I've been told to write this letter by the man I now live with. He believes it might encourage others in similar situations to find compatible lovers.
I'm Jack, 28 years old, 5'8", 150 lbs, and considered good looking. I've been bisexual since I was a teenager, when I first fooled around with male friends. I continued playing with both men and women into my early 20s but something always seemed to be missing from my relationships. Then, a few years ago, a girlfriend of mine and I went to see the movie "Secretary." For those of you who haven't seen it, the film tastefully deals with a S&M relationship between a male boss and his female secretary.
When my girlfriend and I were lying in bed that night she told me that she thought I had some strong submissive tendencies myself. As examples, she referred to my heightened joy at having her sit on my face hard and stuff her fingers up my ass as she ground her pussy onto my mouth.
I was a little perplexed by what she said, but somewhat agreed. I asked her if she'd like to try exploring more of that with me and she politely declined saying, "Men are usually more dominant sexually, I'm not into being a dominatrix…."
Over the next few days I gave it a lot of thought and began to think that I'd like to have a strong man to dominate me sexually. It did start to make some sense to me, as I always really preferred being the 'receiver' during anal sex.
I placed an ad on the Internet looking for a dominant 'top' man to take charge of me sexually. I made it clear in the ad that I was bisexual but had the desire to drop the bi part and go 100 percent gay with the right man. I had a bunch of replies and spent weeks chatting online with these men. Unfortunately, most of them only seemed interested in a quickie or were bizarre people in other ways.
Then Dan answered my ad. He seemed very likeable from our chats so I agreed to meet him in person at a local coffee shop. I was attracted at first sight. Dan was 35 handsome and very tall—nearly 6'6". He explained that he wasn't interested in just a one night stand, that he wanted regular sexual encounters with a partner who was willing to completely submit to him.
I was intrigued and a little scared by what he said so I asked, "Completely submit? What does that mean to you?"
Dan didn't miss a beat as he replied, "I tell you what to do and you do it, whenever we're in private you follow my orders. I want to start off with a guy who knows what I'm looking for and become more dominant and kinky with future sessions. Also, there'd be no room for you to be bi, you'd have to realize that you're 100 homosexual from now on…"
There was silence for a while after he said that. Although that was exactly what I'd requested in my ad, hearing a real man speak it to me in person left my head spinning.
Dan broke the silence by asking "Are you okay with that?" I could only nod my head in response. "Good, " he continued. "because eventually our relationship would wind up with me as the master and you as my sex slave."
Dan added that if I was willing to try it, I should report to his home on Friday, prepared to stay the weekend. He also told me to shave myself completely from the neck down as my first act of submission to him.
I nervously prepared myself shaving my body completely on Thursday night. When I arrived at his house the following night, I was trembling. Dan greeted me in only running shorts.
He asked me as he closed the door behind us, "So, you ready to be my faggot boy?" I said, "Yes." Dan snapped back 'No, say it all out loud!" I got the hint and answered "I am ready to be your faggot boy'
"Good boy" he said.
He told me to make myself comfortable and handed me a beer. We made small talk for about 10 minutes and I quickly downed two beers.
Dan said "We'll get down to business now" I stood up to face him. "Let's see if you're hairless," he said. I removed my clothes. He was pleased with my appearance and told me I had a nice body. Dan moved up closer and put his hands on my shoulders. I thought he might lean in and kiss me but instead started pushing down on my shoulders. I dropped down to my knees in front of him.
Dan then lowered his shorts and out sprung a very thick 7.5" cock that was already semi hard. He took it in his hand and started rubbing it all over my face. I was in heaven and thought about how much being submissive was turning me on. I instinctively kissed his cock a few times. In a low voice he said "Yeah that's it, make it hard" I kept kissing and licking his shaft and ball sack and Dan's cock began to grow and get stiffer.
He continued wiping it all over my face then pointed it at my lips and said "Jack, I know you've given head before but its going to be different with me. You are going to WORSHIP my cock and balls. Now put your lips on my cockhead."
I opened my mouth and looked up at Dan. He immediately pushed the fat head onto my tongue. Unfortunately, his girth and length meant I could only suck a few inches at first. I did my best to keep my teeth from grazing him.
I managed to get a some more cock in my mouth after a few minutes. I head Dan say "Yeah, you love my dick in your mouth don't you?" I could only moan with my mouth full in reply. Dan then put one hand, then the other on the back of my head and started pushing further into my mouth. He would push the head 'till it reached the back of my throat, I'd start to gag a little, then he'd pull back as I struggled to keep up.
Dan started getting more verbal. He was calling me a cocksucker and a slut and obviously getting worked up as he pushed my head down on his thick dick over and over. Occasionally, he would pull it out and tell me to lick his balls as he rubbed his wet dick all over my face. We moved all around his living room while I spent at least 15 minutes sucking him.
I felt him getting more forceful. He kept pushing the cockhead against the back of my mouth and holding it there. I began to consciously relax my throat, so as not to gag. He must have sensed this because I then felt him grab my head hard with both hands and lunge forward.
The cockhead went into my throat. I could barely breath around it and started breathing through my nose. Dan said "YEAH! Like that?" I managed to moan with my mouth full of cock. He pushed the head further in and I felt my throat being stretched. Thankfully, I wasn't choking or gagging and before I knew it, Dan's big balls reached my chin.
He held his cock all the way in my mouth and throat for a good 30 seconds until he withdrew almost completely from my throat, then he slowly plunged back in. "Good boy," he said "Eat that big cock. You're gonna be having my dick in your throat a lot so get used to it!"
