Jason let himself into Nick's house and took a deep breath. Nick was on the sofa watching a talk show -- he had decided that he'd go into classes today and Spider had offered to walk him in.
"Hey." Nick smiled. Spider sat in a chair opposite him and didn't return the greeting. "Spi?"
"I had sex with Claudia." Spider said. Nick's eyes widened.
"Oh my." Nick felt his heart tighten and thought he might just be sick for a moment, it was stupid they weren't even a couple and he felt hurt. "Does Nathan know?"
"No one knows." Spider shook his head and fiddled with his nails.
"Why did you do it?" Nick asked, his stomach had a dull ache in it that he couldn't shake off.
"I don't know...well I do. But..." Spider sighed unhappily.
"Hmm?" Nick tilted his head.
"I did it to see if I was gay." Spider shrugged. "She's always had a thing for me and I really felt like I needed to know for sure before I..." He trailed off.
"Before you what?" Nick scowled. He wished Spider hadn't told him. Now the boy he loved was going to say he liked girls and Nick would just be a distant memory for him.
"Before I ... you know." Spider grumbled. "Don't make me say it."
"What? Spider I am so lost right now." Nick frowned.
"I'm...I'm in love with you." Spider looked at him uncertainly. Nick's jaw dropped. "And I know that fucking a girl isn't the best way to be sure but I know I had to do it before I give myself over to you. And and and I know I've been a right bastard to you over these last few months but it's just because that first time I met you in the drama hall I could see myself with you in years and that was really unsettling for me and the way I felt and I tried not to get involved with you until I knew how I felt and..."
"Spider." Nick stopped him.
"Yeah?" Spider looked flustered.
"Shut up and kiss me." Nick said softly. Spider sat stunned for a second then went over to Nick wrapping his arms around him and pulling him to him. He then very, very softly kissed Nick's lips. Just once and then looked at him. Nick snuggled closer wanting more. "Well, ask me out. We've got to do this right. Forget the past and start a fresh."
"Nick, I want you to be my boyfriend." Spider said softly following each word with a kiss to the neck. Nick murmured happily and let Spider kiss him more. "I also wouldn't mind having you right here and now." Nick giggled and slid his hands under Spider's shirt pulling it up and off. They were close and vocal throughout their lovemaking, Spider told Nick how beautiful he was and how good he felt he kissed him often and stroked his soft skin. When they were spent they lay on the sofa together, Nick wrapped in Spider's arms. "Mmm come on Twinkle, we better get you back to classes, you've been missed." They walked together slowly, neither really wanting to be in the company of others. Nick did wonder to himself how Spider would react when they were around their friends -- he was also worried about the atmosphere between Claudia and Spider -- would there be one at all? He asked Spider to stay with him for the day, as he still felt a bit fragile. When the two got back to the drama hall most people gushed over Nick being back and how well he looked and how were the parents coping? So Spider just sat on a sofa with Nile and watched the goings on.
