It was easy to keep myself busy at work – too busy to have time to think about recent events. I made it all the way to five o'clock without once feeling the need to reexamine my sexuality or my relationship with my roommate but as soon as I walked into the door of the apartment, as soon as I laid eyes on that couch – the one that John had stretched back in just a couple of night ago while I sucked his cock for the first time – it all rushed back to me.
I was both drawn to and repulsed by it. I sat down in his seat and turned the television on, flipping through the channels aimlessly. I couldn't get comfortable so I slid one seat down to the right, to the place I had been seated when my best friend made his odd proposal. That felt better. I leaned back and closed my eyes. I was waiting, but waiting for what I don't know.
John came home late from work that afternoon and he wasn't alone. He brought another man with him, whom he introduced in place of a greeting as soon as soon as he saw me on the couch. "This is Mike." He called, throwing his coat into the seat next to me.
Mike was a little taller than me and thinner but his build was lean and athletic rather than scrawny and soft like mine. He gave me a half-wave and put on his friendliest smirk. "Matt, right?" He asked me, reaching out his hand.
The door was too far from the couch to shake his hand without getting up, so I stood and walked to the door, taking his hand in mine. He gripped me firmly, staring me down with the confidence of a man twice his size.
"So how do we do this?" He asked John, not letting go of my hand.
John pushed the door closed quietly and walked around me, plopping himself down beside his coat on the sofa. "Just whip it out, he'll drop to his knees like a moth to a flame, dude."
"Alright," Mike moaned, releasing his grip on my hand to grasp his zipper. "Let's get right to it, then." Without any further ceremony he pushed his pants down past his hips and pulled out his erection. It looked nothing like John's. It was a couple inches shorter and thin, almost sharp in appearance, and it angled sharply to the left. He backed up to the couch, leaning back against it for support.
I just stood there, frozen. Never in a million years did I anticipate being in that situation.
"Well, what are you waiting for?" John asked. "You know the deal."
"Yeah, get on your knees, bitch, and suck this cock dry." He wrapped his hand around the base of his cock and shook it lewdly at me. I could already see precum gathering at the tip.
I wasn't sure how I felt about John using me the way he did, but this was utterly horrifying. What had he told this man about me? And who was this person to him anyway? I had never met Mike before. Was he another friend of John's I didn't know about, or was this just some stranger he thought might think it was funny that his roommate secretly liked sucking cock?
Mike put his hand on my shoulder and pushed down, not hard enough to actually force me to get into position, but enough to get the point across as to what he wanted me to do. I gave up, lowering myself to my knees. I didn't want to go down on him, but I didn't not want to go down on him either. It was that distinction that made it all worse. Three days ago this man would have had to hold a gun to my head to get me this far, but now at John's whim I was staring at the erection of a stranger from mere inches away.
He guided me forward and I opened my mouth, letting the head of his cock slip between my lips. I could hear his breathing change as my face grew closer to his hips and more of his manhood disappeared inside me.
"Oh man, you were right," Mike groaned. "His mouth feels just like a hot bitch's"
"Better," John corrected. "All he wants to do is suck your cock. You don't have to pretend like you love him, or are gonna call him tomorrow. You don't even have to treat him like a fucking person."
Mike raised an eyebrow. "Is that right?" I saw the devilish grin spread across his face as he brought his hands to grip the back of my head where it met my neck. I knew what he was going to do before he even did it, but couldn't summon the confidence to resist. He lifted his hips, holding my head tightly as he drove his cock down my throat. He held me there for a moment, watching me choke and flail and then lowered his ass back down to the couch. He didn't wait to let me collect myself like John had, as soon as he was clear of my throat he thrust in again. Once more he watched me struggle before withdrawing himself and repeating the process again and again. Each time was slightly quicker than the last until he was plainly fucking my head.
"Does this bitch swallow?" He asked, smirking down at me.
John's response was half laugh. "Only one way to find out."
"Not like you have a choice," he said, looking down at me, and I felt the warm presence in my throat of fresh cum. His eyes locked onto mine. "Do you like that taste?" He asked, half question, half taunt. I instinctively swallowed, and he took that as an affirmative, but I didn't really taste his load until he lowered his hips and retracted his cockhead back onto my tongue. It tasted a lot like John's, and yet completely different, salty but thin with just a hint of sweetness.
He pushed me back gently and slid off the couch, pulling up his pants and replacing himself inside. "Damn, John, that was the best money I ever spent." He looked down at me and then back to my roommate. "I'm gonna take off. That's cool, right?"
My best friend nodded enthusiastically. "That's the best part."
Before I knew it the door was open and shut and I was alone with John. "What was that?" was all I could ask.
"I dunno," He answered. "We got to talking at work about women and all that and Mike agreed with me that a hole's a hole and all that really matters is getting off when we want to get off. I could tell he was the kind of idiot who would pay someone to do something they were dying to do anyway. I knew you'd like a little variety."
I licked my lips subconsciously. The only reason I know I did it was because it renewed the taste of Mike's cum in my mouth. "How much did you charge him?"
John turned back to the television. "Don't worry, I didn't charge him too much. I know you're not very good yet." That was all he would say on the subject. I never did find out exactly how much John charged Mike, but I didn't see a dime of it.
Silence filled the air. Not complete silence, the sound of the television mocked me with the laugh track from some 80s sitcom, but John clearly had nothing else to say on any subject. I walked around to the front of the couch but he didn't turn to look at me. I didn't know what more to do or say. The words that I eventually spoke shocked even me. "Do you want me to take care of you now?"
He grimaced. "No way, man. That guy just shot his load in your mouth, I'm not sticking my dick in there. That's totally gay, dude."
Equal parts relieved and disappointed; I exited to my bedroom and buried myself beneath the blankets.
The next day I woke up five minutes before the alarm went off, but instead of getting up and doing my normal before-work routine I reached over, unplugged the alarm, and climbed back under the covers. I didn't wake up again until I heard the apartment door slam, then I crept out to make sure John had left. Originally I had intended to call in sick to work, but I didn't want to hang around wondering what was in store for me next. At least at work I had other things to worry about.
Just before my shift ended I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. I had a text from John. He wanted me to meet him up the street at McDonalds. This wasn't an unusual occurrence, before recent events we used to grab dinner out together at least once a week. The invitation still felt odd. Every time I was around my roommate lately it seemed like it was all about blowjobs. What would it be like to hang out with him in public now? I made up my mind to confront him. In a public place we would at least be forced to use code so I wouldn't have to put into words what I had done for him yesterday, and he couldn't make me do it again before hearing my thoughts and feelings.
The whole drive there I rehearsed my speech. Things had gone too far. I just wanted to cut my losses and go back to the way things used to be. If I had to, I would move out and find a new apartment. Things were clearly spiraling out of control, and that was as much my fault as it was his. I climbed out of my car in front of the restaurant, the whole conversation already planned exactly the way I wanted it to play out, but as soon as I saw him standing outside I knew I was beat. I couldn't confront John that day. He wasn't alone.
Standing next to him was another man I had never seen before. He was the same height as John but chubby. Andrew, John introduced him as before waving me to follow them inside. We made awkward small talk while waiting in line to order. The weather had been nice, some sports team was doing better than another, and John did his usual act where he pretended he just realized he had forgotten his wallet. Usually I covered him, but Andrew stepped in and treated. He didn't seem too upset about it and so I knew that he was unfamiliar with John's routine.