"You missed a bit," I whispered, gesturing with my eyebrows up to his head. He got his phone out to use as a mirror to check his spiked up fringe and picked off the little glob of cum clinging to a gelled-up spike on the side of his head with his finger and thumb, wiping it off on his apron.
"It can go with all the rest," he smiled, then returned to fixing my coffee. "I'll bring it over," he says.
I've had my eye on this guy in my local coffee shop for a while now. A long while. So long that I thought it was never going to happen, and I had lost my nerve, thinking the chance was blown. I'm an expat in a big Asian city, and every week when my cleaning lady comes in, I pack up some things and decamp to a coffee shop near my house. I like this shop because it is wide and open. It has a balcony that stretches across the front of the building, and it has good tables that are more like desks than coffee shop tables, which are perfect for setting up camp with my computer for a few hours. That and because I think the barista is very attractive.
When I first frequented the shop, I ordered in my pidgin version of the local language. JH - I'd seen his name on his name tag - replied to me in flawless English, so I assumed he had been abroad to study as a teenager. He was mid-twenties, pretty tall for a local, with a handsome face that is quite long and has a rugged, squared off jaw. He's not drop dead gorgeous, but he's good looking, and he has something about him. Once, he told me "Haven't seen you for a while" when I came to the shop after a vacation, which I found quite sweet as I took it that he had noticed me - more precisely, that he had thought about me while I had been away. Since that moment a little knot has tightened in my stomach whenever I came to the shop and he was behind the register.
I fit the description of a bear cub - dark-haired thirtysomething, 6 ft 5 in tall, broad and stocky, and hairy all over. Being so tall and big, I'd never really felt confident about my body, as I could do with a little toning up and it is hard to get decent clothes when you live in Asia, leaving me feeling like a big sloppy mess. So any sexual attention received from anyone always welcome, but makes me nervous for some reason. I'm usually good to go once I know someone is into me, but I'm not so good at being flirtatious.
In the weeks and months that followed that comment, my attraction to him grew, and I started to suspect a little bit if he was into me. Like, sometimes I would absent-mindedly look up from my computer while I was thinking of something, and I would notice him looking over in my direction. Or once or twice I saw him on the street when he wasn't working and he'd make sure to nod in recognition and say hi. But then it started to change as each week when I would come to the shop he would be sitting with a man - an older Western man - and I saw them walking together on the street a few time on a Saturday night around the area. Perhaps they were there to discuss business? JH, for all I knew, could have been the manager and the western man the owner of the shop. More likely, I began to suspect, they were partners - boyfriends. I didn't really know, but the knot always twisted in my stomach when I saw him, and the ambiguity started to get to me.
Today, when I came into the shop it was after a six week-long trip to Australia. I'd been lazy and had grown myself a bit of a beard, and from walking and swimming a lot I had lost a couple of kilos in weight. The shop was empty, as it always was at that time in the morning, and it appeared to be only him and another staff member working. He was sitting at a table close to the counter looking at some papers, and when I entered he looked up and saw me, giving me a nice big smile. "Long time no see," he said.
My stomach knotted pretty tightly, as by now I knew that I was totally attracted to him. I had wondered while I was away if he would say something about my absence, like he did last time. I smiled back, and said, "Yeah, I've been away. Back to work next week."
"Cool," he said. Then he got up and walked to the counter. I dropped my eyes down and looked at his butt. It was nice; nothing spectacular, but nicely proportioned and with a bit of a wobble. My mind flashed back to the times I had jerked off thinking about his butt.
I didn't order what I normally did, which surprised him, as he was already starting to ring up my usual order on the till. "Oh, you're changing it up," he commented.
"Yeah," I said. "I feel like doing something different today."
"Good to know," he said, flashing me a grin.
I took my coffee over to my usual seat, unpacking my computer from my bag and laying it on the table. I didn't open it up, though. I leaned back in my chair and flicked my eyes up at JH. He was behind the coffee machine, but he must have noticed that I was looking at him because he looked up and gave me a smile, the type of smile you give when you realise someone is looking at you and you're not sure what type of response to give.
A minute later, he came over to the small counter near my table to refill the water and napkins. When he turned around, he looked at me and once again he asked, "So where have you been these last few weeks?"
"Travelling," I said, trying to not sound flustered and awkward. "Six weeks in Australia."
"That explains the tan, then" he said, approaching the table and standing behind the chair on the other side of it. "And the beard."
"Ha, yeah," I laughed. "I got a little lazy."
"That's what vacations are for," he said. "It suits you."
"Thanks." My stomach churned majorly. Was he hitting one me? "I'm not sure whether to keep it or not."