anyone can lie, and make up whatever they wish about themselves, but I truly believed this man. He told me his name was Mark, and I told him my name was Kelly. With me being a married Christian woman, I knew this was a sin to even be chatting online with him, even having explicit conversations with him as well.
I was feeling so guilty about talking with him, but I could not control myself. He had dated a few black women, but never in a serious relationship or sexual. We were in the same situation seemingly, but I was married, and he was not. I asked him his age, and he told me he was 33. Perfect! I love older men. Always have. Over the next couple of weeks, we talked online as often as we could. I knew I had responsibilities at home: a husband and a child to tend to, so I couldnât make Mark my focus.
But something deep inside of me yearned for him. It could have been the fact that he was an attractive older white man, and my number one fantasy was to see what it was like to make love to one. Each conversation that we had was better than the last. Our main topic was not sex all the time, but we talked about worldly issues as well.
One particular night, close to the holiday season, Mark and I were up for our usual late night online chat. This particular evening changed everything. Mark and I were discussing the possibility of meeting someday.
âI am not too sure about this Markâ, I said.
âWhy?â he typed back.
âBecause I am married, and this is wrong.â I replied.
âYou always say that, yet you continue or friendship. We can just be friends you know? But I really like you Kelly and I would never force you to do something that you wouldnât want to doâŚever. Please know thatâ, he said.
âOkâ, I agreed.
âBut you and I both know that we are on other sides of the country, so a serious relationship would never workâŚ.and you are married, so it makes it difficult on the both of us. Yâknow?â
âYes, I knowâ, I replied.
But every time I thought of this man, he made me wet just thinking about him. I tried to fight my feelings and my desires. My heart was telling me no, but my vagina was saying something else.
âI donât use women. I was not brought up to not hurt and use people. But I am not perfect either. I will be very honest with you Kelly. I want you. I want you bad. I donât mean to be disrespectful to your husband and child. But I promise you, I would never intentionally hurt you.â
I replied, âI know. You tell me all the time. I know I may never hear from you again, and that bothers me. I am afraid of falling in love with youâŚthatâs the thing, and that would be a disaster. I know my husband is supposed to fulfill my fantasies and desires, but I want you too, and I feel very selfishâŚand itâs not rightâŚâ
Before I could finish my sentence, quickly typed with an interruption: âI know how you feel. If you are concerned about those things, we shouldnât be sexually involved then. Iâd rather not do this, and of us gets hurt. I really like you, but I donât want to hurt you either. But I promise you thisâŚI will treat you like a lady, respect you in every way, and bring you into total ecstasy.â
Ecstasy? Mark made me quiver when he said that. I was afraid to ask him what he would do to me, but I just had to know. My vagina began to become wet againâŚjust by thinking about it. So, I asked:
âEcstasy? What would you do?â I asked.
âAnything you want me tooâ, he replied.
âAnything?â
âYes. Just say the wordâ.
âBe we are so far awayâ.
âI know!â he exclaimed. âBut I can fix thatâ, he suggested.
âHow?â I asked.
âI will send you a first class ticket to San Francisco. You can come whenever you want. Surprise meâ.
By this point, I was nervous. I didnât know what to tell Josh about me going to San Francisco. I knew I had to make up a lieâŚwhich I didnât like to do. But I wanted him so badly. More than ever before. Finally, I told him: âGo ahead and send the ticketâ.
âOkâ he answered. âAre you sure?â
âYes, I am sureâ.
âOk, I will send one next week. You have about 3 months to use it before it expires. Just thinking about you getting on that plane to see me is making me so hard! I wish you could see me now. I wish you could touch meâŚfeel meâŚput your mouth on meâŚâ
I was getting so hot by him telling me this. And at the same time, I wondered if he was running game to get some pussy. There was only one way to find out, but I sensed gentleness about MarkâŚand he was super sensitive. I put my hand down into my soaked panties and felt my wetness. This was unreal, and the man hadnât even touched me yet!
Before he could finish his sentence, I replied: âDonât tease meâŚplease. My pussy is so wet right now, and it aches just thinking about you. MarkâŚ..I would let you do anything to me that you want me too. Except the anal stuff. Nothing goes up my ass. Sorry.â