Chapter 23 β W4 Monday evening
(Just to catch you up β at the very end of Chapter 22, Luke had received this letter)
"Mike," Luke said, "I received a very disturbing letter today from Sylvia."
"Sylvia? Who is Sylvia?"
"She isβwas my girlfriend. Mike," Luke sobbed, "I don't know what I should do. She wants to make amends, here, just read it!" Luke handed the letter to Mike so he could read it.
My Dearest Luke,
I think you knew that my daddy never liked you, but I love you, and I still do.
I was only 16 when we had sex. Daddy suspected that we had done something together, sexually. He pushed me into testifying against you. If I didn't go along with him he threatened to take me to a gynecologist and have me examined, to see if I was still a virgin and I knew what the result would be. So I let him have his way, and we sent you to prison.
He made me lie, and say that you forced me to have sex, but you and I both know it was consensual, and something we both wanted to do.
I am 18 now, and I talked with the judge last week. He told me that I could file for an appeal, as I was coerced into lying by my father. It would erase the felony from your record, and you would be released immediately. Unfortunately, it would not undo the pain you and I have suffered for the last year and a half, and the wasted time you spent incarcerated.
If you still love me, as I love you, just give me the word, and I will file the appeal, and when it is over, we can be together again.
I am so sorry I did you so wrong, please forgive me.
I love you,
Sylvia
"Wow!" Mike exclaimed, tears running down his cheeks. "This is heavy, Baby! What are you going to do?"
Chapter 23 β W4 Monday evening continues
"Honestly, Mike," Luke responded, "I don't know, and I don't have any idea what I even should do. This is tearing me apart!" Luke is sobbing, trying to talk in between the sobs and tears.
"On one hand, letting Sylvia go ahead and file the appeal would get me out of here with no felony record, but so much is different now." Luke went on, "Back then, I thought I was straight, and I loved Sylvia. I never realized, I did, and still do, love Sylvia. But I never was 'in love' with her. But now, I am 'in love' with you!"
"I totally understand you, Baby," Mike responded. "I've been with some guys that I loved, but you are the first and only one that I have been in love with. And I damn sure don't want to lose you! So what are the options?"
"Well, option one is to do nothing. Let Syl know that I appreciate her willingness to help me get out of here, but I would also have to let her know that I have someone here that means the world to me. That what she and I had together is in the past, and can not be revived."
"The second option, I suppose, would be to let her go ahead and file the appeal, and get out of here with no record. I would no longer receive the training from here, and Sylvia would soon find out that I just used her, because my heart is with you, and I definitely would wait for you! Even though I'm not in love with her, I don't think I could do her that way."
"Which option are you leaning toward?" Mike asked.
"Actually, I'm kind of thinking option three, which is a combination of both one and two. Let her know that I would very much appreciate her helping to get me free, but also, that I am in love with you. That would allow her to do the right thing, helping me get out, and still leave me with some integrity as she would not be expecting us to get back together."
"I don't envy you baby, at this point. It's one hell of a hard decision to make. Whatever you decide, I hope you know I support you, 100%. It would be hard on me, if you get free, but I would handle it." Mike, starting to choke up, "That's quite a few months without your love, and your touch."
"Mike," Luke said quietly. "I wouldn't blame you, if you hooked up with some guys in here for some sex, but please, keep your heart for me."
"Baby, you're talking like it's already happening. I don't want anyone else. I've used my hands before, and I know they will help me out again, when I have the need."
"If I do get out of here," Luke stated, "I will not receive any more carpentry training. I might be able to hook up with a contractor, as an apprentice, and still work toward the certification." Otherwise, maybe just find a job somewhere to earn a living."
"Luke," Mike queried, "Have you told your family anything about us?"
"Only that I have a new 'best friend' and that you and I are very close. For the time being, I think it best to keep it that way. I may need to live with them for a while, once I get out of here, even if it is after completion of training and I finish my time of incarceration."
"Well, there is no possible way that I would be able to get out early. I would also need to stay with my family for a while, till I can get on my feet. At least I will be a certified chef, and there are usually some good jobs available for qualified chefs. My family knows that I am gay, and that I now have a boyfriend, and they are okay with that."
"Mike," Luke commented, "I think I just need to ponder these options for a couple days. I don't dare rush a decision. I might even discuss it with Ivan, and get his opinion."
"Hey baby, do whatcha gotta do." Mike stated, "you bout ready to hit the sack? I have to help open in the morning."
Luke, as both men started to undress for bed, "Why does life sometimes have to be so complicated? I am tempted to wish we had never met, or gotten so close. I would jump at this opportunity to get out of here, still thinking I was straight."
"If it is what you want," Mike responded, "I can act as if we've never been close. I can go sleep in my bed again, and we can just forget we were ever lovers. I'll try to ignore the fact that we were boyfriends at one time."
"No Mike!" Luke stated, "That is not what I want, in fact, right now I need you more than ever!" Luke is crying again. "With you by my side, Mike, Iβ-we will get through this crises. I love you, unconditionally. You are the most important thing in my life!"
"I hope you know how much I love you." Mike said softly, "And I am standing here for you. You don't have to go through this alone!"
The two men slipped into bed, Mike spooning Luke. Neither man really saying anything, just thinking and trying to go to sleep.
After about a half-hour, Luke softly spoke, "Mike, thank you for loving me."
There was no response, as Mike had already drifted off to sleep. Luke also finally went to sleep, wrapped in Mike's arms.
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