I was never active sexually despite trying to chat up girls from an early age. Growing up, I had never come across gay people and was oblivious to the fact until my late twenties when I discovered that 2 guys I'd worked with were that way inclined.
As an F.Y.I. I was quite inhibited and only inadvertently found out about wanking when a neighbour's daughters visited her from Ireland.. The older one was friendly, conversely the younger one was a bit of a bitch. Both had in common that they were absolute beauties and I fantasized about both in my mind, when my cock's pleasant arousal gave me an erection.
As I grew older and still with no sexual experience except with myself obviously. My fantasies became more and more perverted and I began to imagine being dominated and humiliated by women; at work, by personal acquaintances and generally with strangers.
Anyway, still a virgin in my late 30s, I began to buy sex magazines and videos. As porn became readily accessible on the internet, I started to watch and became addicted.
Beginning with normal sex, I saw that oral sex was a regular part of the action and I really became really excited with lesbian sex side of it when two or more girls were involved in scenes.
This led to more extreme domination and I selected the gay category and lesbian subsection. Howwver, whilst watching lesbian movies temptation got a hold of me and I strayed to gay men subsection.
The explicit gay fucking and sucking, together with my natural penchant for humiliation aroused my curiosity rather than me being appalled. I visualised myself sucking cock and being fucked in the arse. I began to watch regularly and was hooked. Gay gangbangs were the primary attraction and I imagined myself as the bottom in the pictures as I wanked myself off.
At 45, I got the closest experience when a neighbour moved in. He had lots of dinner parties and we regularly conversed.
As we chatted more and more and he opened up over the next year, He said that the dinner parties I'd heard next door were sometimes mixed
although predominantly all male affairs. "I'm no longer bi as I once was". He said, I've been totally gay for over 5 years and I have soirees as mentioned for 6, 10 or 12 people."
That shocked me a bit and I may have revealed desire and betrayed my inner thoughts. "I'll have you soon, I'm usually the aggressive 'top' although have taken cock too." He added, laughing
I don't know whether I gave anything. away as I said but he came round with a bottle of wine the evening after the revelation and walked straight in. "Drinkies". He said.
I got a couple of glasses out and joined him in the lounge on the settee. I drank quickly and nervously anticipating that he would make an approach. The bottle was empty very soon as he talked openly about his conquests which defied his appearance as he wasn't well built nor good looking really. As he boasted, I smiled and nodded encouragingly.
I brought another bottle of wine out, keen to hear more and hopeful that this was leading somewhere, if I'm honest.
I have always had positive vibes of your sexuality. "I'm not wrong am I?" He presumed.