Once I hit my late teens I knew I had to try cock at some point. When I was drunk I craved it, especially hung over. I wanted to be dominated and didn't put it together that I was a bottom. There were a few instances where I would watch gay porn and masturbate. This caused some intense cumshot orgasms.
My first attempt to play with another guy was organised over craigslist, which I always use to find hard cocks. I had the house I shared with my girlfriend to myself and the urge had finally gotten too much to withhold. A guy in his early twenties came around and I let him in. We sat down on the couch with some porn on but the nerves got the better of me. I had to ask him to leave. He understood and left but returned very quickly trying to persuade me just to have a mutual wank, I couldn't as my nerves were shot.
Between this first experience and my next was a few years. During those years I continued to masturbate and eventually turned to anal play. I was going down the path towards cock. There were plenty of times where I organised a meet on craigslist but couldn't go ahead with it, my heart would be beating so fast each time.
I loved looking at the hard cocks that guys sent me pictures of and taking pictures of my hard cock and tight ass sending them back. I used to masturbate on webcam to a gay chat room, this was so hot knowing I was being watched and sometimes told what to do.
My first anal experience with someone else was with a hooker. I always tried to think that I just wanted a girl with a strap on to fuck me not a real cock. I rocked up and asked for her to use a strap on on me. It was roughly 4-5inchs and it felt great finally having someone else controlling my anal pleasure.
I striped down and was lying on the bed looking up at a gigantic mirror on the roof, I thought this would be awesome to watch my self get fucked in. There was also a mirror at the end of the bed so I could watch myself get fucked like a slut.
The girl came into the room and put them on the strap on, I was excited and so horny. She lubed it up and got me to be on all fours facing the mirror. I could feel the cock rub up against my ass lubing my crack, I was pushing back, eager to be filled. When she finally stopped teasing my ass I felt the cock slide in. I loved it!. I immediately pushed back on it taking the whole lot, I had used toys this size before. She slowly started fucking me in and out of my ass. I could see myself in the mirror with her kneeling behind my ass fucking it.