But despite my distrust in school activities in general and Senior Proms in special I found myself really enjoying the evening. Jack looked incredible in his suit and, as stupid that might be to say about someone who probably only saw you as a friend, when we talked I felt like all the people around us simply disappeared. ClichΓ© spotted, I know but that was just how it felt.
The whole evening I was busy trying not to lose myself in his eyes and oppressing the urge to kiss him right then and there. Apart from that, we did the typical school dance things. We tried to have conversations by screaming over the music, had some not-alcohol-free-anymore-after-some-guys-managed-to-bring-along-vodka drinks and even danced. Sadly more next to than with each other but at least I got to watch his incredible body.
As the evening went on, people got more and more drunk, the music got louder and the whole thing more annoying with every passing minute. So we decided to leave, even though it made me sad to think of letting him go, not knowing, how soon, or if, we would meet again.
Just as we were about to leave, someone got in our way. Bethany.
She was drunk on a level that was beyond funny and nearly stumbled over her own feet when she tried to take Jack's hand. He looked irritated and pulled away. She looked at him in a way that her drunk self might have found seductive and mumbled "Come on Jacky, you didn't mean to leave me. Just of you jokes. You not... gay. I don't believe. Tell me you wouldn't leave me for this dork there, right?"
Jack stared at her as she kept on rambling, he looked frantic and desperate and tried to shush her. "Beth, please, we talked about this, please stop! I simply don't love you."
That was the moment she snapped. "Fine!" She screamed. "Leave me for that fag! Stupid dick sucker! Fuck you! I deserve better!" With that she turned around, somehow managed not to trip and rushed off.
Jack stood there like a kid left in the rain. He didn't look at me or anyone else. My thoughts were turning. What the fuck did just happen?! I stepped up to Jack and touched his arm.
He winced. "Wanna get out? Maybe talk?" I asked him quietly. He nodded slightly and followed me out.
"I' so sorry," he whispered, as soon as we were alone. "I didn't mean to... I don't... I... Shit." He turned his back to me. "Shitshitshit" he mumbled.
"Jack," I said softly, "it's okay. Talk to me." He turned back to me and I saw tears in his eyes.
"I'm sorry. I didn't want it to be like this. And please don't think I was trying to trick you into something. Listen, I really wanted to go out with you, just once, before you move away for college, but I never knew how to ask for it. It's true, you know. I'm gay. Damn, I never should have told her but I just needed to tell anyone! And right after I came out to her and broke up I met you, so I somehow just went for it and made up that stupid cousin story, I'm so sorry. Please don't hate me now, I will leave you alone, I promise, I..."
He stopped, not knowing what else to say and not able to look at me. I carefully wiped away a tear from his face and then hugged him tightly. After a short moment of surprise he hugged me back and put his head on my shoulder.
We stood like that for what seemed to be an eternity, before I pulled away and looked into his eyes. "Jack," I whispered, "I've liked you for years."
Watching his face light up was the most amazing thing I had ever seen. He hugged me again, almost pressing the air out of my lungs and kissed me. It was not like the first kiss you see in movies. It was passionate, ardent and a little hungry and a little clumsy, the kiss of someone who had been waiting for too long.
Still it made my head spin and my knees weak so I was glad he kept holding me close. After what seemed way to short he broke the kiss. His voice sounded throaty, when he asked me to leave this place and go somewhere, where we would have some more privacy.
"Please don't get this wrong, I don't want to put any pressure on you or something, but my folks are gone over the weekend, so I have the house for myself and I was wondering if you would like to, you know, want to stay the night?" the look he gave me reminded me of a child asking for sweets.
"Of course, I would love to!" I said, as I kissed him again.