After Jamal and I rested for a few minutes, he rolled over next to me and asked, "So who took your cherry first?" I knew that question was coming up, but I wasn't ready to tell him yet.
"Its no one you know." I say.
We were silent for a while, I'm guessing he was trying to figure it out.
"It was Tayshawn wasn't it?" he shouted like he was on Jeopardy or some show.
"No, you'll never guess." I say know wishing it were Tayshawn who took me.
I got up from the bed and picked up my clothes to put on again.
"Was it Jordan Bentley?" He asked watching me put my clothes on.
"Whose that?" I ask.
"No, can't be him.... lemme see..."
"Dude, can we just go back to the assignment?" I say getting a little irritated.
"Well I think I got the right to know. You wouldn't let me hit it first, but you let some other dude you don't even know fuck you?"he said, his voice sounding agitated.
I didn't know what else to say, so I didn't say anything. I sat down and began looking at the math book again.
"So your not gonna tell me at all?" he asked.
"NO." I say sternly. He was silent for moment trying to find the words to say, but then it all came out.
"Alright, what happened to, Oh it's to early for us to be together and I only know you for a day. What happened to that? I thought you weren't that type to mess around anybody after the first night? Were you lying? Where you..."
"Alright I get it!" I shout.
"You know what? It just happened okay. None of it was planned... It just... happened. I'm sorry, I'm really not like what you think I am." I say calming down.
"So who was that I was just screwing not too long ago? That looked like a whole nother Tyler. It was like I was fuckin' some bitch off the street." He said.
I didn't know myself but it just came out of me. That new personality really did take over. I didn't know if it was a good thing or bad.
I stayed silent the whole time not answering any of his questions, but then I thought.
"What about you?" He looked up and asked. "What about me?"
"You didn't seem to have a problem with me getting fucked when were in the bathroom. Remember when I asked you if you were mad at me and you said, No I'm not mad, I think its hot. Or something like that. You could of told me you how much you hated someone being with me first but you didn't." I say.
He didn't respond back to me and he just turned away and stared down at his fingers.
Thats when realized that this awkward moment was going to stay awkward until I left.
"You know what, I'm just gonna leave." I closed up my books and just walked out, he still didn't even stop me and tell me to stay and work it out like I thought he would.
Was this end of Jamal and I?
As I walked down the path back to my dorm, I noticed Darius Ford from a short distance. He roomed a few doors away from me and was always really nice to me. Every time we met up with each other, usually those times were quick because he was always in a rush, (from being late to class), but when we did talk it was refreshing. He even helped me move in when I first came to the dorms.
"Hey Darius!" I shout and wave. He looked up and saw me waving at him. I saw him smile and he began to run towards me. He was definitely a looker, he favored a celebrity... that lead guy from that movie "Stomp the Yard." I think his name was Chris Columbus but I could be wrong, except a lot taller. Anyways, he made it over to me and asked, "Wassup?"
"Nothing much just coming from class." I say but then I changed my mind and said, "Actually there's a lot going on with me."
"Oh forreal? Whats happening?" he asked. He sounded really concerned about me.
"Its actually a long story, do you want to go somewhere and talk?" I ask.
"Yeah thats cool." he said.
"I'm actually just leaving class and I don't have to go back till 7, we can go back to my room if you want to." he said.
"Sure. Thats cool with me." I say in agreement.
We walked back to the dorm room and I figured I should stop by my room to see if Quinn was still there. He wasn't there but I kinda figured it. Darius walked me in his room and asked me for anything to drink.
"I'll take some water." I say. While he got the water, he began to ask, "So whats been happening for the last few days? Do you still like it here?
"The school so far is really cool." I say.
"Everything seems pretty nice, but already I'm having some issues with some people." I say.
"Uh oh, is it the race thing?" he asked.
"No, no its nothing like that. People see pass that which is a good thing. It's just..... The relationship thing." I say, not really knowing how to say it.
"Ohhh, you mean your trying to get with someone?" he said giving me a bottle water.
"Ummm....yes and no." I say.
Darius looked at me strangely and said, "I'm not really following you. Explain." I went on to tell him about Jamal, but not mentioning his name, and how he really digs me, then talking about Quinn and how much I hated him at first but now I want him. I left out all the sex hoping he would get it. He stood there for minute trying to process everything I had said.
"Did you sleep with any of them?" I was taken back by the question but I lied and said no.
"Good. Cuz I want you first." he said.
"What?!" I say from shock.
"Im joking man." he said with a smile. I sat quietly staring at him, he wasn't joking. I just sensed it. I switched to back to the topic. "So what do you think I should do?"
"Your situation is very complicated Tyler. You should follow what you think is right. Who ever you feel more comfortable with is the guy you should be with." he said.
I thought about it for a second. Maybe he's right. Jamal makes me feel good every time I'm around him, and the sex was awesome, but Quinn on the other hand is the complete opposite, but the sex is AMAZING.
Then I started to wonder if I really wanted a relationship with any of them. Maybe all I want is sex? That could be the answer.....
"Listen Darius, thanks for the advice." I say. "You really helped me out with this one."
