I think by the time we all find that right person we have each accumulated our own fair share of baggage. It helps you realize that the person you're with really is worth any difficulty you might endure. I'm not thrilled with everything about my wife Ann's past, but it led her to be who she is now, which is the most loving, erotic and thrilling woman I could have ever imagined.
For the first few years of our marriage, one or another of Ann's ex-boyfriends would come up in conversation or we would run into a friend of one of her exes. Only once had we actually bumped into one of her former love interests up until recently. Any of these scenarios always made me feel uncomfortable. I know I don't have that right. We all have a past, and I know Ann loves me more than all those former boyfriends combined. I figured it was the thought of her having sex with anyone else that pained me.
It turns out I didn't mind her having sex with anyone else - that is, as long as I got to join. This past spring I had watched on in shock as my slightly intoxicated but otherwise wholesome wife put on a strip-tease dance for a bunch of guys at a party one night. My shock was caused not only because I never would have expected this behavior from my wife at this point in her life, but also by how turned on I was by her entertaining other men and me. When I was really honest with myself, I admitted that I actually was more than a little aroused at the prospect of those men's fucking her.
Ann didn't so much as touch those men that night, but it did lead to an open and honest conversation between the two of us. The conversation culminated in a threesome that following summer with a man we picked up on the Internet, and since then we have enjoyed four other multiple-male group sessions with my wife as the sole center of attention. Needless to say, my hangup hadn't been other men with my wife. No one enjoyed it more than I did. I just wanted to be a part of the action.
Recently, we planned to take a break from the group stuff. We already are parents and wanted to focus more on our family for a year or two before diving into what has honestly been an exciting experience that has enhanced our love and enjoyment with each other on an even deeper level. It turns out our circumstances have changed a bit in the past few weeks, freeing us up to the idea that maybe another fun session or two with someone else might be in the cards in the near future. We had even talked to a couple guys here and there with varying degrees of interest on our part, but nothing that really had our attention.
What I really wanted this time was someone whom Ann would really enjoy to fuck. None of the guys we had carefully selected so far was a total dud or anything, but none of them really got Ann going. We were OK with it because she always insisted she was doing it for me, but I felt selfish. I guess I wasn't convinced that she enjoyed the threesomes and moresomes as much as I did.
Then came a night out we had with Ann's sister and her friends on a Friday at the end of January. The toddler was with her grandparents, and the whole night and following morning was ours to do as we wished. We went to a restaurant that Ann and Brittany, Ann's sister, had been frequenting for years, which is where we ran into none other than Cam, one of Ann's ex-boyfriends.
To be completely clear, he wasn't as much a boyfriend as an acquaintance whom Brittany and Ann (and many of their friends, apparently) had been attracted to and whom Ann had slept with a few times years ago, being one of the "lucky few." Regardless, I could see right away what the attraction was. Being straight doesn't mean I can't recognize a sharp-looking guy when I see one. Cam was a little taller than I, dark skin, eyes and hair and appeared to be in his mid-30s. He was obviously in good shape and was dressed pretty well.
I didn't feel intimidated or anything by him - until I saw how Ann acted around him when he came over to greet her. Ann has never been good at hiding her feelings, which makes her a terrible liar, by the way. As soon as Cam had her attention, I noticed how her eyes widened a bit and how she blushed a little and stumbled on her words some. There was clearly still some attraction there. I definitely felt some conflict internally as I witnessed their reconnecting.
Cam acknowledged Brittany too, as well as making sure to greet the rest of the table, but it was obvious it was my wife who had the vast majority of his attention. I could see why, of course. The two talked for several minutes before Ann became aware that she had lost focus on the rest of our group. I know she felt awful about it, especially because of whom she was talking to as she sat next to her husband. I didn't have much opportunity or desire to say much, so I sat quietly and kept to myself until Ann brought the conversation to an end and saw Cam off to his group of friends over at the bar. My wife then turned back to us and apologized, clearly plagued with guilt over an apparent momentary lapse in awareness or, perhaps, self-control. Brittany was quite amused but I suspect a little jealous too. She was holding herself together a bit better in front of her spouse than Ann was, for sure. The two girls chatted about some memories they had involving Cam, wherein it was confirmed that Ann had slept with Cam at least a couple times, making her the envy of her sister and many of their friends.
I was conflicted, like I said, but I knew I had no reason to be. I knew Ann was going to be faithful to me until I die, and it was a fact that I enjoyed watching other guys fuck her, so long as I participated. So what if she was aware that there are other attractive men out there? And who was I to hold her past against her?