I had a fitful nights sleep. Images of watching Alison being submissive and used by the four men kept invading my thoughts and waking me up. Mostly with a solid erection, (plus point). But also with dread and worry, (minus point), about the effects of this on our marriage and friendship. Because we were best friends as well as husband and wife and I had a real fear that this change would mean I lost both. We have no kids and share our lives equally, whether financial, life dreams and home life. We both make decisions, both have access to joint bank accounts, mortgage, internet passwords, phone passwords and friendships. Everything you can think of in a relationship of over 20 years is shared between us both. Alison knew of my cuckold fantasies, my thoughts on sharing her with others. I knew she had fantasies about being submissive to a more dominant man. I knew she liked being tied up and punished. So none of that was a surprise. The speed it had happened, going from fantasy and role play, to actually happening was a surprise. The fact I wasn't there in person to watch and be part of the situation unsettled me a bit. Mainly because of things did go too far, I wasn't there to step in to stop it. Although how far a bloke with artificial legs was going to "step" would be interesting to watch, especially against 4 paratroopers!
All these thoughts spun through my mind as it got lighter and the day started. I'd decided we had to have a proper discussion, just the two of us, as soon as possible.
All the cards on the table and decisions made about how this played out in our real lives. The prospect of how far in the future, if at all, it involved our neighbour and his mates? Did she still want to see Andy, or any of his mates when she got back? What were the limits we both wanted things to go to? What were our sexual limits? What did an outside "relationship" look like? What about how it could affect our "real lives"? Her job in Alisons' case? What if our friends found out? Family? I have three brothers. Her sister obviously knew, so how discrete was she going to be?
I got up and had a shower. Not an easy task when you're alone when you have no legs! We have a fold down seat in our wetroom shower, but drying your arse when sitting down isn't an easy thing to do! Just try it! Getting the stumps dried and putting cream on them has to be a thorough job itself, before I can get my legs on. So that took up the best part of an hour by the time I was dressed and started to write down my talking points.
Alison rang me at about 10. She'd got showered and was sat in front of her phone camera.
" Are you on your own?" I asked.
" Yes. The others are out having a lazy breakfast on the boys' patio, so I came back to our bungalow to ring you. I think we need to have a proper sort out about what's going on and what we do as a couple. It's all gone so quickly. I've made a note of things I think we should discuss. Is it OK? Do you want to do that?
I mean, is it something you want to talk about? Especially us and our future."
" So you've made a list have you? You think this is something we should talk about?" I started of with an angry tone in my voice. All bollocks of course! I was so relieved we still thought about stuff the same as we always did. A proper sit down with bullet points and everything. We did this on every major decision we've ever made. Holidays, new car, where to live, my accident and the ramifications of how we dealt with that. They had all been thought out nd discussed. Of course this was going to be the same. We were still "us".
" I went on. Well I've also made a list. I've also got thoughts on this!" I softened my tone. "Thank fuck we're doing it this way! I'd want to know who you were and what you'd done to Alison if you didn't!" I grinned and said. "Who's turn is it to go first? I think it's mine. You decided on what colour car we bought!"
" Go on then. Though for the record. YOU decided what model we got. I just had the girlie colour bit to decide." She came back. Good! The banter has started. THIS is more like it!
" Firstly. I'm happy about your behaviour. You fucking other men is as good as I thought it would be. It's blown my mind, visually and vocally. Love that bit. The submissive side had me worried at first, but Andy seems a genuine bloke and he seems to have his mates in line. So no worries with that, in this instance. But where do we go from here? Clearly you love it. You are submissive at the time, but clearly have control over the extent of what happens to you. That genie isn't going back in the bottle I suspect, but where you go from there with someone else will need careful consideration for sure. Would you agree?"
" Totally. It's probably THE most sexually alive I've felt for years. It's like we were when we first got together. Experimenting, but in control of things. It's been amazing to go through. Although, I have missed you actually being here in the room. I always assumed you would be. Funny enough, filming it has helped, certainly the "live" show! Andy has been great. He's like you in a lot of ways. Thoughtful and has insisted we think and talk it all through. Not stage managing it, but limits, safe words and making sure I feel safe have been so important to him, all of them really. Gentlemen! Sex mad, rough at times, hard cocks and pure filth. But gentlemen!"
She was starting to blush around her neck and her nipples had hardened during the last couple of sentences. Clearly she was starting to get turned on at the thought of it all. I know I was! But back to business.
" I worry about the filming bit though". I brought up. " It could/would affect your job. It would certainly affect some of our friends. My brothers, I doubt would understand and have opinions. Plus, Dave and his mates seeing you dressed slutty to go out, or half naked by a pool, are really just holiday snaps compared to seeing you have a starring role in a BDSM film! Although I'm sure they would be fully captivated by it, I do have a concern as to where they might take things. THAT would need careful discussion to see if that progressed, between us two before we brought them in. Careful soundings would have to be done."
" Yes I agree. She came back. "A Part of me thinks Dave would really be up for it. Well a LOT of me thinks he'd be up for it. I'd bet next months' mortgage on it. But we need to go carefully down that road, for obvious reasons. Let me have a think about it. I can promise you one thing though as soon as either one of us hits any limit, has any doubts or it starts to affect us, in a bad way. It stops! No matter who thinks they are in charge. They aren't. It's me and you. I love you so much and this is just a side of us that we enjoy. And I think we do both enjoy it. It will get to involve you at my side and we will enjoy it as much as we can."
I felt so much more relaxed and settled in my mind. It is our lives, so fuck 'em!
