How did I get here? What happened? Did I ever think I would find myself in this kind of situation, or even anywhere close to the path that would have led me here?
It's strange the kind of things that run through my head at different times. Before my first kiss I tried to remember, quickly, if I forgot my wallet at home and while I was kissing her I gave my pockets a quick slap to be sure. When my girlfriend said she was breaking up with me the first thing that entered my mind was what was I going to do with the movie tickets I bought for that weekend. My mind always strayed away from the situation at hand to think of something slightly off and it was doing it again right now.
First of all I'm tied up. Willingly of course, but I'm still bound at each wrist and each ankle and restrained to the bed. Well, actually, first of all I'm tied up and naked. Again, willingly of course.
Secondly, I'm not alone.
When I started my day I didn't know it would end up like this. I woke up and went about everything as a normal Sunday, quiet and uneventful. But as the day went on I grew a little bored and a little horny, which led me down a path to where I am right now.
The normal means of self gratification wasn't really doing it for me so I went in search of something more. I wanted another mind to play with, not just frolicking through the depths of my own depraved thoughts, so I logged onto my Fetlife account. It had been a few months since I was last on but its always there when I need it for a quick and kinky jaunt around the city to perv at some attractive women and, lately, men too.
There have been more and more moments that I've been interested in sexualizing men. It began shortly after my girlfriend broke up with me. I was looking at porn and began searching for more and more porn with multiple men with huge cocks fucking the same girl. It was hot and turned me on more than anything else at the time and the phrase "huge cock" or "thick cock" became part of my regular search entry when looking to get off.
After a while I even incorporated some gay porn into my jerk off sessions. I had to search for the right kind though. I didn't like videos with twinks or a lot of facial shots with moaning and talking, all I wanted to see was a hungry pair of male lips and a thick piece of meat sliding in and out of them, and after a short while of pumping if the video turned into someone getting their ass pounded I wasn't going to stop to find something else. I just settled in until my body shuddered and I came into my underwear.
So when I logged into Fetlife and noticed an event nearby that promised kink and debauchery I was struck with a lot of interest. Whether it was the lack of sex in the past few months or a slow bubbling need to explore more, I felt the need to go exploring.
I read the ad; public shows, private rooms, live sex, hook-ups, dancing and drinks and fun.
"Why not?" I said to myself.
So I went. I showed up and walked around and noticed all of the goings-on. People generally having fun. Some were dancing to the music blaring in from every angle. Some were making out against the walls. Some were drinking and talking. The lights were flashing and it felt like a giant party.
As I walked through the hallway the lights faded from a club-like flashing to a reddish hue. The rooms didn't have doors on the hinges and I could see what was happening in each one. Some were empty. Some had people wandering around in them and looking out as each person passed by, hoping someone would stop in. Others were filled with a variety of people having many different forms of sex.
At first I tried not to catch anyone's eye for fear of having to tell them I wasn't interested. Not because I wasn't but because I wasn't sure if I wanted to or not. Some people were more attractive then others. Some people were a little more adventurous than I'd care to get involved with. I was nervous and I didn't know what I wanted to do.
Until Victor said hello.
Victor was a well built, masculine man with a friendly but confident looking face. He was charming and, basically, he made my dick hard just having him call out to me.
"Hey," I looked up at him calling towards me from a doorway.
"Me?" I answered.
Victor nodded and gave me a nod in his direction.
I made my way over to him, surprised at his singling me out and my developing erection from the situation.
"Hey man, I'm Victor, well Vick but you can call me whatever. What's going on, you just looking or...?"
He let the words hang out like a leash for me to pick up and be guided in by.
"I uh, I don't know really. I've never-," as I was talking he cut me off with a smile and his hand on my back.
"Well come on in then, lets have some fun."
I felt a surge run through my body. I felt like I was melting at his strong hand on my shoulder and I bit my lips to steady my heavy breathing.
"So, you've never been here before?"
"No," I said timidly and shook my head. I had a hard time looking at him in the face. His eyes were looking right into me and it felt like he could read my mind. Like he could see the image of me on my knees with his dick in my mouth and him using my lips as a cock cozy.