Today my world changes forever.
I sit on this couch wearing nothing but my underwear and a hood over my face. I am blindfolded and my hands are tied. I am waiting with anticipation. My hosts sit beside me, and we are all awaiting the start of a show on chaturbate. I was told it was best to allow a crowd to join before we start our show. This is all new to me, and I am not in any position to do anything. They have complete control. This is probably for the best - both for the experience and to avoid me running away scared.
Let me share some background and how I got here. I am - at least for a little while longer - a straight man in my mid-forties that has been curious about exploring my sexuality with other men - specifically a couple of young jocks in this case. I have wanted to explore but been afraid. I have casually and anonymously watched these two perform for some time on my screen. Each time I watched them I would fantasize what it would be like to be there with them.
One day, I got the balls and sent a quick chat message to them during one of their performances with no expectation that I would get a response. The messages went something like this.
Me: Hi. I am a straight and curious guy in my 40s. I have a fantasy to submit to you during one of your cam shows. I want to touch, feel, and taste your cock all while your fans watch and tease me. I have never touched another man's cock, so this would be a first for everything.
I waited... and waited... and after about ten minutes, I finally got a response.
Jocks: Tell me more. You have my interest.
Me: I am a straight, married guy in my 40s. I have never experimented with another guy. I have never touched another guy. but the time has come. I watch you and fantasize about what it would feel like to have your cock in my mouth, in my ass... to taste your cum.