I was really confused about what had happened with Ryan. I wasn't gay! I had basically never had a gay thought in my life. That is, until huge muscle teen stud Ryan...Dick. And while it was almost definitely the case that Ryan knew the effect he had on me, I didn't know for sure that he did. He hadn't really reacted to my climax on top of him (other than to say "good girl", but he could have been talking about my massage).
After getting home that night, I tested myself out. I sat on my computer at home and looked through pictures and videos of naked guys. Tall, short, skinny, stocky, old and young, all I felt for any of them was disinterest and mild disgust. The only media that came anywhere close to turning me on was hugely muscular young men, but only to the extent that they reminded me of big Dick. Even within that demographic, no matter how many different guys I looked at, I found they were, at best, poor imitations of Ryan's amazingly hard body and boyish handsomeness.
I closed out all my internet tabs and found myself instead thinking about Ryan's masculine body. How small I felt compared to him, how nice it was to have his hands and hard body on me. Before I even realized what I was doing, I found myself grinding my ass into my chair and bending forward, imagining I was again grinding on Ryan's lap.
A loud buzz sounded and gave me a jolt. My eyes flew open and I saw my phone had lit up. I leaned back. Jesus, get ahold of yourself, I thought. I grabbed the phone, assuming it would be Carlie. She often sent texts in the middle of the night with updates about her shift for me to see when I woke up.
Instead, it was from an unsaved number. Ryan, I thought, my heart skipping a beat.
"Thanks again for the massage, baby. Keep up the good work on your core and that ass. Feeling great."
I stared at the message, thinking back to Ryan's large hands squeezing me. l hesitated. I needed to show this kid that I wasn't simply at his beck and call. I decided I wouldn't answer him tonight.
It was difficult. I stared at his message and even typed out a couple lame responses before stubbornly deleting them.
About 15 minutes later, as I lay in bed, I pulled up my text chain with Ryan. Again I clicked the text box to respond, but once again decided against it. Then, after hesitating only a moment, I slowly scrolled up to the picture he had sent me earlier that day. I opened it.
My god. Seeing him triggered all the images of him now burned into my brain. Ryan peeling his sweater off. Ryan laying on the bench, my hands on him. Ryan's wide strong chest beneath me as I sat on him.
Buzz.
"What you waiting for babe?"
I stared...confused. But I still didn't respond. He'd probably just think I was asleep, right?
Another buzz. "Babe?"
I decided I couldn't pretend to ignore him any more. "Sorry, was in the shower."
"Thinking about me? ;)"
Before I could respond that I wasn't, he continued.
"Just joking. Why do you keep starting to respond and then stopping. The indicator pops up every time you start typing you know."
Shit...what do I say? What could I say? Phone glitching? I decided just to be straight-forward. I replied, lamely, "Sorry, wasn't sure what to say..."
"You're so cute. So would you say I take your breath away?"
I needed to say something but didn't want to say that. "Ummm..." Killer response, I thought. So well composed, I thought, fuming at myself.
"Alright you little chatterbox, I'll let you off the hook. See you for the next session on Thursday, same time?" That was two nights from now.
I paused only a second before saying "Okay."
"Great. Also, I'm probably not telling you anything you don't know already, but you do need to shave off a few pounds babe. Exercise is great, but it all starts with diet. Lets say 1200-1300 calories a day, okay?"
What the fuck. That was nothing! Anger flared up. I began to type a reply that there was no way I was changing my diet just because he said so. But again he beat me to it.
"I know that sounds harsh, baby, but it will be good for you. If that's not a good enough reason for you, do it for me?"
My anger melted away. As always I found myself wanting to please him. And it was true that it was really all in my best interest.
"Okay, Ryan." I said. "I was planning to do something like that anyways."
He replied. "Good 😘"
I stared at the kissing emoji for a long time. But he didn't text me again. I closed my eyes and settled into a fitful sleep.
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Though I tried to put Ryan out of my head for the following two days, I found it impossible to do so. I was so confused about how I felt about this cocky teenage Dick. I was 13 years older than him, and completely straight. I knew I shouldn't have paid him any mind.
Carlie noticed how distracted I was acting and on Wednesday morning asked what was wrong. I played it off as nothing, and that I was just hungry because I was trying this new diet. Still she persisted. She came up to me and gave me a deep kiss. I kissed her back, welcoming the distraction. We started making out and stumbled into the bedroom. As we stripped she asked "you want to be on top?"
"Sure," I panted, excited. But as I got between her legs and looked down onto her soft body, I felt a pang of disappointment. I tried to stick it in but found I was rapidly softening.
"Jerry? Everything okay?"
It wasn't okay. I wasn't able to recover and we ended up just cuddling. This wasn't normal for me and Carlie kept asking me what was wrong. I told her nothing was and, after a while, got up to go to work.
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Thursday inched by and I found I had a growing sense of anticipation. I arrived at the gym around 10 p.m. that evening and there he was, ripping out sets of tricep extensions, his arms looking huge. My breath caught, seeing big Dick.
I walked over to the free-weight area and made eye contact with Ryan, giving him a slight head nod in greeting. He grinned and said "hey babe." I wandered over to the free barbell, which happened to be right in front of him and, facing away from him, bent over to begin deadlifts. I felt a strange thrill knowing he was right behind me as I bent over and I wondered if he would help me out like last time.
However, when I straightened up, he was wondering away. I continued my reps. As I ran through my leg, core, and butt exercises (each as recommended by the girl in the video Ryan had showed me), I continually checked on Ryan and each time found the teenager immersed in his own exercises. Still, he would periodically make eye contact and come over, saying things like "keep it up" and giving me casual pointers here and there. He didn't touch me though.
I finished my workout on the stairclimber and when I was just about done he walked up and stood behind me and to the right. He stood and looked at my butt and I felt myself sashaying a bit automatically.
"I'm gonna hit the Sauna."
"Um...Okay." With that he walk out of the gym and towards the locker room.
After about 30 seconds, I followed. I quickly got undressed and went to the sauna. But as I stepped in, I saw it was empty. After a moment, I sat down, confused. I must have missed him in the locker room, I thought. I waited and thought.
What was I doing? Here I was in the sauna waiting to...what? Give this kid, this cocky teen, another massage? What was wrong with me? What would Carlie think? I felt a stab of confusion and guilt.
Then Ryan walked in with only a towel on. My mind went blank as I stared at his massive frame.
"Hey babe - thanks for waiting. Was taking a shit."
"Yeah...no problem."
"You want give me another massage, then?"
Did I want to? Well? What do I say to him? "Umm, well I don't know. I guess...do you want one? You keep giving me pointers so I guess I owe you."
"That would be great, let's do it." He lay down, facing down though propped up on his elbows. and I approach, placing my hands on his wide back, which is bunched up with muscle in that position. I begin rubbing up and down his back, excited to again feel his strong body with my own hands. I squeezed his large triceps, each filling a hand with dense muscle. He sighed contentedly and I felt a surge of pride.
"I did some squats today can you get my glutes?"
I paused. His glutes. My eyes fell on his found and muscular ass, outlined by his thin towel. I was already light-headed from eating so little today. Add onto that the heat of the sauna and the effect Ryan's body had on me and I was basically in lala land. In this state I didn't even pause before bringing my hands to his two pump cheeks and started kneading. First softly then with increased enthusiasm. I ran my hands up and down his hard balls of ass muscle, so much firmer and tighter than my own bubble butt. I found myself cupping his ass and feeling along his upper thighs. This went on for a while with increased vigor and eagerness on my part. Then Ryan stood up, and I looked up at him, confused.
"Lets finish it in the shower. You can do my front there."
"Umm, but..." But Ryan had already stepped away. He walked out of the Sauna.
After a moment, I walked out after him, not sure what was happening.
As I arrived at the open shower area, still wearing my bathing suit, and spotted him.
He was naked with water cascading down his strong teenage body. Small rivers of water streamed over his large mounds of muscle and through the valley's of defined ridges. His massive cock hung flaccid between his legs. It was amazing how low it hang and how thick it was, even though not erect. I stood there, enraptured. He rand his hands over his body, spreading soap.
He glanced at me, "Okay, come finish the job!" I slowly walked over to him. He faced me grinning, and I nervously brought my hands to his chest.