I paced around my apartment nervously, awaiting a notification on my phone. Part of me wanted no reply to come, part of me wanted it more than anything. What was I doing?! I'd already sucked Casey's cock - my first ever - just a few hours ago! How could I invite him over again?! Why?! Why were the naughty thoughts invading my mind again?! I knew why. Because I was "one of Casey's cocksuckers"...
He'd done it. Casey got me. He dealt with years of verbal abuse from my friends and I, and after it was all said and done, got total revenge on me. The gay fat guy turned me out. He made me just another of his cocksuckers. I still don't get it. But I'm starting to not care...
I knew it the moment that hard cock of his erupted in my mouth, that I could never come back from this. I could try and deny it all day every day, but I sucked his cock and liked it.
He was in control now. Even if I wanted to stop, he wouldn't let me. He'd use that horribly embarrassing video of me swallowing his load, or our sexts, to keep me on my knees. The thing was, I didn't want to stop.
I'm not attracted to him at all. Casey is fat, like out of shape fat, hairy, and he's a man!! I don't like men. Don't wanna date a man or kiss a man. Don't wanna be Casey's friend. But oh, how I want to worship that cock of his...
My heart starts to beat really fast as the PING of a notification comes through on my phone. I run over to it and read Casey's reply: "What took you so long? ;) Be over soon."
I'm getting that excited feeling again, knowing he's coming over to make me submit to him again. I feel wrong still, but love it anyway.
I think how much I wanna suck on that cock of his, how hairy and big his belly is and how my forehead bounces off of it when I suck him. And then the REALLY bad thoughts start again...
No, no. I can't go that far. No fucking. I mean that's crossing a line, right? I think it is. I mean, I'm clean and healthy, and as long as he is, it shouldn't matter then, right? NO!! It matters! Shut up and stop considering letting this fat guy fuck you!!
The thought of it feels so wrong, so unthinkable. But that's what makes me think about it more. My legs were getting wobbly...
A few minutes pass, and Casey arrives. I'm nervous and excited. Horny and hesitant. But I know what will happen...
I open the door and there stands Casey, jeans already bulged in anticipation of feeding me. My eyes beeline to his bulge and he says "Hey. Eyes are up here..." laughing as he directs my eyes up to his with his finger.
"Uh...hey" I say nervously. "Come in"
He walks past me and I close the door. Seeing him as just a person makes me feel uncomfortable and hesitant. I feel guilty as I tell him "Uh, look, Casey...um I'm not gay, uh you know and, I uh just need you to know that this is just..."
"I know I know" he interrupts. "I've heard it a dozen times before. 'Just experimenting', 'i like girls', 'our little secret'. Like I said, you're probably just a cocksucker. Like a straight cocksucker. But it doesn't matter. The outside world doesn't say 'Wait wait! He still likes girls, he's not gay!' Once you suck cock, you're a cocksucker forever. So tell yourself whatever you have to in order to accept what you are, just as long as you admit you want this"
I nod my head innocently, allowing him to take control immediately.
"Say it" he tells me.
"I want this" I say.
"What do you want?" he asks, now with that snooty grin of his that I hate. I can see his bulge growing in his pants. He loved this. So did I.
Feeling uncomfortable still, but getting more into it now, I submit: "I want your cock" I tell him.
He kicks his shoes off to the side, then looks back to me, saying "Well, you're not making me feel much like you want it. I think you should be awful nice to it, considering your situation. Isn't it funny knowing everything you've built for a reputation here could be destroyed by a dick? HA! Now, get to doing what you wanna do, cocksucker..." His words confident and dominating, I submit into my role as Casey's cocksucker once again...
I drop to my knees as he again lifts his belly so I can undo his pants. I caress his bulge as I reach the button, popping it open and unzipping his pants slowly. I love everything that is happening, that I find myself falling deep into the femme bottom role again. Pulling his pants down, his underwear come with them a bit, and his hard cock springs out at me for the second time in one night. Seeing it sends me over the edge. I look up into his eyes, and bite my lower lip, grinning at him. He smiles back at me and I love it. "Make out with my cock" he commands down to me.
I eagerly listen, moving in and taking it in one hand, leaning in and kissing the bottom of the shaft, then up the shaft gradually, kissing more, tilting my head and wrapping my lips around it, licking it, getting it wet, kissing it, moaning on it. I get to the head, where I kiss it gently, then wrap my lips around it and tongue all over it.