Submission and sacrifice. The Name of the Game.
I was missing Danny dreadfully. It is hard, especially at Christmas time suffering the trauma of someone that is so dear, having left you.
How will I survive Christmas? I do not know. I feel so lonely and depressed. Danny is the only guy who can do it for me, who can change me from bad Karma to good. And it is not just the sex although that was a very big thing in our relationship. It was also the feeling of belonging and being everything for him that he wanted of me.
I remember how he loved me last Christmas How we dabbled in the thrill and joy of sexual foreplay. He'd have me dip his masterpiece ( as I called it) in a glass of Advocaat, or cherry wine and a host of other delightful flavors and suck of the flavors, which combined with his own, made for a delightful beverage.
It is just those little things I miss and the variations he always liked to play the sex theme, like he'd smother me in brandy sauce after the Christmas pudding and lick it off. It was really kinky but I loved it. It was just so nice to see him enjoy me like that and vice versa.
"I miss you Danny Barker so please come back and do the business for me. I will even go so far as to do the golden rain thing with you, that is how I feel and I do wonder if that is why you dumped me, because I could not adapt to your variations on a theme, how you wanted to strap me up and beat me with a gag in my mouth, how you wanted to spank me incessantly over your knee. And then hammer me when my butt was so sore. Okay, so you massaged loads of stimulating and soothing coconut oil into me beforehand, but each tine you thrust against my butt is made me cringe. But I put up with it because I wanted to please you.
"You know I was willing to go so far but when the situation got out of hand I became concerned that you would not know when to stop.
"Well perhaps I should have, perhaps that is what relationships are all about, trust and being honest with each other.
"I am willing to give us another try just for the feel of your warm sufficiency - I miss that so very much, more than you could ever imagine. I dream of it and still bear the imagery in my mind. I often look at the video we shot for personal viewing of those wonderful beautiful scenes with you deep in my mouth, and you deep into me. I see to myself as I view them and watch the absolute joy and satisfaction as you spunk so strong into my mouth, and across my face. And how I respond to that and the beautiful way you initiate your masterpiece into me doggy fashion, and how I respond helping you to gain a good erection and a deep penetration so that we can both enjoy the sensation of something that only we can do exclusively for each other.
"Danny, I am willing to do the golden rain thing or whatever, because I must regain my trust in you. I shall close my eyes and make myself enjoy what you want of me no matter how repulsive it may initially seem to me. But I did wee into your underpants and massage you over your pants as you said you would like. The last time you had me suck you as you held it out and stretched it back and I smelt you,. It was not a good incentive then to suck you and, as you know, it took me time.
But given that time because you were so considerate, content to have me wank you off instead, I got around to it. And the first time, when I closed my eyes and tasted you, the smell, the taste aroused me significantly to let you fuck me for the first time, the rest is history - but I don't want you to be history Danny. So please come back to me and I promise I will do anything you want me to do,. Because I love you so much..
"It is hard to explain how gutted and lost I feel without you. You became a big part in my life. Perhaps I took you too much for granted. Like when I helped myself to your masterpiece. You always said just how much you like that. And Danny, it is a masterpiece. I miss that so much too, the smell and taste of freshly massaged cock is something special to behold. I do love to wank you so very much, to tease and cradle your gorgeous full balls. I miss how you tease my anus with your fingers when I suck you. I love how you suck and lick me there, It gives me a whole new feeling and sensation which makes it crave for your presence inside. Your nice big fat masterpiece working into me like it does and pausing occasionally to let us both enjoy the throb of sex.
"Don't you see Danny how much I miss you? I never get a text reply lately since you dumped me so I thought I would try emailing you, and hope you still have the same email address.
