How could it be that I was engaged to a beautiful woman, but all I could think about was getting naked with a man? Let me explain. My wife to be, a brunette with 36DD, big brown eyes, nice body, who caught the look of many males - just wasn't getting it all done for me sexually.
Unbeknownst to her, I'd had sex with men and really enjoyed it. She didn't know about the collection of dildos I used to shove in my ass while imagining a beautiful man fucking me until he empties his load on me or the gay magazines I hid from her, or the gay CD-ROMS. We lived in two different cities during our engagement which allowed me to be open and honest with who I was (am) and on this Saturday afternoon; I had no work and no responsibility for the day.
I always loved walking around naked and today was not different. I surfed the web for some porn, played with my cock, had a dildo buried in my ass and discovered a couple great story websites. My all-time favorite chat line was gay.com (Although Sniffles seems to be really good too now).
In the late 90's and early 2000's live chat was the rage and gay.com had what AOL used to with m4m. So, I got in the room called locals hoping to meet someone. I was sitting there naked, smoking a cigarette, and jacking off. After a while I met a man and as we chatted, we discovered we were only about 45 minutes from each other. I felt comfortable enough to invite him down. He agreed and said he be at my place around 7pm.
I was (and probably still am) a normal guy. Normal in the sense that I followed family traditions, such as graduating from high school, going on to college and graduating, and finding a nice girl to settle down with and onto the "American Dream" of buying a house and retaining a good job. The kicker is that because I had experienced sex with another man it kind of consumed me. I think back to having sex with my fiancΓ© and realized there were multiple times I could never getting truly hard, but when I needed to get hard, I'd think about sucking a guy's cock. The thought of gay sex was exciting and consuming me to point that I'm hard right now.