I have always been submissive and I was taught this in high school by a much older man who taught me the joys of submission. But after he left my life for various reasons, there was no way for me to find another person or persons to dominate me, sexually.
I'm a skinny, wall flower nerdy kid with good grades alone in a HUGE university in the Midwest and being from a small southern town I was petrified. I'm not a FratRat type, but I do like to drink while I play online Video games. I don't work out and I'm non violent outside of gaming. I'm not into most sports, but I have been a swimmer In high school and did very well in that. Good enough for this full ride scholarship.
I'm not a virgin. I'd fucked a girl all through high school. Rich little slut. I'd gotten good at licking cunt. I'd say I was as dominant with women as was possible given my circumstances.
Guys. I'd been seduced by a family friend. Long before I lost my Cherry to a girl I'd been a willing slut to a much older man who'd carefully groomed me and gained my trust and the trust of those who cared for me. Being fatherless, I loved the attention. Nothing violent. All he wanted was to suck my balls dry. He'd pick me up from high school and take me to a movie or for a soda and slice of pizza. I loved when he'd quietly order me to "take it out." Right in the car! In traffic, I'd unzip my pants and haul my cock out for him to fondle. Later, still in the car or maybe in his apartment he'd suck my cock until I exploded. Over and over and over. I was literally "cum on tap." And I could cum three times in an hour. All day long.
But then I got to older and he lost interest. I went off to college on my swimming scholarship. I really wanted to find someone to sexually use me. I wanted to be forced to suck cock or eat cunt or even take it up my ass. I just didn't have any idea how to find that.
I studied hard in school. Lived in the dorm. Stayed alone, Ignored the Fraternity Rush and ROTC and all that. I studied very hard. My days and nights were at the school library. And I was being watched.
One evening I was checking out a reference book and the student at the checkout desk (a serious jock, heavily muscled) and a looked at me, licked his lips and asked:
"Well, where've YOU been all my life?"
I looked at him and (after glancing around quietly) pursed my lips and blew him a kiss. His eyebrows shot up and he looked shocked.
I was having a lot of trouble in just one class: Biology. Couldn't understand why I had a "D." Made an appointment to meet with the professor . The only available time was 10:00 pm! Damn. When I arrived at the office it was dark. I knocked on the office door. When It opened, the senior from the library desk was staring at me. Like the cat about to eat the canary. I stepped inside and he shut the door. I was dimly aware of a figure seated deeper in the office. Suddenly the jock grabbed me and shoved me against the wall. He locked my arms above my head, easily. Then he KISSED me hard and deep. I panicked and struggled a moment and something else took over and I melted into his grip with a moan and a whimper. The jock released me and called over his shoulder: "Little slut has potential!" The seated figure told the jock what to do. I was given a sheet of paper and told to be at a specific address at a specific time. I was then shoved back out of the door. No "conference."
All week I agonized over going. In the end, I thought I had no choice. So I showed up at the time and place.