Tom felt like he was going to be sick. He paced back and forth in his living room, mind racing. What was he going to do? Was it just his imagination? Maybe Jason had been joking, and he was worrying for nothing. He was just about to grab his phone to text Jason, and tell him not to come over. He could come up with some excuse. Just then he heard a knock on his door.
"Shit," he muttered. Too late. He heard another knock. Maybe he could pretend he forgot Jason was coming over and say he had to go out? He pulled the door open, ready to make up an excuse. His friend Jason was casually standing there, leaning against the wall, a knowing smile on his handsome face. All thoughts flew out of his head, and his stomach dropped. He was on the top of the rollercoaster about to go down the hill and there was no getting off.
"Can I come in," Jason said quietly, eyes steady on Tom's face.
"Come on in," Tom said robotically, stepping back automatically to let Jason pass. Jason walked past him slowly, shoulder brushing Tom's chest, and Tom instantly felt goosebumps raise on his arms. His heartbeat was speeding up, and he took a deep breath to calm down, and shut and locked the front door. He turned to face his friend.
Neither said anything, just locked eyes. There was a tension in the room that almost made the air crackle.
This all started the weekend before. Tom had some guys over to watch the game. It was a long night of football and drinking, and eventually Jason was the only person still there. Tom didn't think it was a good idea for Jason to drive, so he told him to stay over. He was pretty drunk himself, so it was it good thing he didn't need to go anywhere.
As they sat on the couch, bullshitting back and forth, Tom drunkenly complained that he needed to get laid. It had been months since he had broken up with his girlfriend, and even when they were together, the sex hadn't been great. Normally Tom was very buttoned up, but he had more to drink than he had in a long time, and Jason was one of those guys that didn't say a lot, but seemed to make those around him talk. As Tom went on, Jason smiled and didn't say anything.
"What is so funny," Tom slurred.
"Nothing, you actually just made me think about my last girlfriend, and this amazing threesome we had. That girl was wild." He shook his head looking away like he was remembering every detail in his head. Then he looked back at Tom who was staring at him. "What?"
"You can't just say that and not give the gory details man. I know what Tory looked like, she was so hot, but what about the other chick? What did they do? C'mon, give it up!"
"What chick?"
"The third of your threesome?"
"Oh." Jason stopped there, still smiling. "It wasn't a woman."
That thought just hung there in air. Tom was pretty drunk, so it took him a minute then his eyes grew large. "You mean you were with a guy? You are shitting me!"
"No, I'm not." He took a swig from his beer bottle and put it on the table. "It was for Tory's birthday. She always fantasized about being in the middle of a man sandwich, and at first I thought no way, but I came around. I was trying to keep things together with us, and was willing to try just about anything.
"No way man," Tom, said shaking his head. "You did not."