Once I hit my late teens I knew I had to try cock at some point. When I was drunk I craved it, especially hung over. I wanted to be dominated and didn't put it together that I was a bottom. There were a few instances where I would watch gay porn and masturbate. This caused some intense cumshot orgasms.
My first attempt to play with another guy was organised over craigslist, which I always use to find hard cocks. I had the house I shared with my girlfriend to myself and the urge had finally gotten too much to withhold. A guy in his early twenties came around and I let him in. We sat down on the couch with some porn on but the nerves got the better of me. I had to ask him to leave. He understood and left but returned very quickly trying to persuade me just to have a mutual wank, I couldn't as my nerves were shot.
Between this first experience and my next was a few years. During those years I continued to masturbate and eventually turned to anal play. I was going down the path towards cock. There were plenty of times where I organised a meet on craigslist but couldn't go ahead with it, my heart would be beating so fast each time.
I loved looking at the hard cocks that guys sent me pictures of and taking pictures of my hard cock and tight ass sending them back. I used to masturbate on webcam to a gay chat room, this was so hot knowing I was being watched and sometimes told what to do.
My first anal experience with someone else was with a hooker. I always tried to think that I just wanted a girl with a strap on to fuck me not a real cock. I rocked up and asked for her to use a strap on on me. It was roughly 4-5inchs and it felt great finally having someone else controlling my anal pleasure.
I striped down and was lying on the bed looking up at a gigantic mirror on the roof, I thought this would be awesome to watch my self get fucked in. There was also a mirror at the end of the bed so I could watch myself get fucked like a slut.
The girl came into the room and put them on the strap on, I was excited and so horny. She lubed it up and got me to be on all fours facing the mirror. I could feel the cock rub up against my ass lubing my crack, I was pushing back, eager to be filled. When she finally stopped teasing my ass I felt the cock slide in. I loved it!. I immediately pushed back on it taking the whole lot, I had used toys this size before. She slowly started fucking me in and out of my ass. I could see myself in the mirror with her kneeling behind my ass fucking it.
She wasn't as dominant as I expected and I had to tell her to change positions, I rolled onto my back. She slide the cock back into my ass and I could watch it from the mirror above the bed. A big thrust in and I would moan, as she pulled out I would push towards it not wanting it to get away. I loved the feeling of the cock coming out of my ass and plunging all the way in. I was being fucked like a slut and it looked so hot. I was close to cumming!. I'd never cummed from anal play before but the sight of myself in the mirror getting fucked and not having any control over the big fast thrusts and the slow deep thrusts. I blew my load all over my stomach and she was surprised, she said she'd never made someone cum from a strapon before.
She showered me wanting to fuck again but I was wrecked, I couldn't please her and it wasn't what I paid for anyway, I had gotten my money's worth that day.
After this experience I just craved cock even more. The strap on that I was fucked with wasn't big enough, I wanted a cock that would be hard to take at first but fuck me like a slut once it got going.