Chapter 03: Probationary Acceptance Party
This incident with Mark was playing with my head. I really didn't want to be all the things that I now feared I was: fag, cocksucker, and all that. I resolved that it was an one-time thing. Maybe it was a bad decision; maybe not. But it was in the past. There were lots of women on campus and, while I was no hunk, I would find someone to get to know in the way I wanted.
My psychology class went completely normally, though I was sometimes a bit distracted thinking about my dream. When I got back to my dorm room, there was a message to call Mark. My heart began to pound. I didn't expect to hear about being admitted into the fraternity so soon, and I really didn't want to think about anything else Mark might be calling me about. I dialed his number and listened to my pulse pound in the phone. When he answered and I told him it was me, he sounded completely normal and cheery.
"You're in!"
"What?" I said stupidly.
"You're in, Allen." He paused for a minute, probably waiting for me to say something, but I couldn't think of anything to say. So he went on. "Well, it's only probationary, of course, but out of all the guys who applied, we only took six as probationary pledges. So, that's pretty good."
"It's great," I said, and I really was excited but I was a little uncomfortable and my voice must have sounded less than enthusiastic.
"Well, I hope you think so. I had to make a pitch for you. I'd hate to think you didn't appreciate it."
Shit. He thinks I'm indebted to him now. He's planning on keeping me as his little cocksucker. I wasn't sure now if I wanted to accept the invitation to join. But what he said next put me at ease. They wanted all the probationary pledges to come and spend the entire Spring Break at the house, beginning tonight. He said that SAE was going to spring for some entertainment in the form of booze, movies and women (if I knew that he meant). I thought I did, and I liked the idea very much. I was getting ready as soon as I hung up and was on the doorstep at eight as instructed.
The other new recruits came about the same time and, after dropping our things off in a large dorm-style sleeping room, we were shown into the basement rec room. It was a great room. There was a pool table, a Ping-Pong table, a pinball machine and some video games on one side. The other side was completely made over into a home theater with a huge screen TV and a terrific sound system. There was a keg of beer already flowing and I began to relax. In addition to Mark, there were five other senior SAE members. They were all really nice and the rest of the probationary pledges seemed okay, too. I had seen them around, but didn't really know any of them and I was relieved to find that they accepted me, they seemed really interested when we talked. As it turned out, each of the six SAE guys were "sponsors" of one of the new recruits.
Now I don't have too much experience drinking, and I'm pretty sure I had a little too much, too quickly because some things are kind of blurry in my memory. I know we went over to the TV side of the room and began watching one of the movies Mark had mentioned. It was really good. I mean, it was "for shit" as a movie: no plot, ridiculous dialog, bad sound and camera work. But it was really hot—or so it seemed to a naive guy like me. Women were coming on to men like crazy and at the mere suggestion would drop to their knees and suck a guy off. They seemed to love fucking and sucking lots of guys at once. And, if there wasn't a guy around, they would play with each other. I really liked it.
I was initially irritated when there was a commotion behind us. But, when I looked back and saw the source, I decided it was okay. The party girls were here: three hookers, I'm sure, though they didn't look like I imagined hookers would. They were young, not really trashy looking, and they were pretty. They came over and sat down among us—well, not the probationary pledges. Each of the three girls sat with one of the SAE guys on each side of her.
So, we newbies had to look on from afar. But the show was pretty good. They started talking about the action on the screen. It was strange to hear a woman talk like that: openly and crudely about sex but with no embarrassment. Sometimes they were laughing about the things that happened in the movie. Sometimes they were teasing the guys there were sitting with. And sometimes they were pitying those of us far from them. But they didn't do anything to correct that last situation.
One of the hookers, I think her name was 'Gina', commented on how big the boobs were on the woman in the movie who was seducing a younger girl into some lesbian love. Another, who called herself 'Lori' (though who knows what her real name was) insisted that the actress wasn't any bigger than she was. Of course, the argument was only going to be settled by a show of breasts, so soon Lori was standing next to the "freeze framed" image of the buxom woman on the screen. We all voted that, while Lori's breasts were slightly smaller than the other woman's, they were definitely far better looking. Soon, all of the girls were in some state of undress. They toyed with us mercilessly, rubbing the thighs of the upperclassmen and touching themselves. Sometimes they would let one of the senior guys touch their breasts, but the advances came quite slowly.
Before too many more beers were drunk by everyone, though, progress had been made. The third girl, Cindy, broke the ice (if you can use that word for a room that was so hot) when she bet Gina that Gina couldn't deepthroat a guy like the woman on the movie was doing. We all saw this coming as a set up so we weren't surprised, but we were extremely excited, when the girls began undressing the older SAE guys and pulled their cocks out. My cock, and I'm sure the cocks of my fellow pledges, were just as hard as the upperclassmen's but theirs were out in the open and being stroked and sucked by beautiful women. God, I envied them.
At one point, when Lori was sucking Mark deep into her throat, I was watching them closely, not really thinking about anything. But, when I caught Mark looking at me with a sort of superior grin on his face, I flushed and turned away quickly. After a few minutes, though, I found my eyes going back, again and again, to Mark's cock. I felt my heart pounding again. Her lips were dark red and the contrast with his white cock was striking. She would go all the way down on his cock and, as she did, I felt my throat tighten.
At first I didn't hear what Mark said. I didn't even know that he was talking to me. But I suddenly realized that all the other discussion in the room had stopped. There was only the background noise of the movie with its sucking and slurping and bad soundtrack. Everyone was looking at me.
"Hey! I said, do you want some of this, Allen?"